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I can't believe it's been so long since I've posted.  Life is good!  I reached my goal several months months ago, now I bounce back and forth from 135-140, in size 6's and 4's.  Still have those darn fat days and have gotten rid of all of my clothes except for the ones that fit me today.  There is a part of me that says, 128, just get to 128, dang it's crazy.
The only down side for me has been my neck, I can hide my arms and cover my butt but I can't hide my neck.  I take that back, I can wear turtle necks now that the weather is cooler.  But do hope to have a non-invasive procedure eventually.  My new hair is curly.  I've always had straight hair and had to get perms in the 80's.  Now I use I straight iron to get the kinks out!  Too funny!!

Now off to the message boards!!
Paula

It's so cool to come back and see my old post.  It reminds me of how far I've come.  For the past month I haven't moved below 147.  Well, I also had to buy a new scale and that could be a pound or two difference!  It's crazy...  I was so bummed that I hadn't lost any weight this past month but HELLO, I can wear a size 8 now and that is progress!!  BIG TIME PROGRESS!  The head games about my weight are coming back, like having fat days.  I thought to myself, how the heck can I feel so fat when I just buttoned up a size 8 pants and am wearing a medium shirt!  I was hoping to not EVER have those days again, but that's not the case.  Fears pop up now about keeping this weight off.  Now that I can eat just about anything I want and the days of forgetting to eat or nothing tasting good are gone, it is tougher.  This isn't a walk in the park.  I think this is where the work really starts for me.  When the weight loss slows down and the body changes.  I could use some plastic surgery but that's out of the question at this point...Maybe I shouldn't post when I have PMS, haha!!  This has all been more than worth it, See ya when I hit goal:)  Which is very, very close!

Today is my 6 mos. surgiversary!  Happy Anniversary to me! haha!! And it is a happy occasion.  My husband now calls me "Bones"  I love it!  I'm down to 154 and fit my bootie in an occasional size 10!  The problem (for me) when I get in a smaller size, I want every pair to be a smaller size!  It's nuts! So, until my 12's fall off, I won't go on a size 10 rampage!  I've gone through so many sizes from  size 20/22's...  I watched a video of myself at a soccer game with my son, OMG, I had no idea I'd gotten that big!  No wonder people didn't recognize me!  I heard, "Paula, is that you?"  I wanted to reply, No it's my fat twin?  I put on something "special" for my husband yesterday, I thought the man was gonna pass out! haha!!  He loved it!  And I loved it too!
I sleep through the night now and don't wake up 20 times snoring.  I am tired and wish I had more energy, don't know what's up with that but will get my labs checked AGAIN, to make sure all is well.
Well, enough of my ramblings... WOOHOO!
Hugs to all,
Paula

It's December 5th and I can't believe how fast November flew by.  I had about a month of nausea (not fun).  Had my third endoscopy to make sure I didn't have an ulcer or another stricture.  No stricture or ulcer (the day before Thanksgiving).  This was good news but dang I was sick of the nausea.  Was nauseated all Thanksgiving week-end and started to get depressed from it.  The following week I had excruciating back pain and had to make sure I didn't have kidney stones, that was fine.  I have a great surgeon who is very thorough and likes to make sure everything is fine.  I aplogized twice to him for bothering him, you know, I just talked to him the week before and had an endo. and here I am back, with back pain.  He said I wasn't bothering him and it's always better to be safe.  So, that made me feel better.  
My back is feeling a lot better and I think it's just my body in shock from feeling the bones instead of fat! haha!  Really, I do think my body is not used to sleeping without all that cushion and insolation. The nausea is gone.. dare I say it.  Unless I have a protein shake then it's back and puts me down.
Now for the woohoo moment:  169  WOOHOO...169 WOOHOO.  I'm staying off that scale til my birthday on the end of the month.  I'm so happy with my weight loss.  I just can't believe it.  I used to wake up every day thinking I need to lose 100 lbs.  WOW!  Now I'm considering 30 more pounds.  I never, ever thought I'd be this size again.
This has all been so worth it.
Thank you Lord!

Paula

WOW! WOW! WOW!

I got on the scale this morning.  Okay, I tried to weight (haha) until the 15th but couldn't cause I noticed my pants were looser yesterday and my face looks much thinner this week.
I weigh 178!  178!  178!  Yes, I'm excited!  I have not seen the 170's since before my daughter was born.  WOW!  Can you tell I'm just a tad bit excited????  I looked in the mirror yesterday and said outloud, YOU ARE BACK Paula!  And she is...  Not sure about my goal weight at this point.  I really don't think I need to lose 52 more pounds,  40 sounds more reasonable but will just leave my goal at 126 for now and see where it takes me.

Hallelujah!  WOOHOO!  Thank you God for my weight loss.

Paula

WOOHOO! I bought a pair of size 14 jeans.  My mother in law was teasing me that I needed to wear my clothes tighter to show off my weight loss, so I went shopping and that's when the sales lady said you need to be in the 14's, you're on the wrong side of the store!  WOOHOO!  I've lost 60 lbs. and so far no hair!  Crossing my fingers on that one!  It's tough getting in all the protein lately and fluids.  Food has a whole new meaning now.  It's nutrition not medication for me.  Last night was the ultimate test on that one!  It was a tough day and instead of gorging myself I had to force myself to eat.  I do see a few more wiggly jigglies but I'll take the wiggles over the big roll!  Can you say bat wings? haha!!

Life IS good.  Life IS better.  I am SO blessed.

Paula

I just can't believe it.  I've lost 50 pounds.  I've never lost 50 lbs.  Now, I've gained it but never lost it.  WAWOOZA!!  I am really feeling the loss in my clothes.  Last night I went shopping and just picked up a couple of size 16's, didn't even try them on and they fit perfectly.  My husband told me to go shopping because the pants I had on were too big.  I've moved over from the plus sizes and am shopping in the regular sizes now.  It's unbelievable. The 14/16 tops are loose!!  I wish I would have been nicer to myself in my 20's when I'd get up to a size 12.  I would just beat myself up.  Actually, I think I feel better in the 16's I'm wearing today (much more appreciative) than I ever was back then.  I am sleeping so much better now.  No heartburn keeping me up at night or waking me up choking.  I don't snore anymore either.  Not pretty but reality.  I am enjoying the new me.

What a ride!
Paula

Well, I've arrived.  Onederland is a wonderful place.  200's are gone forever, never to return!

Need to get a bit more creative in the kitchen.  I just don't even feel like eating.  So, my diet has been boring.  WW frozen entrees have tasted really good, which is unusual for me, but I'll take it if I don't have to cook. Think I'll go to Trader Joe's today.

Life is Good.  Life is Better.   I am Blessed.

Paula

Oh, my silly scale or should I say silly me??   For the past 3 days I've weighed 200.  That's a whopping 40 lb. loss!! YIPPEE But the funny thing is that my scale tried to trick me and registered 199.5 and then jumped to 200!  It's done this to me 2 days in a row.  HAHA!!  I usually just weigh on Fridays but I've been trying to make my reservations to ONEDERLAND!  Apparently, it's booked and I'm not checking in til Friday.  We shall see.
Had another endoscopy but will more than likely only need 2 of these things.  This last one didn't take all the pain away like the first one.  Gradually, the pain I feel is fading away.  It's not bad at all.  I'd have another one for another 40 lbs!
I gave most of my clothes away and had to restock a little.  It is such a blast to see those size 20's practically hit the floor cause they're so baggy. I've actually been able to buy some 16's.  (I'm sure they ran big but it's pretty fun anyway). Another woohoo!  

Life is good, Life is better.  I am blessed.

Paula

I haven't weighed 210 in 5 yrs.  Yeah, I weigh less than my husband!  Work has been great, everyone has been so supportive.  YIPPEEEE!!  I went to Hometown Buffet to celebrate yet another one of my dd's academic achievements and had some navy bean soup.  I would have packed it in a couple months ago.  I have to admit I was a tad bit envious at my families plates.  I worked out at the gym for the first time yesterday.  Was on the treadmill for 40 minutes.  It was hard to keep track of the miles because I went to the bathroom 3 times!

Life is good, life is better.  I am blessed.

Paula