bmchernandez
I started becomming more curious of wls in the beginning of 2010. I have been heavy my whole life. Up and down...diet after diet. I lost 60lbs and then found out i was pregnant...gained the 60 pounds back plus some more! My baby is now two and I just can't seem to lose it anymore! It's not that I haven't tried...just given up a million times! In March I attended a seminar in KC along with my little brother that was skeptical about the surgery and my mom who was also considering having it done. While we were there my little brother asked all kinds of questions...he left the seminar agreeing that maybe it was an alright option for his big sister. I asked around with friends that had already had it done and asked them all kinds of questions. Each one of them saying they wouldn't change that they had done it and was glad I was thinking about having it done. In April I went to a different wls seminar in sedalia, mo. I listened to everyone and all of their questions and concerns. I was told I would need to be on a 6 month diet plan and have several other tests done. I started my 6 month diet plan, had a psychological evaluaution, endoscope and many other tests done. I patiently waited without getting excited b/c i didn't know if I would get approved or not. The doctor's office called 2 weeks ago and said I was approved!! Now it is starting to sink in! My liquid diet starts on Nov. 30th and December 14th will be my surgery date. I am excited but at the same time I am scared!! I started my year off thinking this was and option and am ending my year by knowwing it can be done! So many questions have been running through my head lately and as crazy as it may sound I am almost scared b/c I haven't weighed under 200 since I was probally 13! Will I feel like I am losing me? Will the people in my life turn away from me? Will my boyfriend be mad if i start getting more attention from guys? will i have sagging skin? will i like it if guys start giving me more attention or will it make me mad? will i like it too much? will it bother me when people come up after losing so much and say "wow you look good now" (did i not look good at all before? lol) is this the best decision for me? am i going to be healthier? happier? have more energy? sick all the time? I won't know until after it is done..and that is the scary part. All I know right now is everyone has an opinion about wls...some people just tell me lose the weight other ways...walk, excersise more, more water, less food and they don't even know how many times I have been down that road! All I know is I am doing this! It is not going to be easy or a simple fix and I do understand that part. I still have to work hard maybe even harder than a DIEt but this time I am up for it. I need to be around along time for my little girls. They depend one me! Wish me luck!! :)
