6 months going on 7.... What A Difference!

Jul 14, 2009

 Today I weigh 133 - that's only 3 pounds from my surgeon's goal and 8 pounds from my personal goal.
I've gone from a tight size 22 (well, ok, 24), to a size 4 in most things (2 in Tommy Hilfiger - thank you Tommy).
Amazing how fast this has happened. The mind is trying to catch up, but it is certainly no walk in the park and I sware, WLS is not the "easy way", but it is the only way that has worked for me and has allowed me to work on my mind, my habits and my life without constantly dieting and slipping back into junk food after 3 hours of "starting a diet"  and then turning around and mentally beating myself up for "failing" almost every day.

I have so much to be thankful for and I continue to focus on my protein first (honestly, protein never filled me up prior to surgery, but now - whoo! It really does fill me up and stays with me for a while). As long as I eat properly, I can say that I am full, not interested in picking up junk (1. because I don't want that stuff near my body again - 2. because it would make me feel like poo and 3. because, simply, it just won't friggin' fit after a meal!) I had this surgery as a "tough love" for myself and it has made me much stronger mentally in my fight against bingeing and food addiction. I have been given the chance to focus on nutrition, learn about it, and practice good nutrition without the damn hunger getting in the way of my learning and growing healthier. Now at 6 months, hunger is coming back, but as long as I eat protein heavy meals 3 times a day pretty well spaced and have planned out a couple of snacks spaced in there, the hunger is easily kept in check. HURRAH!

I'm still on this journey... more to lose, more to learn. This journey will never end, because, as far as I am concerned, I am always going to be a Recovering Obese (much like a recovering alcoholic). I may win the battle (get to goal weight), but I will always be focused on winning the war (staying healthy, staying at my goal weight and focusing on what is best for me nutritionally).

Word. So, that's my thought for the day. 133 lbs.... I imagined, but I never dreamed I could truly be this small or feel this good.

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