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I am not sure how I feel today.  Today is an emotional day on the rollercoaster.  I am having issues with protein and spoke with my doctor who moved me up to mushies.  At first I was excited since I was going to get to eat , however, I started thinking what if I start to gain my weight back.  Then I thought I was just being a baby and could have tried to continue to get the protein down.  (though it wouldn't stay down). 

I am so worried that I am going to fail at this process, I ask questions over and over  starting to feel like I am asking to much.   We don't have a support group in my area so I have to rely on my OH buddies to help me through. 

Thats all for today....Jill

I made it through the surgery with no issues.  My surgeon wants me on clear liquids for 30 days, however, I don't know if I can make it that long.  I may move up to full liquids because some of the jello is really starting to gag me.   As of 1 week I am down 14lbs. 

I haven't been that hungry but when my husband cooks the hunger abounds.  I believe it's mostly in my head. 

Until next post... Jill

 Everyone talks about the roller coaster ride after surgery but I am going through the similar before.   I am so so scared of making the wrong decision and making a life changing decision that cant be changed.   If I do this surgery and I fail I will never regain the self esteem that is already lacking.
Insurance is approved, but the heart approval isn't.