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Hello all my friends.  Its been a long while since I've been on here, but thought I would update everybody on me!!!  I am doing AWESOME!  Down to 160 ( been at a stand still for about 3 months now).  Got 25 to reach my personal goal!  I am wearing a sz 10, and it feels great!  Its the 1st time in my life that I can remember ever being a sz 10! 

I've had several health problems this year, after surgery.  But if I had to do it all again, I deff would! 

I lost my job about 6 months ago with AT&T, due to my health issues, but I am enjoying being a stay at home momma while I job hunt!    I have the most fantastic and supportive man in my life, and woldn't trade him for anything.  We have been frineds for over 5 years, but just starting dating 10 months ago!  He loves me for me, and we compliment each other very well!!!

I'm going to try to remember to long in here more often, but feel free to ask any questions if you have any!!! 

I hope everybody is doing awesome, and my RNY saved my life!!! 

I haven't been on here in a while,  and decited to update everybody on whats going on with me!!!

I have had 3 strictures since surgery, and a pouch full of ulcers!  :-(  Been so sick, and not keeping anything down!  Been in and out of the hospital with dehydration issues from not being able to tollerate any liquids or solids.  FINALLY started feeling better thursday, and getting my energy levels back this week!  I will return to work tomorrow, after a 2 1/2 week UNPAID leave from being so sick!  This sure has taken a toll on me and my family!  But glad that I had some extra money put back incase this did every happen!  So we are not completely broke!  I went back to see my dr yesterday, and he said that hopefully I should be on the up side now, and that I shouldn't have (cross your fingures) any more issues!  My weight is dropping off like knowbodys business and I can't complain!!!  I get looks from guys again!!!  :-)  Even people I haven't seen in a while, and stunned!  Its a great feeling!  Sadly the skin is still there, and I knew it would be!  and I am okay with it!

Well I hope everybody else is doing good,a nd can't wait to see how much some of ya'll have changed in the past month!!!

XOXO,
Jess 

Today has been one of those days!!!  YUCK!!!  I was doing great all day until I ate the same dang thing I eat everyday for lunch!  I had 1/4 cup of beans!!!  Well they didn't sit right on my new tummy, and made me completely sick!  I tried to wait it out, but when I started to throw up in my trash can at work, I headed home!  I haven't been able to keep anything down AGAIN, like I was 2 weeks ago.  Not even water.  YUCKY!!!  So I just got off the phone with my dr's after hours line, and they think I have ANOTHER stricture.  I don't think my body can take much more of this!!!  They are going to call me in the A.M. and schedule another EDG tomorrow to go back in with a balloon and open the stricture back up!  :-(  Its not a painful process, just time consuming, and draining me of energy!   But at least I had already scheduled 2 vacation days for thursday and friday so I don't have to miss any more work! 

UGH...   I hate what my body is going through, and the thought that I honestly did this to myself by choosing to have this surgery!!!

EEEKKKKK....  Well now I got all that off my chest, and I just pray that things get better from here!!! 

Well this morning I was getting ready to hop in the shower, and I noticed that my boob's are in my freakin arm pits!!!  ahhhhh....  I always new that I would need a tummy tuck and a boob lift.  BUT DANG...  Already!  They look so bad!  I am so glad that knowbody see's me naked but me!  lol  I FEEL so sorry for the future guy who has to date me!  lol  I guess thats why God made Victoria Secret's WONDER BRA!!!  lol  Its just super frustrating!  I am so grateful for this journey that I am on, I just get so mad at myself for getting this way!!!

I hate to say this, but I get mad at my parents who LET me get this way at a young age.  I have been over weight since I can remember, and that was at age 3.   I gained 60 MORE pounds after I lost my mom 5 years ago to cancer, which put me at an all time high of 320!!!  OUCH, it hurts for me to type that number.  I went to councleing for a year and battled my addiction with food.  I had gallblatter surgery in that same year, and got down to 240. WOW, I lost 80 pounds on my own.  :-)  Well I ended up FALLING in love with this no good punk guy, and got preggo!  He and I haven't spoken since I told him I was preggo in Feb 2007!!!  He has never seen his daughter, but I am okay with that!  I worry though for my daughter, cause its not fair to her to grow up with out a dad!   But anyway I got off track there for a minute.  After I had my daughter I gained 40 pounds back, which put me back at 280!  Thats where I started my weight loss journey!  I lost 33 pounds pre-op with my dr's help!!!  :-)  I was so proud of myself fo losing that weight!!!

I have been stuck at my current weight for almost 2 1/2 weeks, and I am so frustrated with it!!!  I HATE stalling!!!  But I PRAY that in time I will start losing again!  I really hope my body is not done yet!!!  I am only 6 weeks out of my RNY, and if this FAILS, Well I would be the one who fails!!  That is just how my luck works!!!  

Well thats enough deep talk for me today!!!  Hope everbody has a wonderful weekend,

Jess

I woke up this morning, so sad!  I have no clue why!  I have been doing so great!  I have lost 60 pounds since the end of November, and am wearing a freaking size 16!!!  Who would of ever thought I would be doing so freaking great, not I!!! 

BUT I can't help but feel so sad!  I made an appt with my councler this afternoon, but she can;t see me till next week!!!  AHHHHH....  I want to lock myself in my bedroom, and cry!  WHY, I don't know!  I don't understand why I feel this way, or how to work through it! 

I guess its a good thing that I am realizing this, and not pushing it aside!  

BLAH, I just needed to right this down, and MOVE ON!!!  

Hope everybody is having a blessed week, and lets keep up the LOSING!!!  :-)

XOXO,
Jess

So Monday was my official day back at work, and it went great, TILL  tuesday, when i started to get sick.  I honstly thought I had the flu or something.  I was able to keep some things down, but not alot, then Wednesday mornng, I started throwing EVERYTHING up, as I still thought it was a bug, cause my whole body ached...  WELL this morning, I couldn;t take it anymore, so I called in to work, and called my dr, who said I needed a scope ASAP...

SO I left for the hospital with in 10 minutes of speaking to him...  When I got to the hospital, and through admiting, and up to EDG floor, the nurse, who remembered me from my surgery, said OMG< you are white as a ghost...  Rushed me to a bed, before passed out, as I was so dizzy!!!  I got 4 bags of IV fluids, and a "banana bag" of vitimuns...  They did the EDG 5 freaking hours later, and sure ENOUGH I had a stricture.  I feel so much better now... and lost another 5 pounds from not being able to keep anything down for several days!!!   But this is so scary stuff.  My dr said that if it happeneds again to call right away!  :-)  I agreed...  and Now I am back home, and will be back outta work for the rest of this week, and most of next week too!!!  UGH...  But glad I am glad that I am feeling so much better, and have a little color back in my face!!!  :-)

Hey everybody!  Hope you all are having an awesome week!  Its my BIRTHDAY week!  I will be 25 this Saturday, the 27th!  :-)  So excited to see my sister who I haven't seen since my daughters birthday in November!  :-) Well last week I decided that I needed a new pair of jeans to wear this weekend, since everyhing else is so big.  I went to Old Navy, and bought a size 18, as they fit kinda tight at the time, but I figured I still had 2 weeks before I was wanting to wear them!  Well this morning,  I tried them on to see if they fit yet, and THEY WERE TO BIG!!!  :-)  Glad I saved my recipt,  and ended up getting a 16!  :-)  Even if I can only wear them for a week or 2, I am one happy mommy!  :-)  I even took some pics in the dressing room, I was so excited.  :-)   I will be posting the new pic tonight!  

I will be going back to work Monday, so Kinda excited, and nervious about that, but hopefully it won't be too bad!!! 

XOXO,
Jess

So I did go to my 1st support group meeting, and it was VERY interesting.  It was a very small group of people, 7 total! 2 of which were the leaders/nurses from my Dr office, and 1 of them is 7 years out of RNY.  There was a lady who was 2 years out, and very interesting to speak with her, and here what she had to say!  There was another lady who had been trying to get approved for 8 months now, and a mother/daughter, who are just looking into WLS, and lil ol' me!  The newbie out of my WLS.  It was neat getting to hear everybody's different opinions and advise.  One of the leaders also brought a new protein drink, so that we could all taste it!  IT was SOOOOOO  AWESOME, and I loved it, I couldn't taste the protein at all!!!  Needless to say I ordered 2 cases.  It was almost like a vanilla frapachinno (or how ever you spell it) from star bucks!  I was in heaven!  They are made by bariatric advantage, I forget the exact name, but something Joe.  It was yummy!  I found my new breakfast!!!  :-)  I liked the Vanilla flavor the best!  Not some much coffee taste!  and at only $3.00 a piece, its a great price to me, considering all the cash I have spend on other protein that I ended up not likeing!!!  :-)

But anyways, I am going to try and continue to go every month, work promitting of course.  (I am going back to work March 1st, and I usually work 12-9pm!)  But will see if I can leave early once a month!  I felt so positive telling about my journey, and explaining everything that I have been through!!!

Well going back to see my dr monday morning for my mussle spasms that I have been having in my side and back!  So hopefully we can get that straightened out so that I CAN go back to work!  Right now I can't stil more that 10-15 minutes without bursting into pain from the spasms.  YUCK!  But hopefully we can figure something out.  I AM going stir crazy at home, and need to get back to my regular schedule, so that I can't think about food as much!!! 

Oh yeah!  My weight is looking really good!  I started this whole process at the end of November 2009, weighing 280 pounds, and 3 weeks out of surgery, I am weighing right at 230 pounds, and a size 18!!!   I haven't been this small since middle school!  I started to cry when I last got weighted!  It was a great feeling!!!

Well thats all for now!!!
XOXO,
Jess

I haven't seen my sister in close to 6 months.  and Next weekend I am getting to see her, we are meeting 1/2 way for my Birthday!  I will be turning 25!!!  Ahhhh  I am getting up there.  But anywho, I was 60 pounds heavier since I have seen her, and I can even see it in my face, that I have lost weight!  I am SOOOOO  excited for her to see me (We both used to weigh with in 10 pounds of each other, and now I was 60 pounds less than her!)  I honstly hope that this will help motivate her to lose the weight with me, weather it be through WLS, or diet and exercise!  I miss the OLD us...   But anywho thats all the new news with meeee, except I am going to my 1st support group meeting at my doctors office this thursday night!  I will post after my meeting letting you know how it goes, and if I am going to continue to go or not!!!

Have a blessed week everybody, and don't party too hard!!!  

XOXO,
Jess

Hello all...

I went to our local Ross store this afternoon (for those of you who don't know what that is, its a discount clothing store, you get brand new name brands really cheap!!!)

I hav e a dinner to go to this Saturday night with my guy friend, and I really needed a dress and a new bra!!!  So after hitting all the local good wills, and thrift stores I could think of me and my 2 year old ran into Ross.  After trying on close to 20 different dresses, I was so discouraged.  THEN on the clearence rack was this oh so cute black with while poka dots little dress.  BUT it was a size 18.  I haven't warn an 18 since I was in middle school, honstly.  It was the one and only....  SOOOO  taking a chance, I tried it on, and it FIT...  Actually a little big!  

I sat in the dressing room and cried, and my 2 year old kept asking "why cry mommy?"  They were tears of joy!!!  I know that I am only 2 weeks out of my RNY, but I did lose 35 pounds before surgery, and now 25 more after surgery!!!  I AM JUST IN SHOCK, that I didn't do this sooner!!!  

Okay enough about me for today!!!  Have a great week everybody!!!  WOOHOOO

Jess