some reactions to my new life, updates... 200

Feb 20, 2009

Well its bee over a month, about 5 weeks to be exact and I am down the first 36lbs which is an amaxzing accomplishment, but I do have some concerns and some in and out depression I am experiencing. The weight isnt moving as fast as it was before, so that is a bit worrisome, tho probably normal. I know that my body was in shell shock initially and lost a lot but i also kknow the body gets used to the diets and you have to trick your body and do something different. So maybe walking a little bit longer, or doing a few days of shakes might shake it up a bit? I had my first fill and this past week i have been STARVING. Howeever, the good news is that my weight has affected my menstrual cycles terribly in the past few years. I went two whole years without menstruating and when i started losing weight, i got it back in December, and I got it again this past week. So that is good news b/c I was really worried that my ability to have kids would be affected. But its kind of proving my endocrinolgists theory that if i lose weight, my body will adject accordingly and most likely go back to normal. Man, fat really does mess up your hormones! Also, I know that losing, hypothetically, 2 lbs/week would make me lose about a 100lbs for a year which is actually ALOT. But when the 2 lbs are budging, it feels so slow! Since my last fill on the 9th, i have lost 5lbs, which is probbaly good. Im sure i have a lot of water weight due to my mentruation etc and of course bloating. But the one thing I find odd is the fact that no food causes any problems for me yet, i have not thrown up, and havent experience any dumping! Just to try it, i had a piece of bread, no problem. Tried rice, no problem. Fibrous veggies like celery and  broccoli, no problem.... Im glad, but yet i sorta wish i couldnt get bread down so it would eliminate any urges! I got food stuck once and boy was that painful!!!! It lasted for about five minutes and then passed.

Im almost at the 40lbs mark and even tho i know i look skinnier i dont feel like i look like I lost that much weigth!! i mean, thats a small child!!! Im only down one size of jeans 18 to a 16 and the 14s fit but leave a roll on top, so im not ready for them yet, but am on my way, obv. Cant wait to get into 14's!!!! I also can put on some large shirts vs xx and xl. I guess looking at yourself everyday, you dont see it as much as someone else who hasnt seen you might.

So far so good tho. Have my second fill scheduled for next tues. Will see how my weight progress is then.

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