freetolive71
So much has changed
Aug 19, 2010
It always amazes me when I come on here and look at the picture I have posted because I look nothing like that now..I often am the last one that can tell I 'm losing . Often people tell me you are losing so much weight but I can not see it. I know I have lost but when I get out the shower and look in the mirror that I have been trying not to look in for years I can not see any weight changes. But I am very hard on my self also so that could certainly be the reason. I have gained some friends and lost some since I first started this journey . It can be very lonely when your fat friends think you are a sell out and the skinney ones think you took the easy way out . I often wonder where do we fit in now..I will never forget who I was and who I am , But people feel it their life purpose to make sure that I know losing this weight is not the accomplishment that it is..I have been the fat one in the group so long that has been a spot everyone is comfortable with me being in and refuse to let me give up that crown. I am learning me and sometime it is a lonely journey. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and these are truly people that were not meant to go with us..Well on a more happier note I started school yesterday and even though I was the second oldest in the room not counting the teacher it felt great . I have started a bucket list and it feels great everytime I accomplish something off of there . I really feel you all should try it things on that list that would not have been even considered a year ago or better yet 6 months ago. I have so much to look forward to . And for once it all about me . I wish everyone continued success and hope you all stay postive and do not let anyone steal your joy of success.
