A Long time

Nov 14, 2009

Its been a long time since I wrote on this blog and I'm doing myself a disjustice. I really should keep track of whats going on in my head as well as my scale. I feel pretty damn good. I gotta learn how to get everything in in a day though. I still have issues with water/protient/vitamins ARG. So much to remember and I suck at remembering shit in the first place. Its a constant effort. I wish I could be as good as my friend Nancy, shes much better at it than me.

Food, I miss you. I really do. I am excited for the Holidays though I know that I will not be filling myself to the point that I feel sick and don't want to do anything. I just wish soooo hard that it would snow on Thanksgiving so I could take my kids out in it. Maybe this year I will actually remember to watch the Macy's parade because I will not be so preoccupied with the food cooking in the kitchen. Why are the holiday's so centered around the food when they should be about family? Time to get things back on track.

As for weight loss. I'm down from 326 the day of surgery to 248. I like starting with a 2 but I can't wait for those 49 lbs to come off and I can be in onederland. I am in a size 20 jean, some 18 stuff. And I tried on a dress from my mom's closet that still had the tags on it and its a size 16. It has been such a great feeling to start stealing my moms clothes again HAHAHA. But all that weightloss comes with a price. My arms/theighs/breasts are distroyed. Jason says I look weird now and that I looked normal before and shouldn't have gotten the surgery. Thing is I feel so much better about myself that I really could give two freakin shits about what he thinks I look like. I can see cheek bones, and colar bones and I think that I'm actually sexier now than I have been in years and years. I mean really who thinks a 320 lb person looks NORMAL...EEWWWW! Hes a dumbass.

I have my highschool reunion coming up. Scary and exciting. I am smaller than I was when I graduated so thats good. I wonder if anyone will notice because lets face its I'm still fat. There will be a few people there that I have wanted to talk to but most of them I just want to see who of them got fat HAHAHA.. I'm terrible. Gotta put things behind me and move on. Life is too short and too good.

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