katwm
It feels strange putting my story out there for all to see but here it is. It's that naked moment.
I feel my life is a mirror of most women on this site with some slight changes. I was one of the middle children in a family of 8 kids. Dinner was grab what you can, quick or you go hungry. I still seem to be that way at meals. I have always been a large kid "Healthy" as I was told. There are two very distinct sides to my family. 1/2 are thin like my Mom and the other are "healthy" like my Dad. Mom is still alive but Dad has passed. Hmmmm.
My thinnest was in college. I was at about a size 12-14, Not small by any means but I am 5'7 and was athletic and totally starved myself and lived on beer and bologna like most college kids.
I modeled for a few ads for the college rugby team and magazines. Then after college my weight started to shift. Steady job, steady man that became my husband. We tried to have children for may years then went on all the infertility Rx.s for 8 long years. Hormone shots every day. I was psycho. We finally got pregnant in Sept. of '03 and miscarried that Christmas. Tough times, depressed, ate to try and feel better, depressed because I was getting fatter, ate more to feel better. The usual story.
We never tried to have children again after that and decided not to adopt. We are good now after many years of professionals helping us get through the anger and sadness. Blah-blah-blah ready to get over the sad times and move on.
Life is really wonderful now. We have a full house and ranch with lots of animals. Most are rescue animals.
BUT the weights still with me. I spent the last two years with a professional trainer and worked out 5 times a week until I lost 40 lbs. I stopped working out due to changes for both the trainer and my schedule. The workouts stopped and I gained the 40 plus another 10 in less than a year. OUCH. I have reached my limit. I am going to be 50 next year and damn it I want to be fabioulous at 50. Instead of buying a new sports car or go on a fancy vacation I am buying myself a new life and new body. And damn it I am ready. I am thinking of having the VSG and have been getting wonderful advice from everyone on this site. I hope to have the surgery before or around the holidays.
My starting weight is 255.
