linda_989904
One Week of starting over and still going strong
Apr 11, 2011
Im so ashamed!
Apr 05, 2011
So here I am getting back on track.
Step one: Go back to a support group meeting.
So luckily my support group meets the 1st Monday of the Month and luckily the dietician was there last night. OMG the things I forgot!!! I can't believe it. But it was so good to hear the success stories and new ideas for food. So Shannan (our dietician) says 'ok lets go around the room and tell ideas of how we've modified our foods to make them more healthy" OMG what am I gonna do???? I have no healthy ideas for food, hence why I've gained weight back. So it gets to me....well...wth....I admitted I had fallen off the wagon and why I was there. I wanted to run as fast as I could out of there. I was so embarrassed to admit to be a failure. But I did it and I stayed and no one judged me and instead was so supportive and encouraging. As I was commended by Nurse Kathy that I had the guts to return and seek help. Even as I type this I want to cry. Having so many people there supporting me who truely understand the struggles we each face as we all continue this journey together was truely an inspiration.
Step One is complete.
An update
Apr 03, 2011
I want to hit my goal. I will hit my goal. I can do it. I will do it.
Almost 1 month post op.
Aug 08, 2007
Wow, where has the time gone? I can't believe a month is almost up already. At this time last month, I was a nervous wreck. Back and forth. Do I really want to do this? Can I really do this? What if something happens? What will happen if I don't do this? You all know these questions because I'm sure they all went through your head too. But I did it, I'm ok, and doing great. My only complication was an infection where my drain tube was. I haven't had any problems with any food so far. I even had ice cream after my daughters bible school program.
My only problem these days is dealing with family. I'm having some major family issues and it has me down in the dumps emotionally. Its amazing how hard things can get so easily. At least I have my husband and friends that truly understand who I am and believe in what I can become. I keep trying to tell myself I don't need those who put me down but it's hard to get over.
I'm trying to occupy my mind with other things and soon I'll be back to college. I got my degree in Office Administration in May 2006. Well after a year of looking unsuccessfully for a job, I have decided to go back to college to get my degree in Office Administration - Medical Support. It's only 5 more classes and hopefully it will open some doors that will allow me to find a job. Money is so tight right now and it makes it that much more frustrating knowing that I have a degree and knowledge to do these jobs that I'm applying for. Well if anything, I am least setting a good example for my kids about not giving up. And as crazy as it sounds, I like school. I know, ask me that in November and I'm sure it will be a different answer. LOL.
Hopefully my next update will be a more happy one.
Till next time...
I did it!
Jul 13, 2007
Oh well, I just wanted to let everyknow that I was home and overall doing pretty good. Now back to drinking that water.
5 days and counting....
Jul 06, 2007
Well, there's only 5 days left til the big day. I can't believe how quickly its coming. I've been in freak out mood for a couple days now and I now its normal but I never expected this. I can only imagine how I'll be on Tuesday. But I will get through this, I will come out of it ok, and I will be successful. And this time next year I will be having the time of my life. Oh I can't wait! Now if I can only make it through these next few days. Next post, after surgery.
Testing day
Jun 22, 2007
Surgery Date Set!!!
Jun 05, 2007
Well I seen the Dr today and I got my date for surgery. July 11 seems so far away and yet it seems way too soon. I can't believe I'm going through with this. I'm so excited and can't wait for the changes that this surgery will bring to my life. To be active with my kids and husband and not just be on the sidelines. My husband says he can't wait for me to lose the weight to go on his motorcycle with him. Well, I'm not sure I'm that daring. LOL. It will be interesting.
Dietician & PT appointments
May 31, 2007
And THANK YOU to my PT. Apparently they had been trying to get ahold of me all morning and they had the wrong number. My PT cancelled on me and THANKFULLY another PT gave up his lunch to see me. I live an hour away from Toledo and I'm trying to combine appointments because of the gas, so when they said my PT wasn't there I was not too happy. But it soon turned to joy. He was so sweet and went over everything and answered all questions. Now, why can't all people be like that??
Next stop. Appointment with the Dr on Tuesday!!
1st Dr's Appointment set!
Apr 27, 2007
My Dr's nurse called today to set up my first appointment with the Dr. I can't believe how fast this is going. Although my first appointment isn't for another month, it just amazing me how fast things have gone through. Now just a long month of waiting for that 1st appointment.