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Over a year out, and not much less than where I was at 6 months...

I have not been good with my eating or my working out... I have not gained weight, which is good...but I am not losing either.

I would like to lose another 20-30 pounds.

I know what I need to do to make it happen...now I just need to do it.  I am moving in 2 weeks, and I am starting fresh...

New place, new lifestyle...

BACK ON TRACK!!!

So...this will be short and to the point...

6 month surgiversary today...lab values all good...need to take extra vit d...

down to 194...

best decision i have ever made in my life...but having a bummer day...in a funk...dont know why...

SO I recently moved...and through the fast food while driving, and being in an extended stay hotel...and not working out...

I have gone from 195 back to 200...

Very frustrated...I need to get back on track...

So I dont have much time, so this will be short and sweet.  Stalled at 204 lbs for 2 weeks...but this morning was AMAZING!  Stepped on the scale and what does it read...199.2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BELOW 200 LBS!!!!!!!!

So, I am trying really hard to pay down my credit card debt...but I just cant seem to get ahead.

I feel like as much as I try to scrape together...it doesnt make a dent...

I could really use a lottery win right now...but dont want to spend the money to buy a lottery ticket...so that does not get my anywhere...

So basically I am just feeling blah...

Im making my clothes last for as long as I can, because I cant afford to buy new ones...I sold some old clothes on craigslist, but used to money to pay bills...


life is really no fun right now...

So yeah...that pretty much sums it up.

Im hate my job, especially now that I am doing tons more work cause the other PT went out on maternity leave  weeks early...

I hate everything about it here, and I want to get out.

My sister and I talked about moving in together, and she is looking for a new job...but not really looking...in fact I think I look for a job for her more than she does...

I want out and she is not realy understanding this...

I can prob find a job anywhere...thanks to working in the medical field, but she is a marine biologist, and she will have a harder time...so I need to wait for her to get a job and then I will work on getting one...

On top of that I was traveling since fri due to my brother's college graduation, so my eating was pretty much horrible.  I am down a couple pounds since the last time I weighed myself, but I feel like it should be more.

I need to get back to working out...but with all the shit I need to do for work I barely have time to sleep.  In fact I should be sleeping right now and not writting this but I needed to vent...

Good think I go back to the psychologist next week, because my life is such a mess...

yes, im stuck...stuck at 5 weeks tomorrow and 23 lbs for the past 5 days...

Yes I know I should not weigh myself everyday, but I cant help it...

I know I need to be better at working out, but I have a physically demanding job...and by the time I get home, walk the dog, and eat dinner, I just want to sit on my butt and do nothing...

SOOOOOO tomorrow after I take my dog to the vet....im going to the gym...

Follow up with the doc on wed...maybe he will have some advice...

So 3 weeks out today...down almost 18 lbs.

Started soft foods today.  I made some chicken in the slow cooker yesterday and then put it in the food processor today.  Chicken with a spoon...yummm.

I feel pretty good overall, except for sinus infection and strep throat.

I am cleared to start exercising as tolerated, but I have not been up to it from being sick.

I have been feeling kind of blah emotionally and I dont really have anyone to talk to...which kinda sucks...

I was supposed to have a phone screening for a new job in Chicago 2 weeks ago, and the lady never called.  I left her 2 voicemail messages and nothing...so I am really frustrated with that whole situation.

SO it has been over a week since my surgery.  Other than some major gas pains and bruising the first couple of days, I have not had any complications.  No nausea and everything is flowing pretty well...

I have been getting more than my daily protein requirements and taking my vitamins every day!

I like being able to eat cottage cheese and yogurt...better than only Jello... but I WANT TO EAT SOMETHING!!!!

OMG I have such cravings!  Everything on TV I want to eat.  Every restaurant I go past I want to stop at.

I had a little cheat with some tiny pasta (I call it Pastina but I think it is actually Acini de Pipi) and some crackers yesterday (with no ill effects...as far as I know).

Im gonna try some cream of chicken soup tomorrow (which is not cheating!)

But yeah...basically I want to eat!!!!!!!

So I made it through surgery without complications...other than major gas pains!

Im drinking my protein shakes, didnt get sick after my first multi-vitamin and calcium chewables...

things are on track! 

 I cant wait to just be able to move around with less pain!