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I haven't posted in awhile. I had so many issues with my surgery.  I have had trouble with my liver enzines being high.Had all kinds of test done. Also to add salt to the injury I have kidney stones. I have many days i wish I hadn't had the  lap rny .My weight loss is slow. I have lost 86 lbs but it's been over a year. I know people who lost that in 4 months. So it has depressed me. I have been so faithfull in getting my protein and water in. I also go to curves. I am wondering now if I pick the right surgery for my body. Dr. Quinlin did a  upper GI . I have a cat scan on my liver. PCP doctor said its from the lipator. I have ask myself many times would I do this again. I would have pick the ds. I see Dr. Quinlin on the 17 of November and I am going to bring up a revision. I hope my insurance will pay for it. I have tried to change my picture on her to an updated one but it didnt work. LOL  Have a Great day !       Kay

I had a friend tell me to go to Google and type in my name,then click on Images and search.WOW!!! I was shocked. My profile this one right here is on the search page.it will show a picture of me and if you click on the picture it brings up this profile.I was not aware of this at all.had I known I would of picked a better picture to post of me.LOL I'm not to smart when it comes to the computer. Oh well just thought i would let you all know this .
 I'm going threw hot flashes terrible.It is like someone set me on fire and then i get cold.I hate this. I see the doctor on Monday and I am going to ask him what the heck is going on.I'm sweating bullets here!! LOL My mind still wonders at time if I did the right thing. I'm starting to like the changes I see. i guess it takes time for our brain to catch up with the loss. when I had this done I said I wouldnt have plastics but more and more I'm leaning towards getting it done.I will see in Aug. 10.  I want to get rid of my bat wings and gut .... Life in general is really good for me.I am working more now.I started my new  bussiness. My meditation classes are expanding.God has blessed me  and I am so greatful . I'm planning my vacation in June.Hope by then I look great in my swim suit.... I like the attention I get from the men...all the cat calls hahahaha...I turn and give a smile...             Hugs Kay

It is so hard to believe that 6 months have passed.I had my 6 month post opt visit  .I have lost another 15 lbs.I'm taking it off slow and thats ok with me.As long as the scale moves down and not up I will be happy. I quit compairing myself with other post.We all will lose weight at a different pace.I got my lab work back and everything is good. I'm still having trouble with meat but I will keep trying to add it. I have the heart burn under controll with nexium. Man that scared me having that!
I wish i could get into working out faithfully.I can't get into it.I start out good and then something goes wrong.I have been so good following my doctors plan.I'm really liking my new look. I havent posted much on the Oh board been mostly lurking and reading.I need to get back in  the swing of it. Well got to go catch up later..................

Wow!! Time is going by so fast.I guess getting older I notice it more.LOL Tonight I got a message from my secretpal. I received a secretpal page .It really touched my heat.its a beautiful page.I am going to save it .I will have it forever to remember my secretpal. it was a beautiful thing.Now about laprny...I'm doing much better.I'm not as down . I'm starting to see the change in my jeans.i had to go down a size and that really made me smile

 I went to walmart and bought myself 3 new shirts. I haven't bought any new cloths since surgery. I got a real pretty top to wear to the doctors next month.It's white  with a ruffel  in the front. I wanted to wait , till I got down in size but I loved the top ..I use to go shopping with leana  . I really miss that. I had so much fun with her. I miss her telling me...Ma you don't need that! LOL   I'm very proud of Leana.She got a new apartment and is tryng to get her life back on track. . I knew she could do it.
 Next month it will be my 6 month checkup. the weigh is comming off. I need to change my weight tracker .I have lost moause re .I have tried to put it on my message box but I did something wrong ,it didnt show up. I need help with that.I am much happier this month.I still can not eat meat.I get sick  .I try each day to add it but it's not worth getting sick. I am getting in all my water,protein and yes I'm working out.  I keep a journal of my food. I put a lot of time in my menue. I hope My face doesnt wrinkle  .I have noticed my chciken neck.   Oh well !  what am I going to do.Go with it.... My health is so much better now. I got new picture to put on profile.I have lots of the kids at Christmas.I also have pictures of the kids with there dad riding horses.So I will be posting them.I also need to fix my profile.I can not hear my music.Jesus take the wheel video. I love that!!!! well on this note i will say bye for noe God bless you  all  Hugs Kay  

I haven't posted in a while.I have been pretty busy with my grand children. I have been sick with kidney stones,and a blood clot in my leg. I am trying very hard to keep positive about the Laprny.It's really hard at times when you wake up with blood in your urine and the pain ,is unbearable. I have to keep my spirits up for my grandkids. they need me.i could not do this without God.  I knew this wasnt going to be a walk in the park .I thought I could do it.It is a changing experance. I have adjusted to the water the protein and all that.What i wasnt looking for was a kidney stone or infections and especially blood clots. It's really hard to stay in bed when I have the kids. I love them and I had this so  they could continue to live with me. I have to be healthy and i will do what ever I have to do for them. I worry about them. My life is my kids. I feel alone right now.I dont feel the happy happy joy joy !  I wish I did.I dont really see a big difference in the way I look. I hope and pray every night that nothing will happen to my kidney. I fear this and I no what the word of God says about fear,perfect love cast out all fear. I worry that if it would happen what would happen to my babys. That is my biggest worry. I'm having a bad day , must be the pain talking. I will keep my faith up. HUGS Kay

Hi, well I had my 3 month check up. Dr.Quinlin was so good to me.he was very pleased with the weight loss. He said that it's a joy everytime my sister and i come there. We had the whole waiting room laughing.
Even his nurses complemented us on how nice it is when we come in. You had to be ther to appreciate it. You no some of the question they ask were so funny. I'm glad I'm doing good . I feel bad for my sister because she has to go back in the hospital again and have her stoma opened up. She has been so sick with the wls. I'm waiting on the hospital to call ,I'm going to take her. She can't keep anything down. She has kept a good out look on this wls.I think that is good. We met so many nice people at Dr Quinlins , After we finished with the doctor we met Gary at Kings we had tea and  we had a good time talking and sharing wls storys. He has lost 47lbs and is doing wonderful. I tried to put this on my update page but I must of done something wrong.I find it easier to just add to my blog then to update.I posted a new picture you can see my chicken neck..oh well thats the price I pay for having wls. I don't mind it at all.Hugs Kay

I can't sleep so I figured I would post in my blog. I had a busy day today. I finished Christmas Shopping for the twins.I got home and had my son Ken help me wrap them. I sit to long and my leg went numb on me. My back was hurting for sitting on my butt for so long wrapping presents. My age is catching up with me.LOL They say your as old as you feel. My mind thinks I'm 30  but my body knows better haha. I should know better .I had surgery on my 3 x  and sitting on the floor was not a good thing to do.live and learn. I tried the heating pad OMG !
I could feel and count every heart beat..scared me. So that did me . I tried to meditate ( I teach meditation classes ) that didnt work. So I figured this would be good therapy for me instead. since I'm a 3 finger pecker this will take me forever to type.Man  ! I wish they had spell check on here. I have a nice day planed for the twins. I will pick them up after school then were going to go get our nails painted. I'm sure they will want to stop off at Valley Dairy. I love my grand children very much.They have blessed me so much.They keep me busy but I wouldnt have it any other way.I'm glad I did this so I can be here longer for them.I got new school pictures of them will have to post them.I better get ogg and get some sleep or I will be to tired to get my nails done.LOL HUGS Kay

The time seems to be going  by me so fast.I  always have Thanksgiving at my house . I want so much to invite Leana , this would be the first year
without her.I don't want her to be alone and have nothing to eat. my son doesn't understand why I still want to be close with her. I tried to explain to him but he doesnt get it. I know my son has moved on. Leana is so sick and right now she needs to be around family. This is going to be very hard on me . I see her getting weaker and weaker. My son said he wont come if she is here. I dont know what to do. It breaks my heart. I could make her up a basket and take it to her and maybe visit awhile.This way my son wont get to mad at me. I wish I had a better way to do this.I need Gods help on this one to do the right thing. Thanksgiving is about  being Thankful and I'm thankfull Leana is a part of my life, no matter what happened. She was a blessing to me in so many ways. I love her just like my own. I thought it would be nice for the kids to have there mom with us. God help me.....

I got some bad news.My x daughter inlaw called me.She needs a liver transplant. I'm raising her children.Leana has lived with me since she was 14 years old.Her mother was in jail for over a year.I took her in and made sure she went to school .leana never did go back to live with her mom.She left my home when she was 29. Leana and I did so much stuff together.We got our nails done,went shopping ,did things a mother and daughter would do.I was crushed when she left my son.She met a guy on yahoo.Then she got hooked on herion. This is why I have the children. I have tried to get her help but she has to want it.Last year I sent her to her Dads in Colorado.She was gone 4 months.Came back to the man who got hooked on drugs.Now leana is paying for her actions.She knows I love her and I will always be here for her.She also knows how I feel about drugs and alchol.She needs lots of prayers. Keep her in your prayers.

Hi, I posted yesterday but some how it didnt show up.I'm not to smart with the computer. I am down 42 lbs. I am very happy about that. I do not have to take sugar shots or any meds now. When I first came home I wonder why I did this.I had so many friends discourage me.telling me I only needed to take 10lbs off. Yes I was a lightweight. I didnt no what the heck that was till I went into the OH chat room and Let me tell you it was my first and last visit there.I did not get any support there.Only smart remarks, it was there I was called a light weight. Yes I was ,but I had health issues that brought me to this point in my life. I then stumbled onto the OH message board and WOW !! so  many people touched my heart and made me feel so welcome.I had questions and I had fears just like you all. I couldnt have got threw some of them without the help on here.Such wonderful people who opened up there hearts and when I needed prayers I got them. I saw a friend of mine last night who was so dead set against me having this. She didnt have one nice thing to say.I looked at her and said this was my choice and my life.I did what I thought was best for me and my family.Now I could have been smart with her, I bet she goes close to 375 lbs. I wished her well and left.On the drive home I went over in my head what we talked about and it hit me that maybe she was asking for some kind of help.Maybe a small cry . I never mentioned how well I did after the surgery .I just left her slam me.It put a damper on my day as for taking off 42bs which i never mentioned to her.No matter what in life you will have those who approve and those who just cant stand you for having it done. This is not a quick fix.This was harder then any diet I was on.We all have problems,they just come in different shapes and sizes.I have a update on my sister Shirk she had a blockage and had to have the stoma ..stretched.I think thats what she called it.She had that done on Friday and then again today.I posted it last night but i probably forgot to push the submitt .So please say a prayer for her.Remember to love yourself and to forgive the ones who hurt us. God Bless Kay