Jennifer H.

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Its been a long time since i've written on here. things are going great. I'm 2 months and 16 days from my surgery and i'm about 50 lbs lighter. 50 lbs i know!! i wish it would just come off all at once but hey, don't we all. I start my junior year of college on monday. this will keep me busy.. I am working on a 'boyfriend' and its looking pretty nice. its an old friend of mine.. we always had a thing but he went into the marines and its been a crazy trip but we've been getting closer recently. the only problem is he's in north carolina and i'm in jersey. he'll be home soon but its just not soon enough... so i've got a lot to look forward too. my short term goal is new year's eve. i'm attending this nice party where we have to dress up and i want to look good in a nice cocktail-like dress. and with fingers crossed, i'll even have a date for the first time on new years lol. so hopefully the weight loss will keep up at this pace and i'll lose a decent amount more.. & fast. if anyone had any ideas for a fun workout type routine i'd be really interested. i danced for 13 years so i do that to have some change in my routine but thats where my exercise creativity ceases. the treadmil and lifting weights is just so mundane. also, my arms are not reacting to lifting weights.. i still have oprah arms!!! haha any advice would be greatly appreciated!! thanks to all!!


until next time.. <3

Yesterday was a month to the day since my surgery. Its crazy all the things I've accomplished since then; 25+ lbs completely gone, fitting in clothes 2 sizes smaller, and FINALLY seeing the difference. Its really great. I've been walking everyday whether outside or on the treadmill. I do some light lifting to tone and its not as hard as I thought. Yesterday was also another milestone. I nanny for two kids during the week and they have camp for about 3 hours in the morning. While they're at camp, I go walking around a lake nearby. Going around the trail is about 2 miles or so. Well, I pulled off going around twice on Wednesday but yesterday, I talked myself into going around 3 times... 3 TIMES!! I walked 6 MILES yesterday!! I couldn't believe it. I was a little tired but I wasn't out of breathe like normal and I can guarantee the old me would have laughed at the idea of 6 miles merely because I wouldn't have been able to do it. This was huge! .. Maybe it won't be an everyday thing but once in awhile I'd like to see how I manage. I felt so good yesterday that I went tanning [I'm so pale lol] and I went shopping with a girlfriend of mine because I have a trip to AZ coming up soon and I have no summer clothes. For the first time ever I actually enjoyed shopping. It was great when something didn't fit because I wouldn't get a bigger size, I'd just put it back on the rack and say "I'll fit in it soon." It was sooo awesome!! Now today I get to see my ex for the first time since New Years. He knew I was looking to get the surgery, I just chose not to tell him I actually got it.. lol. oh well, he screwed up and now its my new life and I don't need him. I'm going to his little brother's grad party. The family and I are close but I haven't seen them in awhile either so it'll be interesting to see reactions. Well, I got to go get ready.

Until next time... <3

Hello there... As my profile states I'm Jen and well I'm a few days short of being a month post-op [gastric bypass] and things are a bit rocky for me. Nothing is wrong physically [other than me not seeing the weight loss yet] but more so emotionally. I've lost about 20lbs so far and one would think I'd be over joyed. Well I'm happy yes but for some reason I seem to be in a funk. It also doesn't help I was diagnosed with depression about 5 years ago. I was also made fun of my entire life for being the 'fat girl'. That took a heavy toll on me. For some reason I can't seem to keep myself, how do I say, emotionally stable; arguing with loved ones over nonsense things, feeling isolated and even taking emotions out on loved ones. This is the beginning of a new life, a long new life but I just get extremely frustrated. I try to think positively and I try to block out any negatives in my life but sometimes I just slip. I figured coming on this site and hopefully making new friends will help because everyone here is, well in a sense.. just like me. I hope my experience on this site will help me get to where I want to be both physically and emotionally.

And so it begins...