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So today is the day I send off my stuff for approval! I'm so nervous and I just wish I was more patient than I am right now. I know now that this is the homestretch.... this is when it branches off. They could either end the process right now or this could become something absolutely beautiful. Its just like every day drags on because of this! Please please please everyone. Keep me in your prayers and wish me a positive outcome! Off to school for me now :D

This pre-op stuff freakin sucks! I thought I had everything in the bag last week. I had my blood work, my nutritional evaluation and my Psych evaluation..... but then my psychologist screwed me over! He requested that I take a MMPI..... with a different appointment. But it doesnt end there.... I thought that the test would be my last appointment. I mean he could review it, grade it and send out my approval but NO. He needs another appointment to review it. Its getting a tad ridiculous. I feel like hes milking medicaid for all its worth. He wants as many appointments as possible but I dont have time for this crap! So, I had to spend the last 2 days on the phone with every psychologist I could get a number for and finally found another woman, named Maxine Ruddock. She got me in for this tuesday and I made sure that I was familiar with her "procedures." Luckily she said she will have me come in for a few hours, take her required test, reveiw it, grade it and talk it over in the same appointment. That way when I leave, my approval will be sent out to my surgeons office. I just hope the gods above make it smooth sailing from here because its getting so freakin tough. I am hoping to have approval and surgery date by the week after next! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!

So I saw the nutritionist yesterday and learned some intresting things about food. I was asked every question I could imagine about my eating habits. She made me think a lot about the choices i'v made in food and how I use it for reasons other than to survive. I dont want to look to food for comfort and like its going to validate me. I have more to live for than a peice of cake or a double cheeseburger. She also explained about protien and vitamins after surgery. She showed me some good choices for protiens such as slimfast low carb and atkins shakes. She also showed me some shake powders that dont look to yummy :( Im gonna try a sample she gave me from Bariatricadvantage.com anyways. Im just so happy that its over with. She said she would have it faxed over by tuesday of next week. So now its just that MMPI standing between me and my approval! Its getting so close to it, im getting those negative feelings about not getting approved back :( Only time will tell. I just pray that this all goes through and I have a surgery date in at least june! Please veveryone pray for me!

I had my Psychological evaluation today and it went rather well. I saw Dr. Alexander Gimon in Clermont, FL and he was absolutely wonderful. He wasn't harsh and he wasn't overly critical. He did confuse me a few times, Like asking me what 8x4 is, while my mind is jumbled with nerves! I thought I had ruined my chances when I answer 24, lol. He also asked me to remember 3 words and he said apple, car, lamp.... and when he asked me to repeat them about 5 minutes later, I totally screwed them up! lol. But besides that it went very well, we talked about my history with food and about when my daughters father left me 4 months pregnant. That got pretty emotional but I held up well and he said I was handling it very nicely. When it was over and done, he asked me to schedule an appointment for the MMPI, which I knew nothing about. (I'm gonna have to do some research on that )  He also told me that I did great and that he was sure I would pass the MMPI and after that was finished and reviewed, he would fax it right over to my surgeon! SOOOO EXCITING!!! I'm just so glad that it went well because I was so nervous about it.  After the appointment was over, I had some extra time so I stopped by and had my blood drawn. Now I just have to finish this MMPI and have my nutritional evaluation! I'm getting closer!

Yesterday was my daughters 1st birthday and it went wonderfully. She got lots of good gifts and she had a great time. I was a little upset because almost everyone that I invited (who have children around Bella's age) never showed up! It hurt my feelings to know I dont have as many good friends as I thought I did   It was also very strange to think, in the back of my head, that this was the last time I would be celebrating a birthday like this. Meaning, CAKE AND PIZZA!!! But i tried to enjoy it without thinking like that because it was my daughters first birthday. I just wanted to let everyone know that she had a wonderful party and im excited for this week to start. Lord knows the weekend had flown by, everyone keep my in your thoughts as i journey through to approval!!

So...... I just spent the last 3 hours calling every nutritionist in the freakin STATE of Florida!! I finally got through to a very lovely sounding woman by the name of Janice Bader, and she agreed to meet me next Thursday at the hospital right down the street from me! I was so happy. The hourly rate blew my mind a bit but when I'm not using any gas to get there, it makes it easier to spend. I'm so happy. So now I have my blood work appointment tomorrow, my psych evaluation of Tuesday and my nutrition evaluation on Thursday. Then its approval here I come! I'm so excited! wowowowowowow i cant believe I'm finally finished setting appointments for my approval. YAY! I'm going to post her info here in case anyone needs it because shes very easy to schedule with. Enjoy!

Janice Bader
407-297-8408
$100/hr
Health Central physicians offices
Your going to get a nephrology office when you call but just ask for Janice :)

Man.... this wait is ridiculous.... its just school, mommy time, sleep.  Over and over again! I just keep looking forward to the upcoming weekend and week. Im thinking its going to speed by. Tomorrow im going to order everything for my daughters first birthday party :) Then her party is saturday..... thats going to be a crazy day with a house full of babies! lol. Then monday is her actual birthday and I will most likely take her to do something, tuesday is my pshyc evaluation, wednesday is Bella's first year checkup and im aiming for thursday to be my nutritionist appointment :) My blood work will be done today and then the process has officially begun! I know im rambling but in some weird way its helping me work these things out in my head. Im so freakin excited!  I just really want to aim for having my surgery in june because I have a court date with my ex for child support at the end of july and it would be nice to have a little weight off. Te he te he.

I dont know why I woke up feeling this way but today I just feel so anxious. I keep thinking about the surgery and just wishing this next week would pass so I could have my approval. Of course the thoughts of not being approved keep going through my head but I try to push them aside and think about how the nurse spoke to me. She kept saying "WHEN you get your surgery" this and that. So I know I have the office rooting for me and doing their best to get my approval.  I'm just so apprehensive when it comes to weight loss. Its like I cant wait to just dive in and go for it, hoping that this time will be the charm. And I know in my heart that this will be MY time.  


I keep imagining my life with my daughter after I lose the weight and steal my health back. I want to be able to take her to the park and not feel like I'm going to pass out half way walking through the sand. I also want to meet someone and be able to fully feel every moment I live because I only see and feel this weight right now. I guess thats why I'm so anxious today. (I think I just figured that out on my own. lol) I'm SOOO ready to start my new life and I just cant wait for it to begin! I know the days will pass with the same amount of time but I need to be productive to make it SEEM faster. With my daughters 1st b-day next weekend and that I'm starting phlebotomy in school this week, I'm sure that will be no problem! But I digress, I dont know if this would be pushy but should I call the doctors office on Wednesday to check for approval? That will be exactly one week since my first appointment.... man.... this is about to be the best year of my life! 

So today was amazing! Apart from getting lost for 3 hours in leesburg . But thats beside the point. My appointment with Dr. Shebani was awesome. Dr. Shebani, himself, wasnt the greatest person i'v met. Hes a bit rushed and not very "involved" with patients. I might even say a tad bit rude, actually VERY rude! Every question I asked was shortly cut off and answered like this "IM THE SURGEON, THATS IT!" It was up to the m.a. to explain things to me and thats when I got so excited! The actually said I could use my prior weight lost attmepts with a doctor who prescribed me Phentermine to count as my required 6 month diet from medicaid! I freaked! She gave me my referrals, said i should have approval in about a week and I could start my 6 week pre-op diet! OH MY GOD!! 

I have a hard time believing this is actually happening . Im flushed with excitment and I cant wipe this smile of my face! I just can't believe that my weight loss journey could be coming this soon! Oh, and we chose gastric bypass as my route of surgery. I was thinking lap band but after hearing the doctor explain it, I found my heart to be set on the gastric bypass. Im just sooooooo happy beyond words. All my dreams could be coming true!!!

So, I called Dr. Jawads office today and was told that my refferal was next to be reviwed. From what I understand, Dr. Jawad doesnt accept medicaid, my doc will be Dr. Shebani. Im just really worried that mine wont be accepted and i'll be stuck again. My mom keeps telling me that im just being negative but i cant help but feel like this. I know its difficult for people to get approval through medicaid and its just my luck they wont deem me medically needy of WLS. I really pray that everything works out and I will let everyone know how the call back goes!