A slight unfill

Jun 16, 2009

Well, I didn't have any taken out this last Thursday like I had talked about. Instead, when talking to Dot, I felt like maybe I was just trying to eat too fast and that was probably my problem and needed to slow it down a bit. So I left without a fill or an unfill and when I was driving home, I felt like I probably made a mistake. I had this little voice inside telling me that I needed to have a little taken out, that it was too tight. But decided to try and take it a bit slower, make sure I chewed my food better and not push it so much with the breads. But yesterday morning, I woke up with allergy and sinus issues and even drinking sips of water made my chest hurt and I KNEW that I needed to go in and have it checked out. I felt my sinuses draining yesterday and felt sinus pressure. It wasn't that I couldn't drink anything but that it caused some discomfort. And I really felt that it was time to make the call and have a little unfill done. So I ended up having to drive to Scottsbluff yesterday. And after Dot took .25cc out, what a difference it made! I could tell right away when trying to drink water! But I was SO hungry, too. Considering that I hadn't eaten anything all day, my stomach ached yesterday, wanting food. But I just didn't feel like I could or should push it with that discomfort that I had. But once I had that little bit of unfill, I was finally able to eat something! And even with the small unfill, I still had really good restriction because I still could only eat a small portion of food. But the cool thing is that for the first time in quite awhile, I was able to eat and actually get to the point of feeling satisfied. Before the slight unfill, I'd have a few bites of food and feel that discomfort. I wouldn't say it was a satisfied or full feeling. It was discomfort. And that discomfort would make me stop eating. And it was because of that feeling that I would actually dread feeling hunger pains because I hated the pain that would come with it. No matter what I ate.  So I do honestly know now that the little voice that had been telling me to get a little unfill last week and convinced me in calling and getting one done yesterday was absolutely right. I feel as though had I stayed on the path that I was and left as is, it might have caused some problems down the road. And the sort of problems that would definitely need to be avoided!

So anyhow- I am going to a bariatric meeting tonight and so hopefully I can connect with a few people there. Mona from Scottsbluff is going to be there to share tips on shopping for food, reading labels, etc. and so I think that will also help!

As for my weight- I am still losing. I really had hoped to be close to making under the 200 mark by now. I weighed in yesterday at 212. It's getting closer but about 10 lbs. more than where I had hoped to be by now. Oh well. The good thing is that I am still losing and that's far better than gaining! And having the band is one of the best things I have ever done for myself- I know that without it, I would be 265 lbs. still and wouldn't be interested about going outside and doing anything. I'd be too self-conscious and wouldn't want anyone to see me outside in shorts and tank tops, etc. So that is a HUGE difference! I am out walking, running (on occasion but not as much as I should and want!), am looking forward to the pool opening so I can start going to the pool with the kids once in awhile, working on the yard, etc. And I also have bought and have been wearing a few pairs of shorts and tank tops/sleeveless shirts! Granted, I gotta work on toning up those arms....but it's a big difference as to where I was last year!

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