April B.
Well here I go. I have been putting off writing this several days to think of something neat and exciting to write because I like to be dramatic.....lol
But the fact of the matter is this is just a sad situation that at 28 years old I have missed out on so much of life due to the fact I was always overweight. I was always a chubby kid and for a long time was told "oh it's just baby fat", well now that I have a daughter of my own, I think it's safe to say it's not "baby fat" anymore. No one in my family has ever really been to concered about my weight because my entire family is obese.
I am going to my Seminar on June 6th with Dr. Moazzez and I am very excitied about it. As I sat here filling out the huge booklet of paperwork I need to bring with me that day when I meet the doctor I realized that I have been in denail about how morbidly obese (gosh...I really hate that word
) I really am. I have done hours and hours of research and comparing and three years ago I would have swore up and down I never would have had this surgery but at this point, I know it is my only option to become healthy for my daughter .
Back in 2004 I went to visit my Aunt in GA and realized I couldnt walk anywhere because I had such bad back pain. I came home and was FED UP! I started to diet and excercise and after about a month finally got on the scale and was MORTIFIED to see 344lbs
. Over the next year (except for a couple months that I dealt with a broken arm and nerve damamge) I managed to do really well exercising and making healthy food choices and I lost 50lbs and then BAM I got pregnant! I fell into the trap of "eating for two" while I was pregnant, and ever since I had my daughter I just cant get it back together again.
My final straw was in 2007 I lost 25lbs TWICE...yes twice. I lost the 25 lbs gained about 20 lbs back and then lost 25 again and then proceeded to gain 45lbs back. and now I am back up to 334
. How embarrassing. I refuse to let this affect my daughter when she gets older. I am still very full of life and run and play with my daughter still but of course you can imagine at over 300lbs you have limitations to put it mildly. At this point I am so done with being the fat girl with the awesome smile and pretty face. (Very nice to hear) however my health is most important for myself and my daughter since I am a single mother. My daughter is my life and I cannot imagine being limited as a Mother to her because of my weight. Plus I want to install healthy lifestyle patterns in her (that was never done for me) and I dont want to look like a hypocrite doing it....lol
