Got a little bit of a fill today

Jun 04, 2009

Went in to Dr. Monash's today. I was kind of concerned. Sometimes my band feels TOO tight and other times I can eat ALOT...the past week or so it feels really super tight...he said that it will flux with my health...like if I have allergies acting up or my period..so that explains the past week.

I need to really get my butt in gear. I am up to 63lbs lost..but I have been eating kind of bad lately. Esp the last week..I just want chocolate chocolate chocolate...I guess it is a raging case of pms...but I need to get it under control...the move is stressing me out I am looking around me at the piles of boxes..and empty walls...there is still so much to do!! 

Ive been bad with the exercise..havent done that yet this week...again I am blaming the PMS and the moving stress!!

the Doc put in a half a cc...so we will see what that does...I was kind of confused because a month ago or so I was up to 8ccs and WAY too tight...I couldnt even drink water...so then they took out 1cc...it was better but still too tight...so then they took out 1/2 cc....and he just put one back in...so we will see what it does...maybe I am just eating to much period..maybe it is all my fault cuz I am not doing it right? I really try...but it is so hard!!!  I definately think that I could have lost more weight by now...but I am still struggling...sometimes I feel like the food just calls out to me...if I have any kind of bad snack in the house...I feel like I have to eat it...so I try really hard not to have anything...I never can have just one...I have to have it ALL! I disgust myself with it. But am trying not to beat myself up too much and just do the best that I can. I HAVE lost weight..although I feel like I probably could have lost alot more by now if I would be totally good every day ever second!! I wish I had some will power! so hopefully the fill will help some more!

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