KarrieAnn
My first diet was when I was between 9 and 10 (it was also the year I was molested by my grandfather). I fought the bulge all through my teen years (I was unlucky to be a teen during the "hard body" time). Fell into drugs in late teens, thinking it would help me not eat. It did, I fit into my 16 year old sister's size 10 jeans. I knew, even then that drugs wouldn't be a lasting or healthy solution.
I got married the first time in 1989 and gained the lost weight and more during the five years we were together. Low self esteem, losing a child, and being overly comfortable in my marriage brought my weight in up to 200 at the age of 23. Separation from my ex and being with family, having a good job, and wanting more out of life I began to move; I swam and walked every where. I didn't change my eating habits greatly but the amount I ate changed as I gained confidence again. 1994 I'd reached a weight that even my chiropractor approved of and for the first time in a very long time I felt good about me and where my life had gone. That year, I got pregnant and at year's end I had a son.
Still single I worked to get the weight off and before March I'd lost all that I'd gained during my pregnancy.
1996 I married a wonderful man who loved me inspite of my craziness and I found complete happiness.
Today, I am still happy with my husband and my son. With happiness has come the weight again, careless I suppose, it is through no tragedy or life's failing I'm 250 lbs (per my bathroom scale). I've was offered the chance for surgery four years ago, but thought I could bring the weight down myself. I did for a short while while my husband was in Iraq... but when he came home I got comfortable again.
I am hoping that through this site and tomorrow's beginning of my journey, I'll finally find a way to be fit, emotionally healthy as well as physically healthy.
I'd love to live life without my hypertension meds (and my doctor just gave me a blood gloucose machine.. I'm on the boarderline of diabetes).
Thanks for letting me join this group, and I look forward to learning about others and through others I hope to learn about myself.
Thanks