classyqueenbee
I am changing...
Aug 31, 2009
and not necessarily for the better. My confidence level is plummeting rapidly. Since I have decided to go ahead and get the WLS process started, I feel almost paranoid. I pride myself on my appearance actually...I guess making the best out of what I have, but everything in regards to my weight is magnified right now. I went to the store yesterday after church to pick up some items for my Sunday dinner, and thought I saw two teenage girls snickering...I went out on a date Friday night, and changed at least 8 times, not to mention the fear of breaking a chair or not fitting into a booth made me break out in a cold sweat (none of which has ever happened, nor did it happen that night).I have told a few people about my decision, and can't believe they actually want me to stay this way! You just have a big butt? You are not that big? You aren't sick? What? I am close to 400 pounds!
Is this what rock bottom feels like? I'm not exactly having a pity party or anything (outwardly anyway) This is the only place I would actually verbalize this :)
