REBECCA L.
3 month update
Sep 28, 2010
I just had my 3 month surgiversary and so time to add a blog entry. Writing this I have mixed emotions and a bit of a hormone imbalance, lol. I am happy for my successes, I have lost 88 pounds in the 3 months since surgery. The only problem and for me there is always a problem added in, I need to just be happy! Well the problem is that I still need to lose soooo much more weight to get to goal. My stats so far show very consistent good weight loss, I don't want that to change. I just keep remembering the stats for people with my starting BMI and it scares me to death. I guess I am just stressing myself for no good reason. I just see too many "lightweights" 3 months out and pretty much at goal and I get discouraged with how far I have to travel to see my goals met. Don't get me wrong, I am enjoying this journey so far, and that is where I know I should focus. So I need to ignore the loose skin, hair loss and mood swings and just keep on going. LOL! I do know I can eat a little more now and that scared me. However that little more is like an ounce more than I could before, so I can eat 2-3 ounces of dense protein instead of 1-2 ounces. It just means I need to measure everything more carefully, keep up my food logs, and avoid snacking at all cost! I keep thinking I need a better eating schedule, I am too much of a night owl having dinner way too late... Ugh! That has been a problem with me for 30 years! Lol! Good luck changing that one! Lol! Oh well... And then there is my self esteem issues, I am actually quite terrified to start dating again, but too lonely not to try again. I still suffer from negative self talk... the term butt-ugly comes to mind, ugh! How to retrain my critical self loathing mind!?! Well that is a work in progress for sure, taking pictures of myself every month has helped some and having a few positive friends helps too...In other news... I am really working on my fitness routines. I bought a Kettlebell at a yard sale last week and I have to say I already feel some results, it has an exercise that really targets some of those hard to work areas like the sides of the chest or as the ladies would say that pesky bra strap fat and the love handles. I am hopeful to see some good results in the next few months. I have also added a new pilates move, giving me a whopping 3 moves, lol! I also added pushups to my daily exercise agenda, I can do 20 girl's style, but only 5 or so regular style, so a work in progress. I still want an elliptical machine at home to replace my stationery bike too, maybe for my Birthday in October???.... So there you have it, my fears, hopes and dreams all conveniently blogged out... Lol!
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June 26, 2010 Day of Surgery 380# BMI 54.5
July 26, 2010 1 Month 341# down -39#
Aug 26, 2010 2 Month 317# down -24#
Sept 26, 2010 3 Month 292# down -26#
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About Me
Bakersfield, CA
Location
30.5
BMI
Surgery
06/26/2010
Surgery Date
Nov 05, 2009
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