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I can hardly believe its been a year  and amazes me how much i was on this site
before surgery and how little i am on here now.. I am going to say that is a little good and a little bad. So much has changed . I always thought a size 10 was super skinney but now that I wear a size 10 jeans it seems fat when I look at me. I never thought about all this extra skin..Wow sooo much extra skin..But if I had to do it all over again I would a thousand times. I amdoing so much that I never did before. My life has changed just as much as my weight has. I wish everyone continued success and i will post new pictures soon.... 

WELL IT'S BEEN 6 MONTHS NOW AND I STILL HAVE NOT AJUSTED TO SEEING SO MUCH OF MY HAIR IN THE BRUSH,COMB,SHOWER AND ON MY SHOULDER. I AM AMAZED AT HOW MUCH WEIGHT I HAVE LOST WHEN LOOKING AT THE SCALE BUT AMAZINGLY ENOUGHT I LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND STILL SEE THE SAME PERSON AS I SEEN 6 MONTHS AGO. I HAVE HAD SUCH CHANGES IN MY PERSONAL LIFE IN THAT TIME. I HAVE HAD A COMPLETE TRANSFORMATION IN FRIENDS AND PEOPLE I ASSOCIATE WITH. i KNOW THIS IS A GOOD THING AND IT WAS LONG TIME COMING INSPITE OF THE WEIGHT LOSS. SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE CHANGED THEIR ATTITUDE TOWARD ME SINCE LOSING THE WEIGHT. I CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHEN I HAVE REACHED MY GOAL WEIGHT....I AM AT 207 NOW AND DOWN TO A SIZE 12 PANTS AND TIGHTLY IN A SIZE 10 ...A SIZE 16 SHIRT..YEAH THE BOTTOM IS COMING OFF FASTER THAN THE TOP...I HAVE ALSO WENT DOWN A SHOE SIZE TOO..I WAS WEARING A SIZE 10 NOW I AM WEARING SOME SIZE 9 1/2 AND 9. I AM STILL LOSING HAIR LIKE CRAZY ..I THOUGHT IT WAS SUPPOSE TO STOP AT THE 6TH MONTH BUT NO...OF COURSE THAT IS WHAT EVERYONE TOLD ME WOULD HAPPEN . ..I WANT TO GET A HAIR CUT BUT AFRIAD I MIGHT NEED THAT HAIR TO COVER SOME SPOTS IF THIS HAIR LOSE CONTINUES. WELL THATS ABOUT ALL I HAVE TO REPORT AT THIS TIME ..STAY BLESSED AND REMEMBER WE WERE STARS BEFORE THE SURGERY , SO SHINE AND MAKE THE WORLD BETTER JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE IN IT. 

It always amazes me when I come on here and look at the picture I have posted because I look nothing like that now..I often am the last one that can tell I 'm losing  . Often people tell me you are losing so much weight but I can not see it. I know I have lost but when I get out the shower and look in the mirror that I have been trying not to look in for years I can not see any weight changes. But I am very hard on my self also so that could certainly be the reason. I have gained some friends and lost some since I first started this journey . It can be very lonely when your fat friends think you are a sell out and the skinney ones think you took the easy way out . I often wonder where do we fit in now..I will never forget who I was and who I am , But people feel it their life purpose to make sure that I know losing this weight is not the accomplishment that it is..I have been the fat one in the group so long that has been a spot everyone is comfortable with me being in and refuse to let me give up that crown. I am learning me and sometime it is a lonely journey. I  truly believe  that everything happens for a reason and these are truly people that were not meant to go with us..Well on a more happier note I started school yesterday and even though I was the second oldest in the room not counting the teacher it felt great . I have started a bucket list and it feels great everytime I  accomplish something off of there . I really feel you all should try it things on that list that would not have been even considered a year ago or better yet 6 months ago. I have so much to look forward to . And for once it all about me . I wish everyone continued success and hope you all stay postive and do not let anyone steal your joy of success.

I  WANT TO POST NEW PICTURES BUT EVERYTIME I TRY IT KEEPS SAYING THE FILE CONTENT IS TOO LARGE ..IS ANYONE ELSE HAVING THIS PROBLEM ? IF SO PLEASE HELP.. 

well I'm 3 months out now . I lost 10 pounds for the month and went down another size. I am so happy I had this surgery there is definitly no regrets here. I find new things everyday that I can do that I couldnt  do before. I think so much about the future now and one point I thought about who would care for my kids if I had a heart attack or stroke. So much time was consumed with thoughts of death . Now my every thought is of life. I am so excited I cant hardly sleep sometime. I  never thought I would be the kind of person to go to the gym everyday . It's like a whole new me has been born . And I love her so much . And it has been a long time  since I felt like that or even said it .

WELL I FINALLY HAD TO GET A SMALLER UNIFORM. I WAS DETERMINED NOT TO TILL I GOT UNDER 200 BUT I LOOKED AWFUL IN THIS BAGGY UNIFORM. ALL MY COWORKERS WERE GIVING ME A HARD TIME THAT MY UNIFORM WAS SWALLOWING ME WHOLE.I STARTED OUT WEARING A SIZE 46 PANTS MY UNIFROM IS A MALE WORK UNIFROM . SO IT IS IN MALE SIZES..ANYWAY...A 4X AND 5X SHIRT ..I AM NOW IN A 2X SHIRT AND A SIZE 40 PANTS WHICH ARE TOO BIG I CAN WEAR A 38 PANTS EASY . I FEEL LIKE SO MUCH TIME HAS PAST BUT IT HAS ONLY BEEN 2 MONTHS ALMOST 3. I HAVE TONS OF SUPPORT EXCERSING AND GO TO THE GYM FAITHLY ..SINCE I HAVE WORKOUT BUDDIES NOW I FEEL LIKE I AM LETTING THEM DOWN WHEN I DONT WORKOUT. NOW WHAT I AM REALIZING IS I AM SO MUCH MORE SELECTIVE WHEN IT COMES TO MY SOCIAL LIFE AND MEN. I AM NOT SO INTRESTED IN DATING IT JUST SEEMS I AM JUST NOW GETTING TO KNOW ME AND  DISCOVER WHAT I LIKE AND DON'T LIKE ANYMORE . I  GUESS YOU COULD SAY RIGHT NOW I'M DATING ME FOR RIGHT NOW. AND  I AM TRULY LOVING IT.  I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT MY TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS IS FOR THE MONTH COME THE 30TH..I AM SHOOTING FOR 14 POUNDS SO KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED FOR ME . I GO BACK TO THE DOCTOR ON JULY 29 AND I HOPE TO BE AT 200 POUNDS OR UNDER .  

I am 2 months out today and it seems so much longer ..I  lost 14 pounds this month and have went from a size 18 and 20 pants to a size 14 and 16 .. A size 24 and 26 shirt to a size 20 and 2x . I never dreamed I would see such a transformation so fast . I am now on a lower dose of blood pressure medication and on only one dose of diabetic medication ..My next step is to be completely off all medication , which I know is coming. I would like to take a moment and thank a friend I met on here name ebony she is no longer my pen pal she is truly my friend . A long this journey I have lost some friends that were not supportive and that should have been dropped long before now. I never realized how much crap I took off of people and how much they have expected me to take until I began to lose weight and rediscover me . Losing this weight has truly given me my life back . I am so ready for the next step in this journey and to see who makes it to the end with me . I am sorry it has been so long since I posted but what I realize is I don't have the time I once had to sit and blog on the computer . I am out and about and excising and just being 100% active I guess you would say I am getting a life . Also I never realized how very inactive my inner circle is until now, everything we did and went involved or should I say revolved around food. Wow!!!!!!!!! Now this was so and eye opener for me. On that note I must say good bye for now but promise I will post updates everyday and If any of you need me or have questions please feel free to drop me a line ..and remember you were always Winners now Shine like the Stars you are...        

I WENT TO THE DCOTOR YESTERDAY AND ONLY LOST 21/2 POUNDS IN 2 WEEKS I WAS A LITTLE DISCOURAGED AT FIRST BUT THEN THOUGHT ABOUT MY OVERALL WEIGHT LOSS FOR THE  MONTH , WHICH WAS 28 AND AT THAT POINT I WAS THANKFUL...SOMETIME WE FORGET HOW LONG IT TOOK TO PUT ON THIS WEIGHT AND THINK WE JUST WANT IT TO DROP OFF..IT 'S GOING TO TAKE TIME AND THANK GOD WE GOT THAT NOW..TIME WONDERFUL TIME. FOOD USED TO CONTROL ME AND NOW IF SCARES ME . I DONT KNOW WHAT WILL AGREE WITH ME AND WHAT WONT AND IF I HAVE TO CHOOSE I CHOOSE TO WALK AWAY RATHER THAN CHANCE IT. I USED TO NOT EVEN THINK TWICE ABOUT THIS . SO MUSH HAS CHANGED IN MY LIFE I FEEL LIKE A CATERPILLAR CONSTANTLY EVOLVING.. 

I have'nt blogged since before my surgery and I am sorry but if you have had your surgery you know why the pain boss the pain..lol..AND IF YOU HAVE'NT YOU WILL SOON UNDERSTAND. Any way still 100% worth it. No matter how many times you read other people blogs everyone's experience is different and you have to make the best decision that's right for you . With that said I am only a week out today and I feel great . I am still sore but back driving and walking like a champ.. My blood sugars have went down . I feel like I have been in a time machine and turned my clock completely backward. Now I am just enjoying being off of work ..yeah!!!!!!!!!!!  

I HAVE 'NT BLOGGED IN A COUPLE OF DAYS . I BEEN GOING TO THE DOCTOR OFFICE AND PICKING UP MY PAPER WORK AND FAXING IT TO MY BARATRIC DOCTOR MY SELF. SOMETIME YOU HAVE PROACTIVE IN YOUR PROCESS. TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE TO US DON'T EXPECT THAT TO APPLY TO EVERYONE IN THIS PROCESS , EVEN YOUR DOCTORS OFFICE. NOW WITH ALL THAT SAID I GOT APPROVED AFTER THE FIRST TRY... MY SURGERY DATE IS MARCH 30..AT 10:45 ..YEAAAH!!!!! I AM EXCITED AND NERVOUS AT THE SAME TIME. SUCH A LONG PROCESS BUT I GUESS WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THE MOBILITY , AND ALL THE SURGERY WILL BRING TO YOU ITS NOTHING AT ALL. I  AM SO PROUD OF ALL OF YOU THAT HAVE HAD THE SURGERY AND ALSO PROUD OF ALL OF YOU GOING THROUGH THE PROCESS OF GETTING APPROVED ..DON'T GIVE UP . I KNOW SOMETIME IT FEELS LIKE A MAZE BUT WE WILL FIGURE THE WAS OUT TOGETHER . I WILL GIVE SUPPORT TO WHOM EVER NEEDS IT. IF THERE IS ANYWAY I CAN HELP LET ME KNOW .