Clarissa A.
4 Months out
Jun 08, 2012
I am 4 months out today and I can hardly believe it. Time flies!!!
I remember feeling awful at the beginning and chanting "this too shall pass" while having breakdowns/crying fits.
Today I feel good!!!! I am wearing dress and looking forward to seeing my family for a Graduation party tonight. I am obsessed with food labels and so are my children, we are learning to eat healthy and everyday brings more energy.
Granted, I still have bad days and I have gone thru a couple of stalls but I am hanging in there and sticking to the rules. I am finally at a place where I can say no matter what I have been thru I LOVE MY RNY!!!!!
My only regret = I should have had it sooner
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I remember feeling awful at the beginning and chanting "this too shall pass" while having breakdowns/crying fits.
Today I feel good!!!! I am wearing dress and looking forward to seeing my family for a Graduation party tonight. I am obsessed with food labels and so are my children, we are learning to eat healthy and everyday brings more energy.
Granted, I still have bad days and I have gone thru a couple of stalls but I am hanging in there and sticking to the rules. I am finally at a place where I can say no matter what I have been thru I LOVE MY RNY!!!!!
My only regret = I should have had it sooner
Mirror Mirror
Jun 04, 2012
I take pictures and I see the difference but when I look in the mirror I see no change. My mind is playing tricks on me.
My aunt, whom I hadn't seen since 1 week after my surgery, came over for dinner on Saturday. I had to run out to the store to get more cheese so she was already at my house when I got back. I walked in the door and she didn't recognize me.
It is so surreal to me because I look in the mirror and see same ole me
Does this happen to you???
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My aunt, whom I hadn't seen since 1 week after my surgery, came over for dinner on Saturday. I had to run out to the store to get more cheese so she was already at my house when I got back. I walked in the door and she didn't recognize me.
It is so surreal to me because I look in the mirror and see same ole me
Does this happen to you???
3 Month follow-up
May 23, 2012
So I went for my 3 month follow up on the 17th and I left feeling kinda empty(for lack of better word).
I had a bunch of questions and I felt like they were all dismissed and I still have no answers
I have researched alot of them on this site and got good feedback but I feel like my surgeon should have been open to discuss. Pre-surgery he was very involved and would take his time to answer questions but now it seems like he is no longer interested. IDK, but I can't help but feel cheated
I had not seen him since my surgery, I saw the NP(male) when I had the Stricture issues and after the repairs I saw his colleague - a female surgeon. I found the NP and his colleague to be much more helpful but I dont know if I can schedule my appointments with them moving forward.
I honestly don't feel like I want to go back and see my surgeon in August - what's the point if he is going to dismiss my questions and concerns and make it seem like it is all in my head?
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I had a bunch of questions and I felt like they were all dismissed and I still have no answers
I have researched alot of them on this site and got good feedback but I feel like my surgeon should have been open to discuss. Pre-surgery he was very involved and would take his time to answer questions but now it seems like he is no longer interested. IDK, but I can't help but feel cheated
I had not seen him since my surgery, I saw the NP(male) when I had the Stricture issues and after the repairs I saw his colleague - a female surgeon. I found the NP and his colleague to be much more helpful but I dont know if I can schedule my appointments with them moving forward.
I honestly don't feel like I want to go back and see my surgeon in August - what's the point if he is going to dismiss my questions and concerns and make it seem like it is all in my head?
So excited
May 03, 2012
Going to a Latin WLS Support Group tonight!!!! It is so awesome that they actually thought of this and I get to practice my Spanish (believe it or not, I lose more of it as the weeks go by and I dont use it ).
I am looking forward to talking to people about the food, I am having such a hard time finding alternatives and ways of making it even a lil bit healthier for me and my family
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I am looking forward to talking to people about the food, I am having such a hard time finding alternatives and ways of making it even a lil bit healthier for me and my family
Aunt Flo soundoff
May 02, 2012
WHY oh WHY do we have to get this visit every month? I don't want it, tell her that I will not be home so don't come knocking at my door
I want cookies or a brownie or a slice of Strawberry Shortcake
I won't, I wont do it - I have come too far and I am only 40lbs away from goal.
Doesn't help that the weather has been terrible and I can't go for my daily lunch walk..... what to do, what to do. I have a whole entire hour to fill so that I don't start mindlessly snacking. Maybe I will go walk around Marshalls and look at all the skinny girl clothes - THAT should whip me into shape.
Wish me luck, the next couple of days are gonna be killer with these cravings
Thanks for letting me ramble
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I want cookies or a brownie or a slice of Strawberry Shortcake
I won't, I wont do it - I have come too far and I am only 40lbs away from goal.
Doesn't help that the weather has been terrible and I can't go for my daily lunch walk..... what to do, what to do. I have a whole entire hour to fill so that I don't start mindlessly snacking. Maybe I will go walk around Marshalls and look at all the skinny girl clothes - THAT should whip me into shape.
Wish me luck, the next couple of days are gonna be killer with these cravings
Thanks for letting me ramble
Shopping
Apr 26, 2012
So I took my mom and aunt to the mall a couple of days ago and I realized that it is no longer as fun for me. Not becasue I haven't lost weight, I am doing well in that area but figuring out my new body has me truely CONFUNGLED. I still go for the same style clothing that I have at home and frankly, my new body does not cater to them.
I used to wear a XXL from Old Navy. I tried on a dress that was form-fitting in an XL and it was big. That was exciting but then the L is still too tight - so, no dress for me. So I am kicking up my exercise so that I can break this plateau and lose these 50 lbs and reach goal. Until then safety pins to hold up my clothes it is. I give up on shopping until then
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I used to wear a XXL from Old Navy. I tried on a dress that was form-fitting in an XL and it was big. That was exciting but then the L is still too tight - so, no dress for me. So I am kicking up my exercise so that I can break this plateau and lose these 50 lbs and reach goal. Until then safety pins to hold up my clothes it is. I give up on shopping until then
Venting/Rambling
Apr 17, 2012
I haven't been gettting much sleep and it's really getting to me. My attitude sucks and I feel very negative about everything. It doesn't help that my finace lost his job and we are in serious financial turmoil, but I keep telling myself so are alot of other people in the country and I should be thankful for our blessings.
Then I stepped on the scale this morning and it says that I gained 2 lbs . Seriously?!?!?!?! My stress level is thru the roof, my stomach is in knots and I can barely even think of food and I GAINED 2 lbs!
I know that I need to get more calories in and I am trying - if only I could stop gagging and vomiting everything I try to eat. I find that my taste buds are extremely hormonal. What works todya doesn't work tomorrow. I can't even really bring dinner lefovers for lunch because they don't tast right the following day.
I am definitely "down in the dumps" as my 10 yr old son would say. I really don't want to be in a funk, but the more I try to pull myself out - the worse I feel. Mind you, I have never been the crying type and was taught that it is a sign of weakness but all I want to do is bawl my eyes out every other hour .
The only good thig so far today is that I was able to get my Protein shake down without pulling over to vomit and I am thankful for that.
Thanks for letting me vent
xoxo
Cecee
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Then I stepped on the scale this morning and it says that I gained 2 lbs . Seriously?!?!?!?! My stress level is thru the roof, my stomach is in knots and I can barely even think of food and I GAINED 2 lbs!
I know that I need to get more calories in and I am trying - if only I could stop gagging and vomiting everything I try to eat. I find that my taste buds are extremely hormonal. What works todya doesn't work tomorrow. I can't even really bring dinner lefovers for lunch because they don't tast right the following day.
I am definitely "down in the dumps" as my 10 yr old son would say. I really don't want to be in a funk, but the more I try to pull myself out - the worse I feel. Mind you, I have never been the crying type and was taught that it is a sign of weakness but all I want to do is bawl my eyes out every other hour .
The only good thig so far today is that I was able to get my Protein shake down without pulling over to vomit and I am thankful for that.
Thanks for letting me vent
xoxo
Cecee
Support Group
Apr 13, 2012
I went to a support group yesterday and I can't express how glad I am that I went. I had been feeling so alone and I just really needed to talk to people who can understand what I am going thru. Not that my family hasn't been supportive.
I am definitely going to make it a point to attend more often. I woke up this morning with a lil extra pep in my step
I am finally starting to feel better and I finally received my ZUMBA DVDs so tonight, IT'S ON!!!!
Made it
Mar 23, 2012
Made it thru my first week back to work, mind you I started on Wednesday
I am sooooooo tired, all I want to do is - go home, hug my luveys and crash on my bed. They had a Birthday Celebration and my Supervisor purchased 3 cakes! I stayed at my desk reading a magazine what I really wanted to do was but I made it - unscarred lol
I am finding that my taste buds are very different, everything tasted funny. I had cheddar cheese and Turkey and it was awful! Why does everything taste slimy?!?!?!? Oh and it smells funny too
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I am sooooooo tired, all I want to do is - go home, hug my luveys and crash on my bed. They had a Birthday Celebration and my Supervisor purchased 3 cakes! I stayed at my desk reading a magazine what I really wanted to do was but I made it - unscarred lol
I am finding that my taste buds are very different, everything tasted funny. I had cheddar cheese and Turkey and it was awful! Why does everything taste slimy?!?!?!? Oh and it smells funny too
Back to work - Not enough calorie intake
Mar 21, 2012
So I had a Stricture repaired last Tuesday and I was feeling great, so Sunday morning I got up to make my boys breakfast and all of a sudden I get a "hot flash" everything starts spinning and I dropped to the floor. I called my Surgeons office Monday morning and was sent to the ER. As I was registering with the nurse, it happened again. 3 bags of fluid later and 2 GINORMEOUS Potassium pills later I go home. Pale and tired as ever but home.
It is now Wednesday and I am back to work. I have a desk job so it hasnt been too bad but I do feel faint when I get up from my chair. I know that I am not getting enough calories in. It took 3 hours to drink a Protein shake! Now I am starting my yogurt - which I LOVE but that puts me at 320 calories for today so far. Any suggestions?
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It is now Wednesday and I am back to work. I have a desk job so it hasnt been too bad but I do feel faint when I get up from my chair. I know that I am not getting enough calories in. It took 3 hours to drink a Protein shake! Now I am starting my yogurt - which I LOVE but that puts me at 320 calories for today so far. Any suggestions?
About Me
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Surgery
02/08/2012
Surgery Date
Nov 25, 2011
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