HappyMango
Anticipation -- 40 days till Surgery
Sep 07, 2011
The anticipation of the surgery is really running me through the ringer on emotions. Although from what I've ready on the boards, it appears there are serious emotional roller coaster of emotions post surgery too! Whoot! Emotions everywhere.Actually I think I'm luckily preoccupied by a big move happening between the 15th and 24th...our family is moving from a 2br to a 3br, which doesn't sound all that, but the new place is HUGE. And my toddler will now have his own room for HIS toys and his stuff. Don't worry I'm not naive enough to think that doesn't mean toys still won't be everywhere. My other child is 17, so toddler stuff is not new.
Besides thinking about that, I am constantly listing pros and cons about the surgery. One of my concerns is the apparent cost of protein shakes, buying meals more focused around protein and the need for suppliments post surgery and all of it seems so pricey. BUT overall I know it will eventually even out and it means cooking more healthy meals for my family too. Technically you can't put a price on being healthy. But it is still something I think about.
To counteract some of the negative feelings (fear) I'm having, I constantly read up on the forums and love to hear other's success stories. OH has really helped me a LOT.
Also the other day someone mentioned writing a "goal" list...and I'm all for writing goals and I think one should give themselves some leeway when setting goals too. I tend to love lists (type A personality) and I love marking off my list and if something on my list doesn't really get done, it runs me nuts. I've decided to make goals that aren't really exact...no exact numbers, no exact dates:
1. To be able to run a mile without feeling like I'm dying. (I run now and in less than 2 mins I'm dying)
2. To be able to shop for something without an X in front or a W in back of the size.
3. To weigh less than my boyfriend (this is almost an exact number, but still...it would be such an accomplishment to be the lighter one, finally...for the first time ever.)
4. To have my boyfriend understand why I am having the surgery and see the benefits. (He doesn't right now, be we've agreed to disagree and I believe his disagreement with my choice is based on fear and I get it. I do. I love him and he loves me and knows in the end it is my choice)
5. To ride a bike again.
Ahhhh yes, to have those goals met would be fantastic and that is my plan!!
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28.3
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10/17/2011
Surgery Date
Jul 30, 2011
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