Chance22
"Just diet and exercise more!"
Feb 28, 2010
I am still almost two months away from going in for my assessment and am already having to defend my choice to even consider surgery. I have been told I am "taking the easy way out, that I just need to focus on diet and exercise, that I carry my weight so well that people don't even realize how heavy I am" .If I can get approved for surgery - I am having it.
There is nothing easy about surgery. I know this! I know the risks, complications that could arise, I know that I will be in pain, that I will need to change my eating and my relationship with food. I am prepared to make those changes.
I wear a pedometer and I walk 10k steps every day- even if it means marching in place for an hour and 20 mins during the news (I have done this since Sept. 13th and have done it everyday since). I journal my food every day and concentrate on getting better at eating with a calorie ceiling. I threw out everything in my fridge and cupboards that is rubbish and high calorie or easy to grab. I quit smoking and have been smoke-free since Aug.10/09 when I got notice that I was in the program.
I am ready to make the changes I need to and it won't be easy, but neither has it been easy growing up the fat girl. I've struggled daily with my weight for 20 years. I'm ready to go as many rounds as necessary to be thin, but I know that my body is working against me and I need surgical intervention.
Critics be damned!
I will make the changes and I will learn to be a success. Those who would judge me on making a choice to save my life are emotional-vampires and I don't need anyone in my life who is sucking out my energy and leaving me hollow.
