Just Around the Corner.

Sep 13, 2013

Today is my 2 hour surgery meeting to prepare for Monday. Holy crap. After 8 months of hoop jumping, my time is finally here. It hasn't been an easy week for me. I've been on an emotional rollercoaster. Between stopping my birth control and the nerves, I'm a mess. The other night I had a complete and utter breakdown. I was writing "goodbye" letters, in case something happened to me. I was writing a letter to my children (8, 6 1/2, 3 1/2) and I lost it. It hurts my heart, literally, to think of leaving my children and husband behind. I'm glad that I shared my feelings in one of my groups...I got a lot of reassurance and support. I am in a better state of mind now...it's kinda the calm before the storm. I have 2 more days to eat real food...I have 3 more days of no pain...3 more days of anticipation. I'm deathly afraid of and anxiously awaiting MY day. Hoping I'll post again after surgery!! ;)

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