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My story is similar to everyone else's. Always struggled with my weight. Chubby as a child. I endured sexual abuses at young ages and the fat was a shield to hide behind and the food filled the void. In my teen years I dabbled in anorexia/ bulimia and got my weight to a normal 130~145lbs. I looked good on the outside- but a disaster on the inside. That lasted for a while and then once I graduated HS and quit the eating disorders - of course, I gained all the weight back + more.
In 1994 I became a mother and my life began to revolved around her. She is still the best thing in my life -she truly saved me from myself, I was on a self destructive path. I had gained the usual 40 lbs. during pregnancy. With diet and exercise I lost nearly all that but never could get below 200 lbs. Then in 2000 I had a bad auto accident. I flipped and rolled my car. I broke two places in my back, broke my leg and a place in my neck. It took me 6mos to recover. I've continued yo-yo dieting off and on, various weight loss programs, diet pills, fad diets, gyms since then and as always it comes back the minute I fall off the wagon. I am on medication for high cholesterol and there is heart disease, diabetes and cancer on both sides of my family. I am doomed if I continue on this way.
My back pain is intensified by my weight and many times the pain that comes after exercise is so bad I can barely function the next day. I feel trapped while life is passing me by. I am strong enough to know my weakness and I know I need and want help. I am so tired of being my own worst enemy when it comes to food / weight loss. I am ready to have WLS- it offers me hope of a brighter and happier future.....like a do- over. I will do what it takes to make it a success! I want to show my daughter what it means to live life to the fullest.
I believe no matter how bad things may be, someone out there has it so much worse. So I hold my head high and smile. I am thankful for all the blessings I have and lessons I've learned. I just want my outside to truly reflect the beautiful person I am on the inside. I see my daughter, now nearly 14, struggle with her weight- I don't want that for her. I have to set a better example.
