a year and 13 weeks out...1/22/14

Jan 22, 2014

a new year, a new me.....well not so much. I feel like I have resorted to old eating habits and in a last ditch effort decided to come back to an old friend OH for some support. I am trying to drink more water and become active but winter makes me want to hibernate lately. That paired with some personal family setbacks have made me depressed. I need this to change because I don't want to end up what got me here in the first place. Most of all I want to be support for my fiance who has gained weight and I haven't been helping set any kind of good example. I feel like we do good for a few days even weeks and then we resort back to old habits so fast. I'm at a loss.

Any ideas for helping us... cool

 

 

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8 month's out...

Jun 11, 2013

It is quite something how 8 months ago, I waited for the days to countdown to change my life forever! Looking back at myself through pictures on my profile it still shocks me how I thought I was not "overweight" and was "chunky" but now to finally see this process it is totally amazing of what a different person I have become!  I am still the same person I was before surgery but I feel like I get taken seriously more from people than before. You can't change what society thinks by an outward appearance. All you can do is go with it and be the best you can be! This is definitely a life changing experience but it took me quite a while to see it!

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Sleeved offically!

Oct 19, 2012

It's great to be home  I'll only say it was tough the first few days but what obstacle isn't? I came, I saw, and I WILL conquer when I am where I want to be. I am healing and need to recognize what I can and can't tolerate when it comes to eating! So far I tend to stick to room temp or warm liquids. Cold is not doing it for me but I hope that will change in time! I want to thank you all for thinking of me as I did and are doing for you. It's going to be a great ride
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Tomorrow

Oct 14, 2012

 Months of planning and thinking are here. This is going to really happen. I keep asking myself this today as I drink my magnesium citrate that is just god awful. i pray everything goes well. i just want a happier and healthier me! those have been my words from the beginning! tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life and it's going to be AMAZING!
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Surgery Woes

Sep 12, 2012

My sister-n-law had her surgery yesterday! We are going to be each others support! She had rou-en-y and I will have the sleeve. She is doing great!! So far, so good! My surgery date is a little over a month away and I will be asking her a ton of questions I am sure of it! Thank God I will have support from her cause I don't think I'd be able to do it alone!! The hospital still has to submit the info. to my insurance. That is another reason that's making me nervous because you NEVER know. All I can do is sit back and wait some more! In the mean time I will help her with whatever she needs and I know she'll do the same for me :))))
Congrats on your surgery P!!! Here's to a new you!!

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The waiting game...again...

Jul 17, 2012

I have an appointment with my surgeon on July 31st. It's not "real" to me yet that I will be meeting with him and get a date. I've been really depressed but can't put my finger on why? I get headaches almost everyday. WTF! I almost feel defeated knowing well there is a light at the end of the tunnel but I'll never reach it. Maybe that's why I am in denial that the day will come.
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The "waiting" game...

Jun 19, 2012


with every passing day, i know it will be become a reality if I just hang in there but there is something quite frightening to me. The "old" me that is currently me is already thinking for the future and not giving a rat's ass what she eats! I haven't even started my sessions yet with the hospital. I do all of this in about 2 weeks time. Until then, it's eating whatever is convienient and I MEAN THAT AT EVERY SENSE OF THE WORD! I'm so bloated and clothing looks horrible on me. My face is as chubby as it's ever been! The PCOS is the worst! I haven't gotten my period in over 1 month and 1/2. GO ME! The depression is settling in and I don't even look nice when I go to work. At least I tried to look decent now I go to work sometimes with little to no effort!

I guess I need some encouragment or a vacation...lol..but my paid time off is going towards surgery months from now....LoL
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This girl is ridiculous....

Jun 05, 2012

So I work with a girl that had a gastric bypass back in August of 2011.  She is the most self-centered, egotistical person I have come in contact with in a LONG time (aside from an ex i dated years back!) Long story short, a 3-6 month long hospital required program doesn't do much to effect your personality AT ALL!

I just need to vent because I'm am fed up with remarks about how "being fat was so gross". HELLO BITCH- FATTY STANDING RIGHT HERE!! - (HAVING TO LISTEN) BECAUSE YOU ARE LOUD ON PURPOSE!! Making comments about yourself that once was is not only unflattering and ugly but bragging about how many guys you've been with doesn't give you a blue ribbon either or that you now fit into a medium and how a 2x is way too big. (OMG...GOD FORBID) She can talk about herself like that but has no regard toward other people or their feelings. My favorite was how she bragged about going out driving and getting trashed with her new bff she met I guess through the weight management program! You're a dispicable person! Going out drinking and driving is how I lost my mom 23 years ago when her fiance was drunk and drove the car they were both in and she died and he fucking lived (always the way right?!!) Did it ever occur to you that people have lost family members because of your dumb actions responses with looking cool?! I have tried to ignore it but it seems she wants to talk loud so everyone in the adjoining rooms can hear her. I've about had it!

I have no plan to talk to anyone about my surgery because unlike her, I have respect for myself and choose to keep it on the "DL."

OK, I'm done!

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Getting the ball rolling...

May 31, 2012

 I'm all set. No tentative surgery date yet but I did make my appointments which are required by both the hospital and my insurance! I also picked the doctor I believe will do the surgery and made an appointment with his office to get paperwork started so all is smooth! I have chosen to go with Dr. Rovito. He was the guest doctor at Tuesday's Info night about surgery!
Dr. Rovito was very informative and covered everything I needed to know before, during and after surgery. He also has a sense of humor which made me feel at ease when dealing with something so serious! He answered all questions people had asked at the info. night and to me that sealed the deal. I will continue to hear feedback from others too about the other doctors and see what they have to say. It's always good to have all of your bases covered!

I'm just happy this is becoming something that isn't untouchable at this point! I want this and I will strive to get it!

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Weight Loss Surgery Free Info 2012

May 23, 2012

Next tuesday evening I will be accompanied by my boyfriend Aron and going to a free information night all about surgery. I'm looking foward to meeting people both that have had the surgery and people like me that have been thinking about it. The most important thing I keep telling myself is this is a LIFE CHANGING EXPIERIENCE! If I choose to have surgery, I will have to completely change the way I eat for the rest of my life. I owe it to myself and want this!
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