9.5 months out

Nov 08, 2009

I am now a size 6 - I can't believe it - a size 6!  My blood levels are all in the acceptable range though some are low.  No back aches, no feet swelling, no breathing issues.  I'm staying healthy overall.  My depression and anxiety have been under control many months now, which is great.  I still have bad days but not ones that knock me down for days at a time.

I know that being a size 6 doesn't really matter, but it amazes me.  I've started to get comments that I need to eat more.  I don't like that.  Believe me, I'm eating.  I hate to admit it, but I'm not always eating healthy food -  but I am getting my protein, my nutrients and my vitamins.

I feel good other than being a bit overwhelmed at work.  Made a salmon filet for dinner tonight that didn't agree with me but am having a good eating day otherwise.

I just keep thinking that I'm going to balloon up again.  I've spent so much money on clothes once I thought my weight had evened out - first at size 10, then at 8, then at 6...I will be too thin if I lose much more.  Some days I still feel fat.  Some days I feel too thin.  Some days I feel just right but have a great fear of going back to where I was.

I guess my head has to catch up with my body.

I am grateful for where I am - for my recovery from this surgery, for my weight loss, for my improved health and attitude.

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