Today's the day I change my life for the better!!!

Jul 05, 2010

So here I am the morning of my surgery. I'm feeling so many emotions all at once. I'm scared, nervous, excited, happy, sad... you name it! I have faith that everything will be fine! I just want to get it over with and start doing all the things I've been wanting to do. All the things I never did because of my weight! All the things I didn't do to avoid peoples comments or reactions. I'm tired of hiding behind this humor shield that I put up all the time to hide my insecurities. It's funny but I know I will always be that "big" girl inside. No one can take her away and I'm proud of that. She's been through so many struggles and because of it she is the person I am today and I wouldn't have it any other way. They only thing changing today will be my health. The inner beauty will soon shine out and I'll get to enjoy life as it was intended. I have to be at the hospital at 10 and my surgery is not till after 1. My poor stomach is already making all kinds of noises. lol I hope to get back on here as soon as I feel better. Once again thank you to everyone for your prayers and support!!! May God bless us all!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO BE ON THE LOSERS BENCH!!!!

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