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 I am now 12 days post-surgical. I had a major complication that kept me in TEGH for 10 days. I have to say, the nursing quality was really hit and miss. I highly recommend you have someone with you the whole time.
On the mend now though. I am able to eat well and properly; drink well and enough (although cold water hurts a bit); sore, but off meds.

 
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

 
I'll go to TEGH for PATs on September 10th, 
Newest surgery date is Oct 2nd.


I'm making up schedules for all 6 phases of eating, with notes.  It should help me stay on track.

Food journal my butt.

Maybe on paper will be better.  I'll try that.


I hear that saying "I'm worried about failing." or "I'm worried I will cheat." or "I'm not sure how I am going to be able to not eat chocolate." is just an opening to allowing myself to fail.

I am afraid that I am too (stupid, self sabotaging, bull headed, messed up...) to make this work. 

I want to be thin (thin? really? or just slimmer and sexier?).  I want to stay thin (normal size?).  I want dad, uncle allan, etc to all say 'she lost all the weight and kept it off' instead of being disappointed in me and say that I didn't stay on track and did it all for nothing.

Feeling anxious and depressed and fearful/trepid about my ability to manage it all.  I know that if anything fails, it is my fault.

 Totally scary.  I know that I overeat.  I overeat everyday.  But putting that down on 'paper' again and facing it.  Sigh, it is what I need to get started again.  I have been wallowing in self pity, anger and defeat for 5 months so it is time to move the +uxk on!  I have been working at the house including a lot of outside work.  Kills my back but I do it anyway. 

I have learned (again) that breakfast cereals, sugar, milk put me to sleep - they make me feel stoned and exhausted.

 
Jan 5th, 2012 pulmony embolism 20 days before scheduled surgery.

                           Surgery postponed until clearance from anti-coagulation clinic

July 19, 2012     new PAT's

August, 2012  Anticipated new surgery 'date'





Heather

Jan 12, 2011 - Orientation, Jackie and others (at TWH)

March 24, 2011 - Surgical Nurse, Sandra (by Telehealth)

May 24 - Nutrition Class, Katie Warwick (at TWH)
               Social Worker, Jairo Ortiz 

June 16, 2011 - Gastroscopy, Dr. Hegge (North Bay Regional Health Centre)

July 14, 2011 - Nutrition Initial Assessment, Katie Warwick (at TWH)
                Psychiatrist Consult, Raed Hawa

Dec 16th, 2011 - Meet with Dr. Aarts, Surgeon

Dec xxth, 2011 - Request follow up testing through my local clinic per Dr. Aarts request


Dec 23rd, 2011 - Pre-Op consults, Anesthetist, Pharmacist, Cardiologist; blood testing, stress test, leg vein doppler

Jan 3, 4th, 2012 - Chemical Cardiac Stress Testing

Jan 4th, 2012 - START FASTING!!!

Jan 11th, 2012 - Abdominal U/S to determine presence of gall stones

Jan 25th - Scheduled Surgery!!

Jan 12 - Orientation, Jackie and others (at TWH)

March 24 - Surgical Nurse, Sandra (by Telehealth)

May 24 - Nutrition Class, Katie Warwick (at TWH)
               Social Worker, Jairo Ortiz

June 16 - Gastroscopy, Dr. Hegge (North Bay Regional Health Centre)

July 14 - Nutrition Initial Assessment, Katie Warwick (at TWH)
                Psychiatrist Consult, Raed Hawa

? Surgeon
? Optifast
? Surgical Date

January 12th at 1pm.