Lost another 2lbs

Jun 11, 2009

Slowly but surely it is coming off. i guess i just want instant gradification so bad. i just want to be THIN...quickly...but I need to be patient!! It took me a longtime to get to be the size I am.

I guess the depressing part of it for me is when I went shopping the other day....I just want to find a couple dresses...and ofcourse everything they had at Ross for less(because I dont want to spend a ton) in the plus size dresses was just pretty ugly....then I found a dress that I LOVED! ofcourse it wasnt plus sized and was just stuck in the wrong size. I keep thinking I want to go back and get it because I really liked it...and can work towards it...its only 12 bucks and its Micheal Kors...I dont ever buy things that dont fit me...but maybe this will be a first and maybe i will work extra hard to get into it....i dont know..I will have to think bout it more!

I guess I just disgust myself because I have lost a large amount of weight so far...but I am still considered super obese...even once I loose 100 pounds I still will be. That is pretty discouraging. So even with 65lbs off...I still cant buy super cute clothes or anything.

My next goal is 280 that is where I was at before I got pregnant...so thats the number I am working towards right now. so only 15 pounds to go!!  I decided to set myself up wiht little mini goals...because that doesnt look as daunting as the total amount that i want to loose. 175 is my final goad but that is over a hundred pounds away.  So after the 280 my next goal is 260..thats how much I was when I met Rick.....then 235 because that is when I felt super sexy as a plus size chick.....then 200...because I havent weighted 200 or below since I was in high school!!  I think that breaks it up enough where possibly it wont be so overwhelming and I will have accomplished a goal!!! 

My band is pretty tight right now. It still amazes me that some things I can eat a ton of...and others two bites and im done..like salad i swear i could eat a whole head of lettuce...but if I eat chicken..two bites and Im done! weird!!

Well off to get some things done...we are almost ready to move!! house is empty just cleaning!!!!

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