Response to poster who labeled me as angry negative person

Jul 21, 2010

		On July 21, 2010 at 4:14 PM Pacific Time, leechetta wrote: Actually I'm not the same fun loving girl I used to be by a long shot  but I'm  fairly well balanced and have a good sense of humor and I don't go around all angry all the time.  I have been terribly hurt  in a very low down dirty way.  I"m sure my doctors are good surgeons but they were thinking of something else the day they operated on me or maybe  they were momentarily stumped and there just wasn't time in their schedule to deal with it so they hurried through and over tightened to get me out the door.  We all have bad days and make mistakes or maybe their idea of how a body should be is different than mine. This type of surgery is  pretty much of a crap shoot.  Most people are able to admit that something is wrong when it's wrong but not when it comes to plastic surgery -it seems.-even after the stature of limitations is up .  After all, my legs are still hanging on somehow and I can still walk about. A severely burned person might be happy as hell to have a thin sliver of skin like I have (maybe??) now holding their legs pelvis crotch and groin all together "teeter totter style." I think about that a lot.  I wasn't a burn patient though.  My groin was strong and healthy  and supportive. The worst of my problem can't even been seen in photos or in person . When I sit there is no compartment for the front of my upper leg.  It gets pulled down down into my inner leg. This stress has shredded away any adipose in my groin and   inner leg. My sinews and tendons are so tightly trapped in a direction they can't function well in. I even have trouble breathing with  so many very fragile sensitive areas trapped so tightly. Deep pain on each side of  my pelvic mound  like I'm been kicked real hard to the point of seeing stars almost the whole time I'm at work sitting. I have five more years till retirement.  I don't know how I'm going to make it but I've been thinking that way for the past nine years so maybe I can make it another five. Sheesh I hope so.  All I know is that I'm super ready for  complete bed rest  and maybe doing the dishes every other day - but I can't have that life style now. I smile a whole lot through it all - I'm a smiling fool--but I reserve certain times when I don't smile -that's for sure. Sorry about that.  And I'm scared and I can't get any help or  support   I've been to doctors and after they jump back in shock after seeing my pelvis  they compose themselves and say that I seem fine to them.  So I try to think that I will be fine someday but some days I can't believe that because everything hurts so much and is so out of whack.    If any one out there is considering having a surgery of the type I had after their weight loss be sure to take one of my pictures on your consulation with a plastic surgeon and tell him/her to look at it and promise that won't happen to you..

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