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I went strolling through the mall last week and decided to just step foot into Christopher & Banks.  NEVER been in there (clothes were NOT my size).  Pretty clothes but just not my size.  I saw some tops and they were a medium.  Picked them up because I knew I wear a medium now.  Thought that was the only thing I was going to get there.  I don't know what possessed me to look more but I did.  I went to where the skirts were.  God only know why I did this?????  I saw a very pretty black one that flaired out a bit on the bottom.  I thought - oh what the heck I'll try it on.  So, I took a size 12 in the dressing room.  Breanna is outside the dressing room because I told her "stay here just in case I need you to get me a bigger size".  I tried it on.  It didn't fit.  NO NO NO NOT BECAUSE IT WAS TOO SMALL - IT WAS TOO BIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I'm in the room, just about jumping up and down and laughing like a little school girl!!!!  Told Breanna to get me a size 10.  She did.  THAT DIDN'T FIT ALSO!!!!  Too big!!!!  I tried on a size 8 THAT FIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  ME WEARING A SIZE 8 IN A SKIRT!!!!!!! 

First of all, when was the last time I WANTED to buy a skirt? 2nd of all, when in the world was the last time I wore a size 8 in ANYTHING!!!!!! 

I felt like running out of that dressing room and screaming for joy and telling the whole world!!!!!!!!!  This is the first time I actually went into the dressing room and diverted my eyes below my chin area.  In the past NOTHING looked good on me. 

Also, I'm going to my plastic surgeon on Thursday to discuss my tummy tuck, my reconstruction for my boob, and surgery for my bat wings (my saggy flab on my arms). 

Yesterday I got the JC Penney catalog in the mail.  First I wasn't going to open it.  Literaly just threw it in the trash because all of the stuff in there didn't fit me or it looked good on the models but looked like crap on me.  (But then again how would I know because I would only look at myself from the chin up in the mirror!!  )  Something compelled me to open it and look at it.  THEN I THOUGHT - - -  I CAN BUY CLOTHES IN THERE NOW!!!!!!!!  I don't have to get the Big and Beautiful catalogs anymore, I'm NOT wearing a size that contains a number and 2 letters!!!!!  I CAN fit into a size medium top and (almost) a size medium bottem!!!!!!  There are so many things I want to get from there.  Everything looked so pretty!  So, the capris in my closet will have 4 colors of one 5 colors of another, tops will be plentiful and i will am HAPPY 


I HAVE ARRIVED!!!!! 

I am not skinny by any means but I ACTUALLY HAPPY with ME!!!!  I can't believe I am saying this.  YES, I am happy with ME!

Today is the official day that I start exercising again.  Yes, I haven't done this in about a month.  I'm bound bent and determine to get on my bike and RIDE, SALLY RIDE!!!!!!!!!!  (from an old song)

I've got to get my hips down and stomach down.  I can wear a size large pants but the legs are baggy so can't quite get down to a medium because of my fat hips and stomach!

Updates - My hubby found a job.  He will officially start on Monday by going to Chicago.  Nothing like jumping right into that icey cold pool feet first as opposed to getting your big toe wet to test the waters!

We have decided that I will be getting a toy poodle probably at the end of the year.  Cooper will love a playmate.

We have added another cat to our brood.  Well, actually he added us to his life.  He came to the house and hasn't left and doesn't want to go outside.  He came with a badly torn back.  We think a coyote attacked him.  He is doing fine and fits right in with our other 4 cats and 2 dogs.  My son said people will start calling me "Debbi, the cat lady"

Actually, having a great life, loving going to the store and buying decent clothes right off the rack in the petite section instead of going to Lane Bryant or ordering through big women's catalogs.  Gotta tell you though that clothes from Walmart seem to fit smaller.  Is it just me or is the clothes?  I find that if I go to Kohls or Penneys they fit great.  I guess I'll have to stick to them. 

Now I've got to get going and start up my bike again.  Get motivated and get some more lbs off!  I have 4 or 6 more lbs before I have officially taken off 100 lbs.  I can't believe I am even writing this!!!!!!!!

Yeah, I had another one!  This time it was at my g-friends house.  She has an annual New Year's Eve party with about 20 people.  We go for a couple of hours because I like to be home at midnight.  Yeah, call me crazy but that is just me. 

Anyway, (and by the way this is the girl that was so anti-surgery) I walked in and sooo many people didn't recognize me.  Did I really change that much???  I feel like I look the same.  Her sister-in-law actually asked me "and you are?"  I have known this woman for about 5 years, she even came to my house once! 

Let me tell you though, it was a great feeling. I wonder how I made it out the front door (with my head so swollen)!  Nothing like a few (no let me correct myself, A LOT) of compliments to kick off the new year!!!! 

So, I can only go forward from here on out!  Onward, upward, but nooooooo gaining! 

Last year was such a wonderful trip.  2009 with be even better! 

Here are a few of my goals for 2009:

Retire.  Yeah, I did say that.  I know I'm not "at the retiring age" but my hubby said I can, we've talked about it, one of the docs said that I should (because of my previous cancer) and the stress isn't good for me at all. 

Go to New York City.  Really, REALLY talking about it with Breanna (my soon to be 17 year old) and my pseudo-sister-in-law.  All 3 of us will be going and doing all of the touristy things.  We will have sooooo much fun!  Believe it or not, already buying little things for the trip!  However, it will be probably the weekend of Thanksgiving.  Yeah, call me crazy AGAIN!

I'm GOING to get into that leather jacket!  Didn't this year because of the Italian ass that I have!  (you know, hips go with the ass!)

Getting back on track again.  Oh please I can't even type it because I don't want to see it in writing!

Exercise.  Yeah, can't believe I'm even saying this, have put off exercising for about a month.  I've been so very busy.  NOW I will get back on that "horse" or shall we say bike and ride Sally ride!!!  (from an old song)

Be happy more, laugh more, care more.  No explanation needed here.

Try to get into a medium pants.  Brings us back to the Italian Ass!!!

Hope y'all have a wonderful 2009!  Thanks for being my OH friends!

Hi all of my OH family!!!  I hope everyone had a great Christmas and hope everyone has a wonderful and peaceful New Year! 

Well, to start off with we did have Mark's company Christmas party.  It was very relaxing.  I had so much done ahead of time.  BUT 1/2 an hour before I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off!!    I even took a shower early so I would calm down. The reason I needed to calm down is because about 95% of these people hadn't seem me since I lost my weight and about that many didn't even know I had the surgery!  

Was I wrong to wear something that showed off my figure more?  NOOOOOO  I can't believe I am even saying "my figure"!!! I ACTUALLY HAVE ONE!!!!!  I can see my waist! 

Believe it or not there were many people (expecially women) that wouldn't come up to me because they didn't know who I was (this is what they told me).  I FELT WONDERFUL ALL NIGHT WITH ALL OF THE COMPLIMENTS!!!!  Everyone wanted to know how I did it.  I was very honest and told them how and said I couldn't not have done it without my doctor's help and wonderufl people on this site!  (were your ears ringing?)

Now, I think I want to get a new boob!  Yup seriously considering this one.  Hopefully next year. 

I am now 4 pounds away from losing 100lbs!!!!  I can't believe it.  I am down to 170 lbs.  I got on the scale after Christmas.  This is one thing that I was dreading.  I actually lost weight!!!! 

I stopped wearing my baggy fat pants and bought some new clothes.  I can't believe I can actually go into the petite section at Kohl's and wear them!  I have a big Italian booty so I wear a size large in pants.  The legs are a little baggy but can't them over my Italian butt if I went to a size medium.  However, I do wear a size medium in a shirt.  Do you believe it a MEDIUM    That's CRAZY!!!!

Mark still thinks I shouldn't lose anymore weight.  I bought the fam a WII and I bought myself a WII Fitness.  Haven't gotten on it yet (the kids did though) but I have played tennis and bowling with Breanna and Ryan.  Really got a workout on that alone. 

I can't believe this weight was just disappeared on me.  I couldn't and wouldn't have done it without this surgery. 

Yes, siree!!!  I found them.  After a little over 20 years I sure did!!


I found my ass bones and my waist!!!  When I sit, I sure can feel those ass bones!  When I look in the mirror I can see my waist that just wasn't there years and years ago.  I can now see a shape!!!!!  I guess that's what happens when I lose 92 pounds.

YIPPEE!!!

Hi All! 

Just wanted to give you an update.  I made my goal for the end of December yesterday.  I am now officially 180 LBS!!!!    Now this is something I thought (2 years ago) that I would NEVER see!!!

My friend Karen (whom I met on the OH board) and I went to check out a gym in her town.  It was actually pretty good.  She already signed up for 3 months but I am not going to sign up until January.  I KNOW myself.  I won't have to much time to go in December and that month will be wasted.  So, when all of the holiday happenings are over for this year, I will sign up.  The great thing about this gym is that it is very close, it is open 24/7, and Karen and I can meet up once in a while.  What can get better???!!! 

PLUS, I got a little not let me clarify this one a BIG SURPRISE from Karen.  She called one day and said she had some clothes from her Aunt.  I thought GREAT!!!  Little did I know that she would be so nice as to drop them off on my porch!!  It wasn't just a few IT WAS A HUGE BOX.  It felt like my birthday and Christmas rolled into ONE!!!     I dug into that box and was sooooo thrilled at all of the awsome stuff that my friend gave me!!  There were 2 dresses (a beautiful black one and a pretty spring one), 2 coats (a white one and a suade type one) , tons of tops (dressy ones and casual ones), and pants (comfy ones and ones that make me FEEL like I actually lost some weight).  I was sooo EXCITED!!!  They all fit very nicely and I feel GREAT IN THEM!  Isn't it wonderful  to have friends think of you in this way?

Well back to baking with Breanna.  Yeah, I'm MAKING her bake with me today.  It is cut-out cookie day.  This will be the first year that we DON'T just slather on the frosting.  I went out and bought brushes to "paint" on designs, got different cookie cutters, and even went on the internet to get pictures of designs.  Yeah, a little but I can live with it!

HAPPY NOVEMBER!!

Do you believe that it is November already?  How times flies.  Is it my age or do I just have a lot to do?

Well as of a couple of days ago, I'm down to 182.  I can't believe this!  I can fit comfortably in a size LARGE.  No more sizes that have letters AND numbers. 

My knee feels wonderful.  I can take Cooper out in the back and walk for about an hour with no problem.  I have made tons of Christmas cookies for far and haven't eaten 1/2 of them!!!  I must admit I have "tasted" them but not like before where I would actually have about 6 for breakfast and about 8 for lunch and then about 5 before I went to bed.  GEE I wonder why I was well over 200 lbs!!!!  To get them out of sight/out of mind, I froze them. 

All of my clothes are getting very baggy but I refuse to buy new things yet.  They are mostly 2X.  I wonder if I can get through the winter with these big clothes or if I should just break down and get more that fit.  Is it because I'm afraid?  Probably.  You realize that shopping for something to wear to Mark's Company Party is going to totally stress me out.  I can feel it coming!!!  Any suggestions as to where I should go?  Penney's is definitely on my list.  Maybe I should go with the "friend" that was so totally against this operation.  Needless to say she has gained soooo much weight but still goes to exercise.  Wonder how much she would be without exercising????  I'm not trying to be mean but geez don't critize me for doing something for myself and then you sit there ans STUFF YOUR FACE and wonder WHY you can't lose weight!!!!?????

Well, hubby has officially retired.  His first day home was yesterday.  All of us ladies know how our man acts when they have a cold ... like little babies.  So, he stayed in bed all day and hardly budged.  I'm wondering how/what he is going to do today.  If you hear any screaming, that's me because HE IS DRIVING ME UP A WALL!!!!!!!!!  Maybe just maybe he will get some things done that I have wanted done for YEARS!!!!  I'll keep you posted. 

Besides making all of those cookies, I'm also making scarves for people, reading my Christmas books (Debbie McComber and others), and believe it or not putting up my Christmas decorations.  Yeah, you read this correctly.  I have so much (being married for 28 years will do this to anyone) to put up that I thought I should start this early.  Hopefully I can take pictures and have my son show me how to get it on here to all can see. 

As I said in my previous post I am exercising more in the a.m. and p.m.  Well, I've bumped it up to 45 minutes each.  I am currently down to 185 lbs. 

I went to Kohl's and tried on some coats.  I am now in a size XL.  When in the world was I down to that size?????  However, I didn't see any that I liked enough to buy.  I decided though that I'm not going to buy any new ANYTHING until the Spring.  I don't care if my jeans are baggy or my shirts make me look like I'm homeless!  I can't see buying anything new until I start feeling good.  I won't even buy a full length mirror because all I will see if FAT!!!  Will my "mind's eye" change?  I sure as hell hope so. 

I tried on one of my old beautiful parkas that I bought a few years back.  Last year I couldn't even fit into it.  IT WAS WAY TOO SMALL  (or was I just WAY TOO BIG???)  So, here I go trying it on (because my husband literally HATES the one I take Cooper out in).  Get this one - NOW IT IS WAY TOO BIG!!!!!!  If someone else had told me this story of themselves I would have wished "of I wish that were me".  BUT IT IS ME!!!!!!!!!!  DON'T ANYONE PINCH ME!!!! 

Am I going to love the new jiggly me (yeah the legs are like jello and the arms don't look any different!).  But you know what?  My knee feels terrific.  I can cover up those jello legs and jello arms and walk NORMAL!!!!  Thank you Dr. O!!!!

Hi y'all!

I am currently down to 190.  I have been exercising 35 minutes in the morning and 35 minutes at night.  My knee feels so much better (even with all of the rain we are getting it isn't aching). 

I have been going absolutely NUTS getting all of my Christmas recipes together for Mark's company party to be held on December 6th.  This year I am going to make more candy.  I'm going to have door prizes at the party this year (first time).  They are baskets with little goodies.  The baskets have themes - Man Basket, Quick Clean, Kitchen, Pamper, etc. All of the baskets have coordinating items in them that go along with the themes.  I was so glad that I thought of this during garage sale time.  This way I was able to purchase a lot of the baskets from garage sales.  A few of the baskets  will have homemade banana bread in it and some will have homemade zucchini bread in it.  PLUS all the women are going to get homemade scented bath salts and the men are getting homemade spicey or sweet nuts.  Last year we had ~85 people here.  This year it might be bigger because Mark is in 2 groups and we don't want to leave anyone out.  Yesterday I made 8 loaves of bread but have many more to make. 

Oh big news - my husband, Mark is going to retire from his job on October 31st.  That means he will be home with me until he starts his own business.    WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO.  I WILL BE BITING MY TONGUE MORE.  SO ....... EVERYONE PUT IN THEIR EAR PLUGS BECAUSE I DON'T CARE WHERE YOU LIVE YOU WILL HEAR ME SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!  

Out here in Hamlin we are getting rained on daily.  I'm sure other parts of the U.S. are experiencing more severe weather.  It sure is Fall out here and we all know what comes after Fall!

Even though it is only Fall, my Christmas decorations will be going up ~November 1st.  It would be really great if I could figure out how this computer works so I can put up some pictures of my decorations.  We put up about 11 trees in the house, my village scene, Santas, angels, snowmen, etc.  I have a lot to put up but it is so much fun to do it every year.  I want to start early so I don't stress myself out too much! 

Hope everyone stays warm, dry, and safe!