Im so ashamed!

Apr 05, 2011

I can't believe how much I forgot. I'm so ashamed of myself.  No more then 5g of sugar. No more then 2.5g of fat. HIGH HIGH protein. How could I have forgotten the basics????

So here I am getting back on track.

Step one: Go back to a support group meeting. 
     So luckily my support group meets the 1st Monday of the Month and luckily the dietician was there last night. OMG the things I forgot!!! I can't believe it. But it was so good to hear the success stories and new ideas for food. So Shannan (our dietician) says 'ok lets go around the room and tell ideas of how we've modified our foods to make them more healthy" OMG what am I gonna do???? I have no healthy ideas for food, hence why I've gained weight back. So it gets to me....well...wth....I admitted I had fallen off the wagon and why I was there. I wanted to run as fast as I could out of there. I was so embarrassed to admit to be a failure.  But I did it and I stayed and no one judged me and instead was so supportive and encouraging. As I was commended by Nurse Kathy that I had the guts to return and seek help. Even as I type this I want to cry. Having so many people there supporting me who truely understand the struggles we each face as we all continue this journey together was truely an inspiration. 

Step One is complete.

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