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I went to meet with Dr. Singh for the first time today.  He suggested that I get the Lap band rather than the gastric bypass.  He said that because I don't have any health problems other than being overweight and a few aches and pains that would go away with weight loss, he didn't think I needed it.  He said that the gastric bypass was for more severe cases.  I respect his opinion.  He is the expert.  Now, I just have to wait for the psych eval at the end of the month and we can go from there.  I am ready. 

I had my ecko done yesterday.  Everything checked out fine.  While I was at the doctor's office, I inquired if my information had been sent to Dr. Singh since my appointment is tomorrow.  It had not been.  My heart sank.  I called Dr. Singh's office immediately praying that I would not have to reschedule, again.  The office staff was so nice.  Someone called my PCP and the paperwork should have been faxed last evening or will be sent this morning.  I do not have to reschedule.  Thank you, Jesus!

I get my eckocardiogram done tomorrow.  My appointment was supposed to be at 3:45 which works for me.  But, the doctor's office called and I had to reschedule for 3:15.  My students don't dismiss until 2:45.  I don't know how I am going to make it in time but I will have to do my best.  Ughhh., this sucks.  But, I must due what I must.

Beyond that, I had a pretty good day.  My students came ready to learn, most of them anyway.  They showed great interest in the story we were reading.  The discussion was awesome.  My 5th graders rock.

Since I have been serious about this surgery and getting the weight off, my back and knees have been hurting like never before.  I don't know what's going on.  It may be contributed to the fact that I am bigger now than I've ever been.  But, this weight is coming off so I will suffer now, knowing that the end is near.

I called my insurance company today to see if there was anything special I had to do in order to gain approval for the surgery.  I had been so worried over the past few days that I may not get approved due to some additional  "stuff" I had to undergo, according to my insurance.  I was relieved to find out that I am doing everything that I need to do, now.  The only thing I need is proof from the surgeon that I qualify for weight lose surgery.  Of course, I am NOT worried about that.  I know I qualify.  According to the guidelines for my age and height, I could lose half of myself and both of us would still be overweight.  The representative said that it takes about 30 days to get approved.  So, I figure that since my psych evaluation is scheduled for January 31st  I should hear something from the insurance company by the early March/late February. I would like to schedule the surgery for March 14th, right before Spring Break.  That way, I wouldn't miss alot of time away from my students.  Otherwise, I would have to wait until July because summer break does not begin until mid to late June and I am in my sister's wedding on July 12th.  I am more interested in the surgery for health reasons so if I have to wait until after the wedding, I won't be upset.  I'll still be BEAUTIFUL.

As I sit at the computer looking at other member's pages and reading their blogs, I have come to realize the things I have truly missed out on.  I have been overweight for so long, more than half my life, that I have forced myself to believe that I am happy as I am.  That I wasn't missing out on anything major:  I hated watching my skinny friends get picked up by our male friends when in reality, it looked like fun.  The latest fashion fads were just not my style when actually some of them were very cute.  I can recall a time in elementary school, playing with a boy I liked.  The other students picked up on the fact that we played often and started commenting that I liked him.  I told them that I didn't like boys "like that" yet.  Inside, I knew I was saying it for fear of rejection because of my size.  As I grew up and went to high school, I envied my friends who were my size or larger who had boyfriends.  They were very outgoing while I was the quiet one.  I have told myself, and others, for years that I don't like dancing when deep inside, it looks fun and I would like to try it more.  But, my hang ups on my weight hold me back.  You know, considering this weight loss surgery really makes you reflect on your life.  It gives you dreams, hope, light at the end of the tunnel, and makes the impossibilities possible.   I am looking forward to life in Onederland (now that I've figured out what that was:-)  Be Blessed!

I have my psych appointment scheduled for January 31st.  I am getting more and more excited.

I am playing phone tag trying to schedule my psych evaluation.  It is becoming frustrating because I have everything else either completed or scheduled.  She called to day but at the time, I was teaching.  When I called back, no answer:-(  Hopefully she will call tomorrow.  I was trying to schedule everything prior to meeting with the doctor on the 10th.

I am waiting anxiously to meet with the doctor on January 10th.  I pray that my insurance company approves the surgery.  I don't know what I will do if they don't.  But, I will remain positive.