New Year...New Start....New Life

Jan 06, 2012

 I remember when I was young...trying to stay up to watch the new year roll in.....knowing with some excitement that some mysterious occasion was waiting to happen.....the belief that a new beginning somehow would wipe the slate of all the bad that had happened and a new life was just waiting to walk through the door. 

I was a few years that went by when I realized that I was the catalyst of that new beginning...not the stroke at mid-night.  With my birthday also in the month of January, I believed again that here was a new beginning...a perfect time to start new habits...and to end bad ones. Now with my gastric bypass in August, there was a new beginning again.  

I used to tell myself that it was safe being overweight...those that liked or loved me....loved the inside...and the outside did not matter.  I would not have to question any ones motive...and my children...they would love me because I was their mother...I would feel the same about myself at any weight....I had a nice smile...and a pretty good personality.....I was a good person and that was enough.  

4 months post Roux n y .... 47 pounds lighter...5 clothes smaller I wake up with each day now being a new beginning for me.  I am hoping on a new lease on life to coin a phrase.... I put on pants (size 18) that I never thought I would wear again....and my shirts have gone from a 3x or 24W to an 18 or Lg.  I love when I look in the mirror and see that I look younger...and others tell me that I look younger as well.  I can walk up the stairs at the office without being winded multiple times during the day.  My feet do not hurt from standing or walking through the day - even if I wear heels...  My cardiologist asked me last month if I was glad I had this procedure yet.....  I still have issues with my blood pressure, and still can not eat meat very much if ever, I still throw up every few days, am having trouble with getting enough fluids and have had to double up on all vitamins and supplements.  I am still loosing hair in the shower and my hair brush....but yes...I have come to believe that I am glad that I have been given some new tools to gain my new lease on life.  

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