JeanOud
Spring is here!
Apr 18, 2009
Hello All,
Since my mom's passing just a mere 14 days ago,I have gone thru an unbelievable amount of emotions..Saddness,
depressed,lonely,..etc...but thru it all I know she is in a better place.
She no longer has to fight the cancer is gone,her heart is free and she is in peace.
Which brings me to say this,Im actually moving on altho slowly,I haven't had the "big breakdown"everyone is insisting I need to have.I've had here and there moments,(1) being when they told me my last weightloss..I think that was because when my husband and I would find out what my loss was,I would rush home and tell my mom.She was so proud of me for being brave enough to go and have this surgery done.
Since yesterday I've had a feeling of well being,I baked indian fry bread for my dad,I made supper, someting I haven't done in a long time(thanks to my hubby for being the cook,all this time).
Today,I got my dad and son out to the new garden and did something I've never done or had the energy to do,(altho dad is 79 and had to watch)my son and I dug up the new garden and planted carrots,lettuce,cantalopes,tomatoes and cucumbers,I also planted flowers for my mom,when she passed all my friends brought her favorite flowers for me to replant.
We cleaned the yard, and it truly feels like spring.The cows are having their calves in the field next to the house,the bee's are out,and the tractor's can be heard in the distance getting ready to plant.
I've never had this much energy to do all of this,it's like being given a second chance.
I miss my mom so much, but I know she would want me to move on, get out and enjoy my new body and my new sense of freedom.I know she is looking down and smiling because I refuse to let dad sit in the house and cry and worry about loosing her and the bills.
I have so many adventure's planned for us all this summer,I just can't wait for school to be over,so we can get out and enjoy our farm and do a bit of traveling.
I truly am happy today!!
Jean
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Since my mom's passing just a mere 14 days ago,I have gone thru an unbelievable amount of emotions..Saddness,
depressed,lonely,..etc...but thru it all I know she is in a better place.
She no longer has to fight the cancer is gone,her heart is free and she is in peace.
Which brings me to say this,Im actually moving on altho slowly,I haven't had the "big breakdown"everyone is insisting I need to have.I've had here and there moments,(1) being when they told me my last weightloss..I think that was because when my husband and I would find out what my loss was,I would rush home and tell my mom.She was so proud of me for being brave enough to go and have this surgery done.
Since yesterday I've had a feeling of well being,I baked indian fry bread for my dad,I made supper, someting I haven't done in a long time(thanks to my hubby for being the cook,all this time).
Today,I got my dad and son out to the new garden and did something I've never done or had the energy to do,(altho dad is 79 and had to watch)my son and I dug up the new garden and planted carrots,lettuce,cantalopes,tomatoes and cucumbers,I also planted flowers for my mom,when she passed all my friends brought her favorite flowers for me to replant.
We cleaned the yard, and it truly feels like spring.The cows are having their calves in the field next to the house,the bee's are out,and the tractor's can be heard in the distance getting ready to plant.
I've never had this much energy to do all of this,it's like being given a second chance.
I miss my mom so much, but I know she would want me to move on, get out and enjoy my new body and my new sense of freedom.I know she is looking down and smiling because I refuse to let dad sit in the house and cry and worry about loosing her and the bills.
I have so many adventure's planned for us all this summer,I just can't wait for school to be over,so we can get out and enjoy our farm and do a bit of traveling.
I truly am happy today!!
Jean
Thru it all
Apr 15, 2009
Well April 5th 2009 has been by far the worst day of my life,my mom lost her battle with cancer.She had been suffering for awhile,and couldnt take anymore.Her heart just stopped working,she died at home with all our family present,
My dad was in shock sunday,Monday was a very hard day,he is 79 and is in the forgetful stage.He had been with her for 54 years and is trying very hard to go on.
The viewing held over 250 people,the funeral 75..I was doing fine until the funeral director and family friend asked my 6 yr old son to push the casket to the back of the church,after witnessing that,there wasn't a dry eye in the church,my mom would have been so proud of him,he did such a great job.
Thru all of this,and on my stage 3 diet, altho not uncommon(and a bit of stress and nerves on my part)EVERYTHING that I put in my mouth I throw up,then I went back to jello,did that work......no...you know its bad when you even throw up water.The ONLY thing that stays down is light baby bell cheese....go figure,but hey, it's something!!
My doc prescribed a nausea medicine for me,I havent filled it yet..I want to see if I can keep anything down,now that some things have calmed down.
In this whole process I have lost a total of 58 lbs in 2 months,Im now on stage 4 forever diet(lol) and don't go back to see doc for 3 month(1 day before my july b-day,in fact)Altho I do have a checkup with surgeon April 24th!
Every nurse that came to the house,my mom would say tell them how much you lost,lol...before they even knew my name,she was so proud of me...I know she still is,I had a moment when I found out my weight loss ,I cried,because she was the one I rushed home to, excitedly tell her of my "big loss"!!I miss her so much,Ive been caring for her,since the first cancer hit in 2006,altho I still have my dad,son and husband to care for, I just miss my mom!!
That is how my April has been so far...How has yours been???
Sad but still loosing,
Jeanne
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My dad was in shock sunday,Monday was a very hard day,he is 79 and is in the forgetful stage.He had been with her for 54 years and is trying very hard to go on.
The viewing held over 250 people,the funeral 75..I was doing fine until the funeral director and family friend asked my 6 yr old son to push the casket to the back of the church,after witnessing that,there wasn't a dry eye in the church,my mom would have been so proud of him,he did such a great job.
Thru all of this,and on my stage 3 diet, altho not uncommon(and a bit of stress and nerves on my part)EVERYTHING that I put in my mouth I throw up,then I went back to jello,did that work......no...you know its bad when you even throw up water.The ONLY thing that stays down is light baby bell cheese....go figure,but hey, it's something!!
My doc prescribed a nausea medicine for me,I havent filled it yet..I want to see if I can keep anything down,now that some things have calmed down.
In this whole process I have lost a total of 58 lbs in 2 months,Im now on stage 4 forever diet(lol) and don't go back to see doc for 3 month(1 day before my july b-day,in fact)Altho I do have a checkup with surgeon April 24th!
Every nurse that came to the house,my mom would say tell them how much you lost,lol...before they even knew my name,she was so proud of me...I know she still is,I had a moment when I found out my weight loss ,I cried,because she was the one I rushed home to, excitedly tell her of my "big loss"!!I miss her so much,Ive been caring for her,since the first cancer hit in 2006,altho I still have my dad,son and husband to care for, I just miss my mom!!
That is how my April has been so far...How has yours been???
Sad but still loosing,
Jeanne
I lost..........
Mar 22, 2009
Hello All,
Im down 45lbs,,woohoo,I am so very happy to have done this,altho some days are harder then others.Since being on stage 3 diet (since March 17)everything on the list EXCEPT the egg salad,hasn't set well!
Moist turkey,chicken etc..having a very hard time processing them,it makes all this very frustrating.
I am so tired of egg salad,and the many new ways Ive learned to prepare it.......
!
I know this takes time,and I have a new stomache etc...even thru it all 45 lbs gone for good,and NOT coming back!!
Jean
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Im down 45lbs,,woohoo,I am so very happy to have done this,altho some days are harder then others.Since being on stage 3 diet (since March 17)everything on the list EXCEPT the egg salad,hasn't set well!
Moist turkey,chicken etc..having a very hard time processing them,it makes all this very frustrating.
I am so tired of egg salad,and the many new ways Ive learned to prepare it.......
!I know this takes time,and I have a new stomache etc...even thru it all 45 lbs gone for good,and NOT coming back!!
Jean
OMG!!!!!
Feb 24, 2009
ok,I have just come from doc and surgeon checkup,sit down everyone.........
with including the 10lbs of water weight I added from surgery, in 8 days I lost ........
23lbs in 8 days 
I am one happy camper!!
I have been moved up to cottage cheese,riccota cheese and egg sub.I pray to get the protein from there, then I can drop the shakes,gotta keep yummy smoothies tho.
So far my taste buds refuse to allow anymore cookies and cream Whey protein in,I cant stand the smell,the taste,the look of it..of course ,because I have half a $20.00 can left!!
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY,OMG AM I HAPPY!!!
Jeanne
WOOHOO!!
Feb 20, 2009
I had my surgery Monday Feb.16,I came home Wed.the 18th.Im sooooooooo happy I had this done!
Im home,they thought I would be in the hospital for a week,but as it turns out,I didnt have a hernia,they did my by pass in 1 and 1/2 hrs,and then the wrestled with my gall bladder for 2 1/2 hrs getting it out. Doc said he was happy to have not found a hernia,the gall bladder wore him out,lol! I'm doing well.Im not craving food in any way,and am trying to get my 60-80 grams of protein in per day!
If it weren't for these incision's,I'd be dancing,lmao!!
Still a bit sore,mainly my back from being on the operating table for 4 1/2 hrs.I just cant say enough about my care at Geisinger,my surgeon,the PA's everyone was awesome!!
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Im home,they thought I would be in the hospital for a week,but as it turns out,I didnt have a hernia,they did my by pass in 1 and 1/2 hrs,and then the wrestled with my gall bladder for 2 1/2 hrs getting it out. Doc said he was happy to have not found a hernia,the gall bladder wore him out,lol! I'm doing well.Im not craving food in any way,and am trying to get my 60-80 grams of protein in per day!
If it weren't for these incision's,I'd be dancing,lmao!!
Still a bit sore,mainly my back from being on the operating table for 4 1/2 hrs.I just cant say enough about my care at Geisinger,my surgeon,the PA's everyone was awesome!!
