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My Surgerversity!

Feb 01, 2012

Well today is my 1 year anniversary of my RNY. I am so happy that I've made it this far. I have lost a total of 110 lbs, I have more energy and my self confidence has increased. I still struggle with some of my mental issues but I believe I will have that for years. It's also a very sad day because one of our own died today. Lisa was such a inspiration. She had a strong personality and she was always happy. She will be greatly missed.

I don't know if I'm in maintenance or not. I have been 137-139 for a month. It's below my goal weight, however, they say I still have 6 months to go. All of my friends and family keep telling me that I don't need to loose any more weight. I don't want to loose anymore either so I pray I'm in maintenance stage. According to the BMI chart, I'm still overweight. I'm not sure if I will ever get normal but I'm scared to see how I would look if I did reach normal. I also have a lot of hanging skin on my legs and I lost my butt! My chest is pretty flat as well. However, I have no desire to have any skin removed or have any kind of lift. LOL

I am going to keep praying and take it one day at a time. Good luck everyone, keep your head up!
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I've reached my goal!!!

Dec 30, 2011

OK, I have reached my goal and the Dr's goal. My goal was 150 and the Dr's goal is 140. I am 139 and would like to stop loosing now. I have NO BEHIND! It's gone. I have always been told that I had a big butt. No one can say that now. I HAVE to do something about that. I DO NOT like this flat behind. My behind has dropped to my thighs. I've always had big thighs but this isn't pretty. I think I need to go to Target and get a girdle and start the leg lifts and lunges FAST! LOL Other than that I have come to terms with feeling everything I eat. I try to take smaller bites when I remember and chew a lot. I have had a piece of candy here and there during the holidays but a little goes a real long way. I've enjoyed sf ice cream (Eddy's) with sf chocolate syrup and red skin peanuts. It is a great substitute for my regular ice cream sundaes. I am going to work on weights now to tighten up this skin and let everything settle. I thank God for this surgery and for everything it has taken me through to make me a better person for my family.
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Over 100 lbs lost!

Dec 08, 2011

Well I finally lost over 100 lbs! YEAH!!! I am 10 months out and my tool is still working very well. If I eat too much sugar free stuff I feel funny. I'm also having funny feelings and can only eat a few bites of most foods. My husband said we got our money's worth. LOL I have 3 lbs and I will meet my low goal. Then I hope to stop loosing and buy clothes. I also need to do some work outs because I lost my bottom! It's FLAT. I have always had a high large behind and now it's gone. I'm not sure if I like that at all. I was told that I needed to do lunges and leg lifts to build the muscle. I need to start on that soon because it's so sad. Praise God I'm feeling good and loosing weight. Praise God I'm learning more and more about myself and I'm feeling better about myself. I no longer feel like I'm a embarrassment to my husband and kids. I feel normal and I love it. PRAISE GOD!
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3 week stall...

Nov 21, 2011

Oh well, I am having a stall again. I have 7 lbs to go to meet my ultimate goal. 2 lbs to go to have lost 100 lbs! I think the problem with me is that I get bored with food and want to change it up. However, I am allergic to so many things and I don't like a lot of foods so my options are few. LOL Therefore, I go out and "grab" something and it usually ends up being a sandwich so I have the "bad carbs" in my life again. Also, with this big scare on bag salad again, I'm scared to order and eat a salad anywhere including home! I still have time because I'm at 10 months at the beginning of December. I know I will meet my goal because God gave me that goal and it's His will that I meet it! Until then I have some things I need to improve on. First, I need to cut back on the carbs again. Second, I need to continue to try to get my portion sizes up to 1/2 cup at snack and 1 cup at meals. Finally, I need to get my butt up and MOVE! I have become so tired that I want to sit an veg on the couch again instead of walking or using my videos and work out. Heaven help me cause I need it. It is so easy for me to sit instead of work out. However, I will keep on trying!
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Getting close...

Nov 07, 2011

Well I'm getting close to my ultimate goal. I have 7 pounds to loose and I am at 140. I remember being at 140 in Jr. High and again in College. I really thought I was kind-of cute then. LOL Anyway, my husband swears he can feel my bones. I'm not sure if that is good or bad. he keeps saying that he has never been able to feel my bones before. I think it will be fine once the weight settles. I laugh because my son says I have elephant skin on my thighs. I looked and he is right! My behind is sagging and so are my thighs. If I got plastic surgery it would definitely have to be down there as well as my waist and arms. However, that is not in my future. I will just have to do some lunges and walking and hope it firms up a little so I can wear shorts this summer.  I'm still not eating much. I'm trying to get the portion sizes right but I see food as a tool for energy. I don't crave food anymore and could care less what I eat.

A good friend has had the surgery and I am trying to be supportive of her. I have to remember this journey is different for everyone so I can't think that she will go through the same things that I have. I know she will be successful though. Thank you all for your support. I am still in this with you and send love and prayers to everyone. Keep in touch!
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3 week stall...

Oct 24, 2011

Oh well, I'm experiencing the longest stall I have had. I realize others have stalled for more than 3 weeks so I'm not complaining. I would like to get the last 12 lbs off and get to one size clothes and not have to keep wondering if I should go shopping yet or will I loose more. (I have size 14-16's in my closet and I'm using pins and belts so until I get down to a size 10) I'm happy with my size now, but I'd like that 10 lb wiggle room if I can get it. I have been so busy the last 2 months. My son is in football which threw everything off! Walking is out, I'm too tired to get up in the morning and exercise. I'm exhausted but my vitamins are OK according to the Dr. I've had them drawn 2 times within 3 -4 months. I'm also trying to eat more but I am SO TIRED OF MY SNACKS!!!! I would love to find some protein snacks with 10-12 grams of protein in 1/2 cup serving size. I'm still trying to get in 5 meals a day. I'm trying to have a small amount of carb since I'd starved my body of carbs for years. I'm not sure what is going on right now. On a good note, I have 11 large garbage bags of clothes to donate to Goodwill from me and my children! I am donating 15-20 suits alone. When I think of replacing these clothes I shake my head. I will do it little by little. I just need to get to the place I need to be and stay there. I'd like to get back to my 1/2 hour walks and my 15 minute weights. I'd also love to get my Zumba class 1 night a week again. I'm going to keep on praying and trying. I'm sure it will happen if I keep trying. Pray for me as I pray for you friends. Identify your problems but keep working towards your goals!
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Finally starting to feel "normal"

Sep 20, 2011

So things are finally starting to feel normal for me. I can eat without feeling like I'm going to be sick. I can get most of my drinking in and do not feel like I'm tied to the bathroom. I'm getting my meals in every week day and doing better on weekends and I can walk for 30 minutes without wanting to cry! THANK YOU JESUS!!! I don't like how often I am faced with buying clothes. I'm not a shopper, never have been, don't want to be. Therefore, this getting clothes every couple weeks have been tiring. I found a great place to shop at the outlet malls in Myrtle Beach SC. It's called VF Factory. They have irregular clothes and I was able to get pants and shirts for $9. However, I guess I need to buy them tight because a week later I'm hearing, "you need to go shopping." UGGH I'm ready to get these last 16 pounds off so I can maintain and stay in the same size for a while. While I am so happy with my new look, my daughter saw me in my underwear and told me that I have "elephant skin". She's 13, what does she know! I'm not wearing bathing suits so I'm good. LOL It's nice to report something good for a change. Oh yeah, my hubby likes the fact that I don't order a meal but eat off of everyone's plate. It's so funny. The only problem is that I waste so much money on buffets. LOL I guess you have to take the good with the bad. PRAISE GOD EVERYBODY, no matter what you go through, keep your focus on God and it will all work out!
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Good news and bad news...

Sep 05, 2011

Well I have good news and bad news. The good news is I went to purchase another interview suit and fit a size 12 this week. The great news is that I got into a size 10 that was a little tight around the thighs but other than that it fit fine! I bought both!!! The bad news is, I weighed myself and I am back to 1 lb a week.  I guess I didn't eat enough this week again. I will work on it and try to pay attention to my portion sizes. I think I'm so used to eating a certain amount that I just stop eating when I get to that portion. Anyway, I'm still loosing so I guess it's good, good right? Praise God!!!
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Interesting...

Aug 29, 2011

This has been a stressful week. My daughter tried out for cheerleading and didn't get selected. She did her very best but she wasn't perfect. However, one of her so called friends made the team and she was worse than my daughter. This was her first lesson in "life isn't fair". My son is on the town football squad and one of his coaches is a "bully coach". This is his first time so he isn't that good. This coach yelled at him and told him that he would sit the bench the entire season. This was his first lesson is "you can't be good at everything" and "some grown ups are bully's too". My hubby is working 17+ hrs since the hurricane so he is home after I go to bed and leaves before I get up. I'm not sure how long this will last. I have a interview for a position that I would really like to get, however, I can't talk about it at work because it would cause bad feelings. I'm definitely being carried right now. But guess what, in the mist of all of this, I lost 4 lbs in a week. Now the reason that is so amazing is I have not loss that much in one week since the surgery except right after both of my surgeries. And I have been snacking on honey roasted peanuts and not keeping up with my food/calorie intake or my protein amounts. I have just tried to survive. I know that I have eaten more than usual because I've had a couple close calls with being too full. I guess being a under eater is something that I will have to live with the rest of my life. I pray that I learn how to eat sensibly and my body and this tool helps me to grow and get over this under eating problem! Life is full of stress. I thank God for this tool because I would usually be eating large cheeseburgers and fries, 2 ice cream sundaes a night, peanut M&M's during the day and the occasional bag of Salt and Vinegar chips. LOL Thank you LORD!!!
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6 Month bloodwork

Aug 01, 2011

Yesterday I had my 6 month bloodwork drawn and I couldn't believe how much blood they need! Thank God I had my protein bar to eat on the way to the car and during the drive home. I had a headache last night. I will always take a snack with me after I have my blood drawn because I didn't think they left any!!! However, I am glad that it has been done and I can't wait to see the results. I'm sure I will be low in some areas because I am not the best at taking vitamins on the weekends. It's something about waking up later that throws everything off for me.
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