Ts W.
To Be or Not To Be
Feb 10, 2012
I have for many years struggled with weight. The thing is that it didn't really become a struggle until the last few years. I was never the skinny kid, but always had a mental notion of fabulous. I always knew there were things I couldn't wear, but always found a way to look good and stand out. I'm just coming to terms and honesty..and awareness that I've always accomodated the pain, discomfort and frustrations of being overweight.
My personal life has been interesting. Its funny because some people just love you because you have this weight. They seem to automatically gravitate to you because all of your overweightness clearly reeks of motherly comfort. lol. My Husband of 15 years adores me, but I know...I just know he wants to me smaller. He hates hearing me gripe and moan about pain. I know he also just wants to see me as fancy as him...lol. On an ego tip, If one more person says to me...'thats your husband'...lol. Anywho...
I was recently approved for my surgery.
March 5th.
I have appreciated reading some stories on OH and hope that perhaps my notes in the coming months will help someone else through.
I still need to tell my mother. I anticipate her being my headache, shes of the camp ' if God wanted us all to Be small...). Well...'if God wanted us all to be Chub he wouldn't have made surgeons'. :) Mother, Her Mother and many others in family are size 22's and some so...I'm getting out while I can!!
Friends are on both sides of the fence. Some of my chub friends are no no...while others supportive. Those who echo don't do it, I realize make decisions forthemselves, and this is a decision that has been thought about for a long time...and is for me.
I am ok with anyone not liking it. I have accepted the risks. I have faith in my surgeon and the God that this is what needs to happen. I want to live longer. I want to play with my two year old and roller skate with my 11 and 15 year old.
I want fewer prescription pain pills.
Anyway...I'll update later.
