Where do I start!!!!  Well I was always athletic in my teens, up to till I had my second child.  To make a very long and very sad story short, or at least try to make it short.  I was in an abusive relationship.  My ex-husband was very abusive towards me, and unfortunately towards my two girls also.  He was abusive sexually, mentally and physically towards me, and sexually towards my daughters.  It took alot of courage and blood to get out.  But we did it!  When I thought the worst was over, I found out that he sexually assaulted my daughters, and then that became a battle.  If anybody says that the "justice system" is just, well sit with me for awhile and I will tell you otherwise.

After a very long battle with the so called justice system, I had decided to have my children seek counseling....(spelling sorry).  I made sure that they were able to deal with the trauma that happened to them at such a very young age.  three and 16 months old.  Yes, I know he is a pig.

In a very long battle, I had put myself aside and focused on my children's well being.  So in that process, I had to deal with mental issues.  Post traumatic stress, and depression among the many wonderful (sarcasm) things to add to the already hard things we where going through.

So now that my children are now 16 and 18, and I have found the love of my life (which included another little darling boy!) I am starting to think about me again.  My daughters are doing amazing, (mommy proud moment coming up) My oldest daughter will be attending college in the fall and was offered from three university a scholarship (one being HARVARD!!!) and my youngest daughter will be starting 11Th grade in the fall.  They are both doing amazing.  Both honor students, (thank you, thank you very much)

I have decided that it is me time.  I think, no I know I deserve a second chance.  And the RNY surgery will give me that.  I have worked on everything else in my life (head) now I need for my outsides to look like I feel on the inside.  I love working at my job, love, love my new man, (who I am engaged too!!)and love my new little step son. Who new.  And I am so very proud of my daughters.

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