**Marsha *.
6 years ago today
Jun 16, 2009
Wow amazing how much time has went by & how much things have changed in the last 6 years.
6 years ago today I had weight loss surgery to better my health. I lost a total of 140 pounds the first year after having surgery. I changed my life for the good & the bad. I was able to find who I really was a year after having surgery I ended up getting a divorce from my 1st x-husband because he couldn't handle how I got more attention, I wanted more clothes, I start wearing makeup and i felt good just to feel some what normal. We starting arguing over stupid things like him wanting me to wear panties that wear 5 sizes to be & that for me was a no go at that time I realized that he was happier with bigger women so we split up & I ended up back in Oklahoma with my family unhappy and manage to put on some wait then a year went by i ended up prego & meeting what I thought was the man of my life that would be the man I was with forever due to the fact his x-wife had left him from have the same surgery as I & got into drugs,
I manage to put on some weight b4 i got pg then some while pg. After having my son i lost all i had gained and then some then. Then I went on the dreaded Depo shot gained 40 lbs in 30 months & then went off and was put on some medication for my Fibromalgia and put on another 40lbs and got back up to 290 lbs that was what I weighted on May 26th 2008 when I ended up in the hospital in emergency surgery with a hole in my intestine from an ulcer & I had not been eating plus spent a week in the hospital being feed through a vein and ended up over the next year losing back down to 230 lbs here I stand today 6 years Post-Op gastric bypass 2 divorces a child maintaining and starting to lose some at a lose of still 89 lbs so needless to say I believe I didn't fail the surgery but I did have to have 5 surgeries in the last 2 years & get dentrues from being so sick. But I am happy just me & my son living life the best I can considering all my health issues. Would i do it again? Yes but I would follow the guidelines and use the tool i was gave correctly
11/5 It's Officially over and update
Nov 05, 2008
Well my divorce is finally as of today!! I have also choice until my disability is approved to do testing and go to school so i start testing this Friday and then i go back next week to get scores this way i will have more money for Nate and I. Nate is with his dad for 3 days so its just me. We should be moving next week looking forward to that as well but all is well on the road to our life together has mother and son.
So please keep us in your thoughts and prayers
Thanks
So please keep us in your thoughts and prayers
Thanks
10/26 Some recent photos of Nate and I
Oct 26, 2008
It's a little hard to see but i for the month of October went and put light pink highlights in my hair and bought a lot of things to support breast cancer awareness due to watching a best friend of mine from Il almost lose her battle. I had my tips of my nails pink as well...
Pretty in Pink
Last me and Nate today he really didn't want pictures
Pretty in Pink
Last me and Nate today he really didn't want pictures
10/20 Update for the week and judging family & Friends
Oct 26, 2008
First off Good Monday,
My morning started off by taking Nate to day care then I witness a young man having seizures at the stop sign in front of me it was very scary he was spitting up blood but when ambulance got there he was alert but still having the issues.
Nate and I had a really good weekend!! First of all because of my surgeries and Nate getting tubes i choice to stay home and not go to Arkansas with my mom and dad to my cousins wedding. I felt I owed it to my son to have a mom and son time but for some reason he has became adapted to a man whom IS my best friend nothing more nothing less and my family and friends can think what they want and believe what they want for we know the truth. So I took him to wal-mart he likes to ride mickey mouse and bought some grocery while there then off to the park we went we played a bit at the park and then came home and we played a bit outside check out the picture from this weekend. I enjoyed our time together. I just love my little boy so much he is the reason that I keep on fighting he is the reason that I have become a lot for active.
Then Sunday came and he wanted to ride Mickey mouse again so again another trip to wal-mart then Mcdonalds for his usual double cheeseburger then back home we played outside then Nana & papa got back from Arkansas and boy was he happy to see his Nana & papa..
I go Wednesday to see what the next step is to seeing what on earth is going on with me i keep losing weight i can't eat very much at all and all the scope showed was severe irration to the pouch cause i had gastric bypass in June 03. So we will discuss how my pain will be treated and possibly seeing a surgeon out of Tulsa knows more on the Gastric bypass I just pray to god they find out what is the cause of me always throwing up and such i mean i had a hole in my intestine back in May from an ulcer scars me to think i could have ulcer beyond my stomach but I have faith and I know i will get better.
My divorce is getting closer and I feel myself still being let down but I know after all said an done Nate and I will have a great life and he will see his daddy 2 days a week an every other holiday.
As for the judging your friends and family let me tell you there has been a lot of this I have been accused of false actions. I have been accused of many things it hurts me to think that its ok for my other friends or my family members to choice who my friends are. I am 31 I might not have made bright choices in my life but i am pretty sure that I am well aware of what and who not to hang with. I love my son and I would never take my son around someone that would hurt him. I pick and choice who my friends are and I will always and maybe that's why I have very few is because I am either getting accused of doing something with this one or they have been in my past before and I haven't wanted to go back to that life. It's totally crazy Andrew I know you will read this and you know I stand behind you 100% what anyone has said to you or has said about us let them believe and say what they want Karma can be good or bad they will find out in the long run that pointing fingers and accusing gets you no where but more upset but it's cool. This is my life this is how I choice to live it and that is why me and Nate are moving in our own apartment because No one will pick who I will be friends with and who i can hand around with. They can all think what they want but i don't judge them or tell them how to run there life's yeah maybe I need a boost but not a boost to knock me down and make it to where i feel i can't have friends. Anyhow to all of you that feel the need to judge someone because of there illness or there weakness or maybe how they dress stop and think would you want to be put in that persons place. This has been really bugging me and I will no longer hold it in I want people to know I know a good guy from a bad guy a good woman from a bad one and I know whats safe and whats not safe and would never put my son or me in harms way.
If you have made it this far in my blog great job I got my feelings out and I hope that you can relate to how I feel people judging others on hear say or being around them just a few times. It's all good thought my true real friends know the truth. Edited: Andrew is one of my very close friends he and I know 1st hand what it feels like to be judge by ones family and friends.There is one person that many feel has played a big impact in Sam and I divorce and she has very well stated she hopes karma bites all those in there butt for thinking she took a married friends husband all I can say is set back wait and see. See what the real truth is.. Ashley if it comes down to it I hope that those that were wrong including me at times will tell you they are sorry for the harsh words.. Andrew knows Karma is a witch she can be good or bad depending on how you look at it, But thanks to you to and thanks to Lori for being there when I have needed a friend to talk to I love you all so much!! Please know I am here if you ever need a shoulder or just one to talk to
My morning started off by taking Nate to day care then I witness a young man having seizures at the stop sign in front of me it was very scary he was spitting up blood but when ambulance got there he was alert but still having the issues.
Nate and I had a really good weekend!! First of all because of my surgeries and Nate getting tubes i choice to stay home and not go to Arkansas with my mom and dad to my cousins wedding. I felt I owed it to my son to have a mom and son time but for some reason he has became adapted to a man whom IS my best friend nothing more nothing less and my family and friends can think what they want and believe what they want for we know the truth. So I took him to wal-mart he likes to ride mickey mouse and bought some grocery while there then off to the park we went we played a bit at the park and then came home and we played a bit outside check out the picture from this weekend. I enjoyed our time together. I just love my little boy so much he is the reason that I keep on fighting he is the reason that I have become a lot for active.
Then Sunday came and he wanted to ride Mickey mouse again so again another trip to wal-mart then Mcdonalds for his usual double cheeseburger then back home we played outside then Nana & papa got back from Arkansas and boy was he happy to see his Nana & papa..
I go Wednesday to see what the next step is to seeing what on earth is going on with me i keep losing weight i can't eat very much at all and all the scope showed was severe irration to the pouch cause i had gastric bypass in June 03. So we will discuss how my pain will be treated and possibly seeing a surgeon out of Tulsa knows more on the Gastric bypass I just pray to god they find out what is the cause of me always throwing up and such i mean i had a hole in my intestine back in May from an ulcer scars me to think i could have ulcer beyond my stomach but I have faith and I know i will get better.
My divorce is getting closer and I feel myself still being let down but I know after all said an done Nate and I will have a great life and he will see his daddy 2 days a week an every other holiday.
As for the judging your friends and family let me tell you there has been a lot of this I have been accused of false actions. I have been accused of many things it hurts me to think that its ok for my other friends or my family members to choice who my friends are. I am 31 I might not have made bright choices in my life but i am pretty sure that I am well aware of what and who not to hang with. I love my son and I would never take my son around someone that would hurt him. I pick and choice who my friends are and I will always and maybe that's why I have very few is because I am either getting accused of doing something with this one or they have been in my past before and I haven't wanted to go back to that life. It's totally crazy Andrew I know you will read this and you know I stand behind you 100% what anyone has said to you or has said about us let them believe and say what they want Karma can be good or bad they will find out in the long run that pointing fingers and accusing gets you no where but more upset but it's cool. This is my life this is how I choice to live it and that is why me and Nate are moving in our own apartment because No one will pick who I will be friends with and who i can hand around with. They can all think what they want but i don't judge them or tell them how to run there life's yeah maybe I need a boost but not a boost to knock me down and make it to where i feel i can't have friends. Anyhow to all of you that feel the need to judge someone because of there illness or there weakness or maybe how they dress stop and think would you want to be put in that persons place. This has been really bugging me and I will no longer hold it in I want people to know I know a good guy from a bad guy a good woman from a bad one and I know whats safe and whats not safe and would never put my son or me in harms way.
If you have made it this far in my blog great job I got my feelings out and I hope that you can relate to how I feel people judging others on hear say or being around them just a few times. It's all good thought my true real friends know the truth. Edited: Andrew is one of my very close friends he and I know 1st hand what it feels like to be judge by ones family and friends.There is one person that many feel has played a big impact in Sam and I divorce and she has very well stated she hopes karma bites all those in there butt for thinking she took a married friends husband all I can say is set back wait and see. See what the real truth is.. Ashley if it comes down to it I hope that those that were wrong including me at times will tell you they are sorry for the harsh words.. Andrew knows Karma is a witch she can be good or bad depending on how you look at it, But thanks to you to and thanks to Lori for being there when I have needed a friend to talk to I love you all so much!! Please know I am here if you ever need a shoulder or just one to talk to
10/16 update on Nates Tubes and my scope
Oct 26, 2008
Well Nate made it through getting his tubes boy did he scream his head off once home Sam stayed a few hours and i could tell Nate was going to sleep so i let him go home so he wouldn't get bored. Nate got up later in the afternoon wanting to go outside but it was raining out. I had my scope this morning it shows that i have severe irritation and that i will see my pcp and will be talking about my medication that i am on something has to be done they are upset the rate the weight is coming off and saying that it's not healthy the way its coming off anyhow it took forever Nate had to to wait with dad at the hospital as we where not sure how he would feel today but he is Nate and no problems at all thank god.
Thanks to those that showed support sent prayers and checked on him it means a lot. Sometimes i can't be super woman and update the whole world. I mean if he is your grandson or your son then someone should communcate with either me or Sam being that I have Nate full time Sam don't know much. Anyways Nate is doing well i am just a little tired other then that we are holding.
I should add that since having my hernia surgery i don't have much pain other then my stomach and that could be as the surgeon said due to me getting a virus but again I have to speak to my pcp about my medication
That's it have a great Thursday (psss pass me a blanket)
Much love to all!!
Marsha & Nate
Thanks to those that showed support sent prayers and checked on him it means a lot. Sometimes i can't be super woman and update the whole world. I mean if he is your grandson or your son then someone should communcate with either me or Sam being that I have Nate full time Sam don't know much. Anyways Nate is doing well i am just a little tired other then that we are holding.
I should add that since having my hernia surgery i don't have much pain other then my stomach and that could be as the surgeon said due to me getting a virus but again I have to speak to my pcp about my medication
That's it have a great Thursday (psss pass me a blanket)
Much love to all!!
Marsha & Nate
Sept 26th update on my surgery and Nate and I (pic included be
Oct 26, 2008
Good Friday to all of you!!
I had my hernia surgery on Sept 18th I got my staples out the 25th and i am so thankful my skin was being irritated by the staples and its healing well looks to be red so they put me on medication. I am able to wear my dentures full time now praise god feels strange having teeth. I seen the doctor today my pcp and i continue to lose weight. He is signing a letter so i can get into an apartment for people who suffer from medical condition or the elderly based on income all bills paid. Mom doesn't want me to leave but I am 31 and I feel like Sam is out having fun why i am being a mom and that Nate and I deserve to have our own lifes in our own home. So I will probley be moving in the next 3 weeks and possibly be going back to school. Nate is sick with a virus and guess what he has 4 teeth that popped threw this week so he almost has all his teeth praise god. Other then that we are doing ok taking one day at a time. My divorce will be final Nov 5th and it appears this is how my life is going to be can't even get the x to talk to my counsler over the phone and explain what went wrong so that i can shut the door and focus on my health and my pride and joy.
Surgery from May 26th hole in my intestine almost died
Picture healed up
Then i got a hernia and had to have hernia surgery and here is the part they cut open
Well have a wonderful weekend.
I had my hernia surgery on Sept 18th I got my staples out the 25th and i am so thankful my skin was being irritated by the staples and its healing well looks to be red so they put me on medication. I am able to wear my dentures full time now praise god feels strange having teeth. I seen the doctor today my pcp and i continue to lose weight. He is signing a letter so i can get into an apartment for people who suffer from medical condition or the elderly based on income all bills paid. Mom doesn't want me to leave but I am 31 and I feel like Sam is out having fun why i am being a mom and that Nate and I deserve to have our own lifes in our own home. So I will probley be moving in the next 3 weeks and possibly be going back to school. Nate is sick with a virus and guess what he has 4 teeth that popped threw this week so he almost has all his teeth praise god. Other then that we are doing ok taking one day at a time. My divorce will be final Nov 5th and it appears this is how my life is going to be can't even get the x to talk to my counsler over the phone and explain what went wrong so that i can shut the door and focus on my health and my pride and joy.
Surgery from May 26th hole in my intestine almost died
Picture healed up
Then i got a hernia and had to have hernia surgery and here is the part they cut open
Well have a wonderful weekend.
Sept 10th update on Nate and I
Oct 26, 2008
Good Wednesday it is,
After dealing with severe acid in my stomach and not being able to eat in believe they have found the medication to help it so far been 24 hrs on it and its worked. I went and see my pcp today to get my sleepy study results back and to get my go ahead for hernia surgery next week and I am very happy to say that I guess losing 45 pounds since my surgery on 5/26 I no longer have sleep apnea praise god for that one so I have the go ahead to have my hernia's repaired an a scope done because I am at rest for stomach cancer. So lets pray that this all goes well it will be Sept 18th time unknown just yet and or how long I might be in hospital.
On another note Sam & I did our childern dealing with divorce class we went together and since then we have gotten along with each other a blessing to say the least now I have to take the paper to court house and they will assign a court date after 10/15 90 day waiting in Oklahoma with a child. Then our divorce will be final. No i am not happy I still love the man with all my heart but we have just grown apart and i believe mine is because of how it happen but I am working on my health to get better so that I can go back to school or work after I am well..
As for Nate he keeps having ear infection after ear infection and he still doesn't have all his teeth so needless to say he has 2 coming in so he needs to see a denist and Sam and I are taking Nate today at 3pm to a ear doctor I am sure they will want to put tubes in his ears and Sam and I are all for it. Other then that He has started his over night visits with his father, he is having some out breaks but that is to be expected being he is 2 but he enjoys time with his dad but you know when your not around him all the time I am sure he misses him.
Me I got my new teeth, I got a hair cut and new glasses and am trying to better me.
Now if I could find some friends to hang out with to have a social life it would be awesome.
Anyways thanks to all those for all your support, prayers..
Andrew thanks for riding with me out of town
Lori thanks for being there for me I love you so much and we will be up there soon to see you.
To my family you all have been wonderful. I have no clue where i would be with out my family and my friends on here you all are just amazing
Thanks so very much
(ps I am not good at English and I pray that you can understand this)
I thought about taking an English class for a refresher.
well gotta run love to all
After dealing with severe acid in my stomach and not being able to eat in believe they have found the medication to help it so far been 24 hrs on it and its worked. I went and see my pcp today to get my sleepy study results back and to get my go ahead for hernia surgery next week and I am very happy to say that I guess losing 45 pounds since my surgery on 5/26 I no longer have sleep apnea praise god for that one so I have the go ahead to have my hernia's repaired an a scope done because I am at rest for stomach cancer. So lets pray that this all goes well it will be Sept 18th time unknown just yet and or how long I might be in hospital.
On another note Sam & I did our childern dealing with divorce class we went together and since then we have gotten along with each other a blessing to say the least now I have to take the paper to court house and they will assign a court date after 10/15 90 day waiting in Oklahoma with a child. Then our divorce will be final. No i am not happy I still love the man with all my heart but we have just grown apart and i believe mine is because of how it happen but I am working on my health to get better so that I can go back to school or work after I am well..
As for Nate he keeps having ear infection after ear infection and he still doesn't have all his teeth so needless to say he has 2 coming in so he needs to see a denist and Sam and I are taking Nate today at 3pm to a ear doctor I am sure they will want to put tubes in his ears and Sam and I are all for it. Other then that He has started his over night visits with his father, he is having some out breaks but that is to be expected being he is 2 but he enjoys time with his dad but you know when your not around him all the time I am sure he misses him.
Me I got my new teeth, I got a hair cut and new glasses and am trying to better me.
Now if I could find some friends to hang out with to have a social life it would be awesome.
Anyways thanks to all those for all your support, prayers..
Andrew thanks for riding with me out of town
Lori thanks for being there for me I love you so much and we will be up there soon to see you.
To my family you all have been wonderful. I have no clue where i would be with out my family and my friends on here you all are just amazing
Thanks so very much
(ps I am not good at English and I pray that you can understand this)
I thought about taking an English class for a refresher.
well gotta run love to all
Aug 31st update wow long time no update
Oct 26, 2008
Good Afternoon,
I want to let each and everyone of you know that I think of you often I am not around a lot because of my health but I do keep you in my thoughts.
Some of you may remember i had emergency surgery back in May well I have 3 hernias in my incision and will be having hernia surgery Sept 18th but before that I have to do another sleep study test and on Aug 6th due to mouth infection and all the acid decaying my teeth i had to have all my teeth pulled so 12 weeks from the 6th i will have all new teeth not ready but its better to have them out now. Nate is doing well will be starting to go to his dads next week over nights. We are going up Sunday to let him spend time with his dad in his new place so that he just doesn't get thrown in but I have a friend going with me per just because the state said it would be good to have someone with you although I know Sam would never get violent but heck these days you never know. Other then that my little man is growing he can say Mississippi at 2 years its amazing he says words he isn't suppose to but is learning thats a no no. He spends his days in day care enjoy interaction with other kids since my mother works there and i am on a lifting restriction.
Sam got his settlement from his work injury back in Feb and sent me money to get my teeth and for me and Nate to go to IL to see my friend but this won't be till later because of my surgeries and all but all is looking up hopefully once i heal from my other surgery we will get our own apartment and have our lifes just me and Nate.
Ps i belive there is a true angel watching over me on the way home from walmart my breaks quit working and i was lucky and able to make it home without hitting someone had a hole in break line
I want to let each and everyone of you know that I think of you often I am not around a lot because of my health but I do keep you in my thoughts.
Some of you may remember i had emergency surgery back in May well I have 3 hernias in my incision and will be having hernia surgery Sept 18th but before that I have to do another sleep study test and on Aug 6th due to mouth infection and all the acid decaying my teeth i had to have all my teeth pulled so 12 weeks from the 6th i will have all new teeth not ready but its better to have them out now. Nate is doing well will be starting to go to his dads next week over nights. We are going up Sunday to let him spend time with his dad in his new place so that he just doesn't get thrown in but I have a friend going with me per just because the state said it would be good to have someone with you although I know Sam would never get violent but heck these days you never know. Other then that my little man is growing he can say Mississippi at 2 years its amazing he says words he isn't suppose to but is learning thats a no no. He spends his days in day care enjoy interaction with other kids since my mother works there and i am on a lifting restriction.
Sam got his settlement from his work injury back in Feb and sent me money to get my teeth and for me and Nate to go to IL to see my friend but this won't be till later because of my surgeries and all but all is looking up hopefully once i heal from my other surgery we will get our own apartment and have our lifes just me and Nate.
Ps i belive there is a true angel watching over me on the way home from walmart my breaks quit working and i was lucky and able to make it home without hitting someone had a hole in break line
Aug 10th 2008 update for the week
Oct 26, 2008
Well I was put under Aug 6th and had what teeth i had left that my stomach acid didn't decay so i have no teeth right now just letting my mouth heal then i will have to get denures i aint ashame cause i brushed my teeth is was because i had been so sick the acid just ate the coating right off. They gave me enough nubing medication i didn't feel anything until Friday i am in some pain not a lot shocking to say.. After my mouth heals i will have having hernia surgery. I am suppose to go to Il me and Nate to see my friend won't know till I have the money in my hand as was promised. Plans are to get my teeth b4 i go and let my sweet friend spoil us with her great cooking.
Nates been sick with his ears again so there might be tubs that he gets in the future.
As for Sam and i we have to do a 4 hr class take the letter to court house will get a date for our divorce sad to say but its happening he doesn't want to fix anything and I am not going to be the only one to try to I am just going to move on with life and live it with me and my son.
Thats about all 4 today!!
Nates been sick with his ears again so there might be tubs that he gets in the future.
As for Sam and i we have to do a 4 hr class take the letter to court house will get a date for our divorce sad to say but its happening he doesn't want to fix anything and I am not going to be the only one to try to I am just going to move on with life and live it with me and my son.
Thats about all 4 today!!
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