Let's go already!

Dec 23, 2008

OK, enough already!  I'm ready and I still have to wait until Friday!  Having only clear liquids on Christmas is going to be hard!  I just went and bought my husband's Christmas dinner (filet mignon) because I don't think he should have to suffer too!  I'll probably want to rip his face off while he eats it, but that seems to be how I feel at every meal with him lately, poor guy!  I know this will all get easier as time goes by, but it is so hard still having my stomach and the hunger and the holidays, geez, enough already!  I am so ready!  I have to admit that I've had weak moments and ate some stuff that I shouldn't have during these three weeks...and I feel so GUILTY.  But I'm friggin' hungry!  And the blow of and added week before surgery has really sent me over the edge.  I just keep thinking that next year at this time I will be so happy with my decision that I try to keep that in mind when I'm having a difficult time.  I sat at the table on Sunday with a Slim Fast and broth while everyone else ate chicken and shrimp parm with pasta and meatballs and sausage and I wanted to cry!  It was the hardest thing.  I tried to only keep my eyes on my "food" and not look around the table, but it was hard - really hard.  I do have to say that I probably felt better than any one at that table about 15 minutes after we got up though!  I watched everyone else groan about how full they are.  There is an up side, hmmm...

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