Holy heck Batman! One year!

May 12, 2011

I can’t believe how fast it flew by.

Let’s start with some numbers. I know some people don’t think you should focus on the numbers, but hey, it’s my day I’ll do what I want.

Start weight: 294, Goal weight: 164, Current weight: 162

Shirt size was 3x, 26/28 – now M/L

Pants size was 26/28, now 10. This continually blows my mind. I know I was easily a 18/20 in high school. I had to buy a white nightgown for my graduation because I couldn’t find a white dress big enough.

 

What’s changed? Sometimes I think everything, and other times nothing.

WLS didn’t take away my bills, but it did make it easier to sleep at night.

WLS didn’t give me a flat belly and a tight ass, but I am owning this body it gave me. Flab, wrinkles and all!

WLS didn’t help me enjoy exercise, but it did give me the ability to move my body when and how I chose to.

WLS didn’t cure my anti social habits, but it did help me find this world of people who like just me as I am.

WLS didn’t change my love of food, but it has helped me recognize food as a fuel, not a “filler”.

WLS didn’t make me beautiful, but it did make me more confident with who and what I am.

WLS didn’t find me the love of my life, but hey I’m working on that, you never know what may come.

 

I’m still learning every day more and more about this new body and this new me.

Hey, when you have 2 sf brownies and 2 cups of coffee – you want to die. I knew better.

Hey, when you don’t take your vitamins for a week, you get exhausted and hollow looking. Duh, I know that, why can’t I get it together?

Because my friends, I am a work in progress. And I will be for the rest of my, now exponentially longer life. And I’m ok with that. In fact, I’m great with that.

 

This next year I have to learn how to maintain. The surgery did the easy part for me, now I have to teach myself how to do the work on my own. I realize I can’t keep skating by on the tool alone. I also need to keep up the exercise. It works. Period. I feel better, look better, and can see the results on the scale when I get out and get active. I’d like to lose another 10 pounds, but if it doesn’t happen I’m going to try to be ok with that.

 

Thanks for all the love! Texts, FB and on here – you guys are amazing, and are by far one of the best “side effects” from this surgery. Without my Mom, Cyd and all you guys I don’t think I would be as happy as I am with who I am today. I am so glad I didn’t let my shyness keep me from coming to that first cooking class with Cyd. And even more grateful that Steffi and Maura sat in Liz’s living room and talked to us. Mwah!

 

I think that’s enough babbling for today
Love, Cherish

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