Anxiety - good or bad - is rising

Dec 04, 2010

After losing the same, 20, then 30, then 40 pounds all my life, I finally found my self nearly 100 pounds overweight and unable to lose it (the weight) anymore.  Having gained 75 pounds in the last five years (blame menopause, foot surgery and the stress of my dad getting Alzheimer's), I found myself unable to lose it anymore even with Weight Watcher's (my tried and true intervention in the past).  Even tried phentermine twice.  Lost 17 pounds on it and gained back 35.  Unable to live with the thought of not being able to climb stairs without being winded, or descend stairs without wincing with knee pain, I decided it was time to move on to another way to lose the weight and get my life back.  I still have an 11 year old daughter at home, as well as a 16 month old grandson to keep up with! 

My husband has been very supportive of looking into surgical weight loss, so two months ago we drove to Wichita, KS on evening to hear Dr. Ian Villanueva speak about his bariatric surgical practice.  I made an appt with him soon after, and now two months later, after a whirlwind of tests and procedures, I am scheduled for surgery on December 14th, in Wichita.  Dr. V and I decided the vertical sleeve seemed the best option for me, so that's what I am having.  I am finishing week two on the liquid diet, which quite frankly, is unpleasant.  I am not really hungry, but just having a hard time forcing all those shakes down!  Yuck!

I am 50 years old.  I have four children ages 31, 29, 22 and 11.  I am married to a wonderful, supportive, loving man whom I appreciate very much.  I work as a school social worker at the elementary level.  I love my job, but I am in and out of several schools as well as homes, so I have to have energy to do that!  We have four cats and two dogs that keep us busy too! 

I am looking forward to having the surgery, but am also nervous.  I am just ready to have it behing me and adjust to my new eating lifestyle.  In the meantime - I will continue on with the unpleasant liquid diet.  I am 100% committed to making this work!

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