desi_den
I have spent too many years trying to find a "way out" of the excess poundage that has been with me since my late teens. I have never had a "normal" life by any means. I would justify this by the fact that I am a unique personality. Therefore of course my life wouldn't be what is considered normal.
This is a cop out, I couldn't have a normal life when I have carried anywhere from 80 - 150 lbs extra weight with me at all times. It restricts and limits every part of my life. To just bring this situation to crystal clarity, for the last 3 years I have had to be on high blood pressure medication. In order to get my teeth cleaned I have to have a physician in the room. I haven't been able to walk normally for a very long time. I would blame it on a torn muscle or a twisted ankle, when in fact it is simply excessive weight destroying my joints. I have made too many excuses for myself for too long.
I am looking to remove this health burden from me and gain a normal existance if possible. I no longer want to be embarrassed because of chairs creaking at my weight or stares of horror from men I have never met. I deserve to be treated with respect by our society and it is a respect that will come with normalcy of weight. I have pulled the veil off of the full length mirror and have accepted exactly what my physical condition is. I am taking control of my life and I will find happiness and health in the years I have left on this rock...
