JusellaBella
My name is Josephine, I'm 32 years old, Married to my husband Joe for 14 years and have two beautiful children (My Daughter Felicia is 10 and My son Joseph is 3) I'm a stay at home mom using my weight as an excuse to stay home and not return to work My eye awakening moment was 10 months ago when I took my two year old son to Wolves Pond Park and he ran away from me I tried to run as fast as my legs would allow and I finally caught up to him but he was one foot way from running into the ocean and I felt like I was about to die from a heart attack .. At that exact moment while I was catching my breath and holding on tight to my son . I new I had to do something and decided to follow through with Bariatric Surgery.
Although I enjoy staying home and raising my children. I miss getting out in the world and beautifying people I have my cosmetology license for 10 years now and besides a couple of updo's I don't really do much.... I get myself all depressed because The Truth is I'm too Embarrassment return to work and be "The Fat Girl" and I know I have a great personality and I'm very outgoing but that's the person I want everyone to think I am ....Deep down inside I'm hurt and feel like "The Ugly Duckling" the bad part is you can hide a lot from people you see on the outside .....But not the ones who you live with and with my daughter in her pre teen years going through puberty and having her own coming into a lady issues... I struggle with myself even more because I want her to be confident and outgoing and I'm constantly telling her you can conquer the world....The world is in your hands and all the things that moms tell their daughter's..... I feel like such a hypocrite.......and realized I need to fix me before I can truly give her 100% of me.... I know I was meant for Bigger and Better things and not just sitting at home feeling sorry for myself and letting myself go.... I know I hit rock bottom.....My house is a mess My finances are a mess My son is stuck home with me because I'm too Embarrassed to walk with him .....I won't go out with my husband because I don't want to embarrass him... And all in All even how much my family loves me hurts and I'm tired of hurting so much and just want to give them all of me..... I deserve it and they deserve it too...... I love myself enough to give myself a chance and change for the better....
