kadeeagogo
i got a date!
Nov 21, 2008
sweet.
January 13th!
oh man, i am going to be so hot!
January 13th!
oh man, i am going to be so hot!
Soooooo!
Nov 08, 2008
I've been tampering around with this "virtual weight loss model' on Fitness Mag's online site.
This is what i look like know [basically at 230lbs and this is what i hope to look at 150lbs].
On other news, my band got signed to a french music label, we are very excited! So many deadlines are approaching with music and my normal work {GAH!]. This Thursday is my final consult with my surgeon. This is when i get my SURGERY DATE!!!
I've had a hard time losing weight and even worse my gym shut down...so i've been trying to eat less and basically am on a modified post-op diet and trying really hard to re-learn the way i think about food. I have my first appt with a consuler the 1st week of december. {i had to wait a MONTH!]
The support i have received from my co-workers has been amazing. My best friend not so much. That has been hard. She thinks if i lose 10lbs i'm "skinny"..she struggles with her weight as well..I worry that my surgery and the potential for obvious weight loss will somehow make a dent in our relationship. I love her so much and i would hate to think that would happen. I would never judge someone who is overweight, because here i am now and i know how hard it is. I know how hard it is to be denied something because of the way you look, or missing out on oppurtunities like the beach or wearing boots, OR CROSSING MY LEGS!
I'm on the lower side of obese..but i am obese. I am 5"3 and weigh 230lbs. I long for the day when I can even fit into a size 14 and can shop in the juinors sections again, or my favorte stores [H&M!} and maybe someday actually look good in skinny jeans.
This website has been so inspirational to me. I don't comment alot and am only able to log on once a week or so. But everyone's support for each other overwhelms me with just how many people are like me and struggle and found the path to help them through.
I have issues wth food and i know this. But i know when i need to be physically stopped from doing something..like eating. Eating is my addiction and i'm working hard to overcome my demons!
This is what i look like know [basically at 230lbs and this is what i hope to look at 150lbs].
On other news, my band got signed to a french music label, we are very excited! So many deadlines are approaching with music and my normal work {GAH!]. This Thursday is my final consult with my surgeon. This is when i get my SURGERY DATE!!!
I've had a hard time losing weight and even worse my gym shut down...so i've been trying to eat less and basically am on a modified post-op diet and trying really hard to re-learn the way i think about food. I have my first appt with a consuler the 1st week of december. {i had to wait a MONTH!]
The support i have received from my co-workers has been amazing. My best friend not so much. That has been hard. She thinks if i lose 10lbs i'm "skinny"..she struggles with her weight as well..I worry that my surgery and the potential for obvious weight loss will somehow make a dent in our relationship. I love her so much and i would hate to think that would happen. I would never judge someone who is overweight, because here i am now and i know how hard it is. I know how hard it is to be denied something because of the way you look, or missing out on oppurtunities like the beach or wearing boots, OR CROSSING MY LEGS!
I'm on the lower side of obese..but i am obese. I am 5"3 and weigh 230lbs. I long for the day when I can even fit into a size 14 and can shop in the juinors sections again, or my favorte stores [H&M!} and maybe someday actually look good in skinny jeans.
This website has been so inspirational to me. I don't comment alot and am only able to log on once a week or so. But everyone's support for each other overwhelms me with just how many people are like me and struggle and found the path to help them through.
I have issues wth food and i know this. But i know when i need to be physically stopped from doing something..like eating. Eating is my addiction and i'm working hard to overcome my demons!
its been a long week
Sep 13, 2008
This week i had my endoscopy.
Whoa, talk about time travel!
i was so scared...but the Dr. was awesome.
he took my hand, eased my mind with calm words
and then eased it with some time travel drugs.
Good times. I woke up with a juice box in my hand 1hr 45mins later,
completely unaware of what just happened.
Everything looked good though, and i make my final surgical consult appt
this week. I have to wait for approval from Blue Cross, but i hope all things are good. I slacked hard not going to the gym this week, because of work and music deadlines and the endoscopy. Not a good enough excuse i feel like, so tonight, i'm back on track like 10 yard fight.
More to come...
Whoa, talk about time travel!
i was so scared...but the Dr. was awesome.
he took my hand, eased my mind with calm words
and then eased it with some time travel drugs.
Good times. I woke up with a juice box in my hand 1hr 45mins later,
completely unaware of what just happened.
Everything looked good though, and i make my final surgical consult appt
this week. I have to wait for approval from Blue Cross, but i hope all things are good. I slacked hard not going to the gym this week, because of work and music deadlines and the endoscopy. Not a good enough excuse i feel like, so tonight, i'm back on track like 10 yard fight.
More to come...
Hey There!
Aug 19, 2008
well, i've been working out alot the last 2 weeks. I slacked a little over the weekend, but i find that my metabolism has increased a little and lo and behold a) i have more energy and stamina than i thought b) i love the high from working out and c) i lost a couple pounds.
That feels good, i really want my surgeon to see that i can take weight off and follow the diet plans. Still scared shitless for my endoscopy.....
