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Pleasantly Surprised For those of you close to the Washington DC area you will know about Kings Dominion, for the rest of you its great amusement park. I will keep this short but I went 2 weeks ago, for the first time in 11 yrs. I had one of the best times of my life this time. I love the rush of a coaster and I have not been on one in 11yrs. With the height and weight it was a no go. If you couldn’t get the bars to click 3 times or the lap belt didn’t connect or you needed an extension you were sitting on the sideline. Well I went this time and I was PLEASANTLY SURPRISED!!! The weight loss has made a big difference. I was able to ride any ride I wanted to. I still had my concerns it’s still hard to see myself as small enough to ride the rides but I was able to. I had my Boss with me and he is what I would call a motivator. He believes with reckless abandonment that you (anyone) can do what you put your mind to. He has been in my corner since I stated that I wanted to have WLS. So on this trip to the park he wasted no time pumping me up to get on the best ride in the park “The Intimidator”. This was the first ride I had been on yrs and it was more than just a ride it was the life lesson and accomplishment. It paralleled so many things in my life the ups and downs, twist and turns, fast and slow times. At the end of the ride I was Pleasantly Surprised I made it without a scratch. The rest of the day was a breeze until the last ride which too had meaning in the end. The drop Zone it takes you straight up into the air 275 feet then lets you free fall back down. This type of ride was in fact the very last ride I had attempted to get on yrs. ago. I can still see the shame on the kid’s face that had to tell me that I was too big to ride. I laughed it off and said “I didn’t really want to ride anyway” and waited for my friends to get off. That was the last time I went to an amusement park. So me my Boss and Co-worker joined together and got on. Again I am scared crazy but I couldn’t back out now the world was watching (well not the world just the group).  We went up my eyes were closed so tight I didn’t see the beauty in the ride. I peeped out a few times and before I knew it the ride was over. I got off and realized that it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be and hopped on again this time with my eyes wide open to see. I was PLEASANTLY SURPRISED at what I saw - LIFE IN A NEW LIGHT, LIFE WITH UNLIMITED POSSIBILITIES!!!

Weight has stalled again. Been sitting at 315 for close to 3 weeks. Clothes are getting bigger on me but no weight lose. Folks are screaming about how small I have got but i need this weight to move. I understand that I need to hit the gym more but I am eating the same small portions as always. This is starting to piss me off! I am about 65lbs from my own goal I know iI am close but it seems so far. 

For years I have been the poster child for dark colors, the main 3 colors Black, Dark Blue, and Brown. Now since I have lost some weight I have found that there are a lot more colors to wear. I started with colorful socks to add some flare to my outfits. But now I am adding color to shirts and shoes and having lots of fun with it. I would really only add color to sneakers in the summer now it looks like I will be adding it to dress shoes, ties, sweaters and shirts  all year round. Loving this new body and I havnt reached the desired weight yet.  

 

It's finally happened I have lost enough weight for me to be mistaken for someone else in the office!

I have been looking at myself in the mirror and not really sure what to make of myself . I can still see the same person I have been for years. My body still looks the same to me . The only time I look different to me is when I put on clothes. So I have summed up that with a 100 lbs lost I have the same shape just a smaller size so I am going to stay away from the mirror and kill my added addiction of jumping on the scale each morning. So that brings me to he closet. I have been having fun shopping for new things to wear but I haven't wanted to get rid of the old stuff and I have been trying to mix it all together. I guess I had been hiding behind what was comfortable. So needles to say I ended up getting a tongue lashing from a very good friend about what I was wearing. I it really hadn't sunk in that I had lost enuff weight to buy smaller jeans and pants. She fussed and said I was walking around looking like MC HAMMER with my extra baggy pants on. So I went in the store and tried on a size 44 waist just to see if it would fit. The 44 was too small but not by much so I tried on a size 46 and it fit snug but I was in them and could wear them so I got my first pair of  jeans from Macy's. The hard thing now is cleaning out my closet. I was all set on getting all of my clothes altered so I wouldn't have to buy new ones so soon but that idea has now been tossed out the window. But I am still finding it hard to let my old things go. However last weekend I snatched out all of the pants and jeans except for the newest ones from just  before WLS stuck them in a bag and said they had to go but the shirts have been another thing. I am find that if I tuck them in I can continue to wear them but i know I am running out of time with them too. I have dropped all the way down to a 3xlt from a 6-7xl.  

 

My closet is now in a uproar as I add something new I try to remove something old!

Recap to current  Aug7th I had the surgery it was the weirdest thing I never really felt any different. I woke up in ICU with tubes in me and real sleepy. There wasn’t a lot of pain just some discomfort from the incision. Then it was time to start walking and getting used to eating clear fluid for the week. I went home and started my new life. Ended up back in the hospital with pneumonia the following Monday, spent another 3 days in the hospital. I don’t really recall eating a whole bunch during this time but there was some puree and clear liquids. I did a lot of walking and blowing on this device for lung function.

 

The first month I think I lost the weight the fastest I think I blew thru the first 50lbs which was wild to me It seemed like it was over night. The biggest adjustment has been clothes. I was holding try that I would not buy anything new until December 2012. Needless to say I could not wait. I have spent so much time shopping it’s been crazy. I have been buying things from everywhere. I even found that I could fit a pair of sweat pants from Wall-mart so I bought them. My shoe size even went down a half size.

 

I will admit it has not been all peaches and cream. Its gets ruff some days. And there have been days when I said F it and ate something I shouldn’t have. And on those days I pay for it dearly. I got frustrated about being dehydrated and drank some water to fast. I won’t do that again. Also being lazy on my birthday weekend and bought some popcorn chicken from burger king on a long road trip home you know how bad that was. The nights I am out late hanging with friends and they are eating whatever they want and I am sipping on water to keep from jumping in to the late night indulgence of bad food.

But know being 90lbs lighter able to buy clothes out of Macy’s and walk faster, climb steps easier everything was worth the trouble and to be honest it really wasn’t all that bad.

 

We will see how Thanksgiving and Christmas go!      

 I have been gone since 2days before surgery. It's time foe an update on how things went down. I currently have mixed feelings about everything but I am gonna ride it out at this point (really don't have a choice). 

 In the morning I get to have the ivc filter put in. Been kind of iffy about all of this. Seems like time has flew by and I am not sure if this gonna work well. I am not getting a warm and fuzzy feeling from all of this. I feel like its being rushed. And it could jus be me being chicken and scared. We will see how this all turns out. 

The count down has really begun. Starting to feel like a kid at Christmas. Excited and nervous all at the same time. Seems like time is really starting to speed up as I try and prepare things to go smoothly at work since I will be out for a few days. I finally got a good nights rarest last night I think I finally stopped being scared and embraced what I fought to have done. 

 He was going over the details of my upcoming surgery. I swear i still have a problem with him telling me i am high risk. I dont know why i get so offended by it but i do. I guess i have never really wrapped my head around being over weight for real or i just dont want to accept that i am what i am.