The Beginning: Looking Forward to the Journey

Jul 18, 2010

Today is day 3 post op... I have went through a gamet of thoughts but overall I feel positive and optimistic. 

My surgery was performed on July 15, 2010. I am calling this my New Birth.  This new life was a gift to me,  I  will turn 40 in  8 month and this is my son's senior year in high school. 

The first half of my life (as i like to call it) was up and down weight, doing so much for others, and waiting on my turn.   Everything that was done was to please someone else never to really please me .  When my health started to fail, I told family members including my husband they wanted me not to worry  and had all these ideas of what to do but did not support me.  My husband even took offense to me loosing weight as he stated that "He LOVE ME JUST THE WAY I AM".  I thought yeah on my way to my grave.

It was time to take matters into my own hands. So I started my journey 2/2010.  I went through several ranges of emotions.  Will my insurance cover it, Life will be different for me now,  should I tell anyone,  will I die in surgery ( Kanye West's Mom still weighs heavy on my heart) this was the anesthesia as I have a fear of not waking up.  However, each time I would start to question I would pray and the answer remained to trust in GOD and everything would be alright.  As he surgery approached all those fear began to surface again and I just jumped in head first thinking I could go out doing something or go out sitting still.  I chose to do something. I am glad I did.  I feel different already.
 
Day two post op was rough as I was bloated for most of the day after sipping protein and having broth...but overall I still felt better than what I had anticipated.  I know that this will continue to be good for me.

Therefore my Mantra now is to Live Life to the fullest and without fear, enjoying every experience that comes my way and explore new opportunities...GOD gave me this life lets enjoy it.

Well lets continue and see how I feel next week peace and love and may GOD Bless

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