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well well well....im 2 months out and down about 53 lbs so far.  had a three week stall and i think i should be loosing again...i havent been on a scale in about 2 weeks.  some days i think im doing horribly with my eating..either eating bad or too much.  this whole thing can be stressful at times!! but on the flip side i zipped up my ALDO boots and WHOOODY WHOOO!!!  i felt like a brand new woman.  i have noticed more energy and confidence on my end and just over all feeling alot better in my skin.  i can walk in my heels without feeling like my knees or ankles are going to give out and i guess things are going pretty good.  my clothes are fitting alot differently and even my underwhere fall down from time to time!! 

and it feels like its been waaaaayyyy longer!!!  i think im doing ok, although i have realized that i dont really dump and i can eat alot of things.  i have seen people get bashed on OH for experimenting and trying things...some of us are a little more hard headed than others.  im not letting anyone make me feel bad for the choices i make...i have had enough of that my entire life.  Im down about 50 lbs s of two weeks ago.  im not obsessed with the scale and i weigh about once very two weeks at my nutritionist.  that way if i hit a little stall i dont get depressed.  i posted a pic or two for a little update on my progress.  i cant really tell the difference in my physically, but i do notice the difference in my clothes and how they fit.  i cant wait until i can look at myself in the mirror and see a drastic change!

so...yesterday i was going out shopping with my mom.  all my sweats were dirty so i decided to try a pair of jeans (which i had been avoiding since all of my jeans were too tight pre op)  i picked a pair that fit a little snug b4 and i slid them on with no struggles!!!  then when i fastened them i had a bunch of room and they were fallin gof my butt.  i was picking them up all day in IKEA!!!!  Yayayaya!!  I couldnt wait to get home to get them off and as i walked up the steps to my bedroom they feel below my buttcheeks!!! HAHAHAHA!!!  i was alble to take them off by just sliding them down without even unbuttoning them!!!  That was my mini WOW moment....

I think i think about food way more now then I did b4 the surgery.  I constantly have to think about what im going to eat and what I can eat.  im 2 weeks post op and so far everything I have tried has done just fine.  I can hold down an egg, string cheese, soups, mashed potatoes and gravy, creamed spinach, and water,   im having a tuff time getting in my protein and I just cant wait til i can eat some more normal things.  i dont desire to pig out anymore, im excited to work the tool in a healthy way, but right now i would really like to eat a salad or a real square meal.  i know it gets better in a month or so, but for now, the limitations are very frustrating.  so i try to stay busy to not think about food or what im going to eat.  i def do not enjoy eating half as much as i did post op, and the thought of meal time makes me cringe.  I have a girlfriend that is about 7 years post op and she eats about anything she wants....i cant wait to get to that point when i can choose what i want to eat in moderation.  ok....i have complained enough...i have a few teaspoons of broth calling my name downstairs.....

Well....i made it.  i had my surgery 12-9-08 and came home yesterday.  i had some challenges with severe nausea and dry heaving and that kept me in the hospital for a few more days.  i got home yesterday afternoon and was still sick.  my mom called the dr in the middle of the night and he called me in a suppository for the nausea.  lemme tell you i had no shame baring my 32 year old butt to my mom....i was so miserable.  the suppository gave me relief and i got some rest finally.  thank you God!  so i started out at 303, after the 2 week liquid diet pre op i weighed in at 289 and came home yesterday at 285.  18 lbs...not bad...im ready to start working this tool and my body!!!!

Ok...well today i start my 2 week pre-op liquid diet and i must say it is a challenge.  first...this stuff is absolutly GROSS!!!  and i want something salty...the chocolate, vanilla, strawberry, and banana cream just makes my stomach spin.  I never was big on sweets, so this is not a treat for me.  Im just praying that i can keep it up and not cheat!!! 

DECEMBER 9TH!!!

I got approved today!!!   I cant even say much....im still numb from shock.  i really cant believe it.  It gets so real when you get the approval.  I will get my surgery date tomorrow!! Im too psyched!!!

well, the nutritionist sent my info over to my surgeons office yesterday and the admin told me should would submit for approval today.  im TOO excited now....i just want to hear back right this second.  She said that they typically have a two-3 week turn around on responding!!! UUGHHHH!!!!!

Okay, so today I had my last nutritionist appointment.  I havent lost one lb in 6 months and she said that she has seen the insurance companies reject due to this, so she is going to write me a good letter and send all her notes.  Now im fighting nervousness....LORD PLEASE!!!  I have tried so hard to be patient up til this point and now i feel scared.  She said she will try and have my letter and backup documentation in by the end of the week and that it should only take a few days for approval.  Im at the last stretch of this part of the process and these next days waiting are going to be brutal!!!